A/N : Second chapter is here as well (i wrote the two at the same time). Enjoy !!
John looked at his wife making them tea. She had something about her, John couldn't put his finger on. She seemed so joyful.. She was humming to a tune he didn't know, her smile so bright he could light an entire room. He looked at her in awe, but then he always looked at her like that. Once she got back with the cups of tea, she handed one to him but he put it aside on the little table beside the settee where he was sitting.
"Come here" he gently called, opening his arms to her and she went to sit on his lap. He hugged her, plunging his nose into her golden locks, breathing in her scent. "You seem brighter, I'm glad of that" He whispered in her hair. She smiled happily.
"John ?" She tilted her head to look at him.
"Hmm. What is it darling ?" He asked, placing a kiss on the tip of her nose.
"I want to try again. For a baby" she explained, fidgeting her wedding band - a habit she had when she felt nervous -.
"Anna, do you mean it ? Because I don't want you to do it for my sake. What you went through was hard and -"
"No, I mean it. I'm not sad anymore about the loss, not as much at least. I want your children, Mr Bates" she interrupted, smiling at him honestly.
"But what if you…lose it again ?" He wondered, worried.
"Trust me, Mr Bates. I want to try, we'll see what happen" she swore, her eyes staring into his.
"Back is my optimist girl", he sighed in contentment.
They drank their tea in a agreable silence, both contemplating the idea Anna had brought up. John believed his wife if she told him she was ready. Yet, he couldn't help but fear that if she was to miscarry again, it would destroy her and he didn't want that. Anna thought about the idea Lady Mary had given her and she wanted to give it a go. She wanted John's child and if this operation or whatever it was could give her that she was ready to try it. Although, for now she wouldn't breathe a word to her husband, not wanting to get his hopes up too much.
They decided not to put too much pressure on their tries. They just let their love and passion for each other lead them to the bed, which came quite naturally for them. They were so drawn to the other than a simple flirty remark could start the fire. Most of the nights, then would end up entangled and panting under the sheets. Their undying lust for each other never failed to warm Anna's heart. John couldn't believe how this beautiful woman could still want him with such fierceness after all this year but here they were.
"Well, if this didn't do the trick. I don't know what will", Anna joked with a saucy smile.
"Naughty girl", John said, kissing her again.