You're Always On My Mind
Part two: Do you love me?
by YaoiYaoiYeah

'I can't believe I'm thinking about Akira when I see Valentine chocolate.' Hikaru laughs at himself. Then he realizes he has been thinking about Akira the whole day. No matter what he is doing, Akira just pops into his mind on way or another.

'I never realize I think about Akira so much.' Hikaru thinks. He always thought of Akira as his rival. But how many people go to their rival for advice about their mothers? And who will know the schedules and whereabouts of their rivals' parents? Hikaru doubts a lot of people will worry about their rival skipping dinner. And nobody will note what their rival's favorite nuts are.

'I don't even know what kind of nuts Waya and Isumi like.' Hikaru thinks as he looks at the chocolate between his fingers.

"I'm done. We can go now." Mrs.Shindo walks up to Hikaru and says to him. She sees her son spaced out expression and asks, "are you alright?"

"Yeah, just thinking about someone." Hikaru laughs. Mrs.Shindo looks at the chocolate in Hikaru's hand and asks, "someone who you want to buy valentine for?"

Hikaru can see how the idea of him having a lover makes his mother nervous. He feels bad he made his mother worry about him even more than she does before. (He came out shopping with her so she won't be so worry about him to start.)

"Don't think too much about it, ka-san. Come on. Let's go home and start dinner. I'm starving." Hikaru smiles to him mom and heads toward the exit.

The mother and son go back to their home. Hikaru puts down the grocery bags and puts everything into the refrigerator while his mother starts on the dinner.

"Hikaru, thanks for spending time with me today." Mrs.Shindo says.

"I had fun. I will try and spend more time with you, okay?" Hikaru smiles. He has finished unpacking and he is getting out of the kitchen.

"Hikaru?" His mother calls.Hikaru looks at her.

"Bring that person home for dinner sometimes, will you?" His mother asks.

"Who?" Hikaru asks confused.

"The person you want to get chocolate for."

"Oh, hmm…I'll see. Maybe." Hikaru answers. He gets back to his room and takes out a go magazine. This time, he isn't looking at the diagrams. He opens the pages to an article about Akira.

"Am I in love with you?" Hikaru asks as he looks at Akira. (Akira's photo in the article)

Hikaru lies down on his bed and stares at the ceiling. He starts to weight Akira's place in his heart. Is Akira the one he wants to go home with every night? To share the rest of his life with?Hikaru rolls around his bed and answers himself, "yes."

Yes, Hikaru loves Akira and he wants to be with Akira forever. He jumps up from the bed and asks himself, "so now what do I do?"

The next day, Hikaru heads toward the supermarket and buys a bag of the white chocolate covered macadamia. He also gets some dark chocolate covered coffee beans since they look like the black go stones. He then write on a note card, "to Akira, do you want to be my valentine? Shindo." and put it into the urn.

Hikaru, after doing some thinking, know that there is nothing much he can do about his feelings toward Akira if he doesn't know how Akira feels about him. And Hikaru doesn't want to waste time guessing Akira feeling. It's better to just go up there and asks Akira.

Hikaru heads toward the salon of Akira's dad with the chocolate and thinks, 'Just give this to Akira and see what he says.'

When Hikaru reaches the salon, he sees a whole bunch of valentine chocolates on the table Akira usually sits at. There must be 20 card that asks Akira to be his or her valentine. These are only from the Salon. Shindo wonders how many chocolates Akira got at school.

Some chocolate has foreign names so long that Shindo can't even pronounces. The chocolate is probably worth enough money to buy 100 lb of Shindo's chocolate covered macadamia nuts. "What am I thinking? Akira is the prince of Go. He has a million of rich and accomplishing people chasing after him. He got so many choices in front of his eyes; there is no way he will see me."

"Well, no point of wasting the chocolate." Shindo puts down the two urns of chocolate and took his card out. He walks out of the salon and looks up at the sky. "What a waste of time. Oh, well. Some food will make me feel better."

Hikaru gets home and starts making himself a sandwich. His mom sees him and says, "Hikaru! You didn't tell me you're at home today."

"I wasn't gonna be home today. There was a change of plan at the salon."

"Let me cook you some lunch."

"It's okay, mom. Don't trouble yourself."

"It's easy. Go back to your room. I will call you when your lunch is ready."

Hikaru goes back to his room and starts reading his magazine. His mom starts making some soup and rice dishes when someone knocks on the door.

"It's you!" His mom says when she opens the door sees Akira standing there.

"You know who I'm?" Akira blinks.

"I saw your pictures on my son's magazines all the time. He always read your articles." Mrs.Shindo says to Akira.

"He does, huh?" Akira smiles.

"Come on in. My son just got home. He is at his room." Hikaru's mom moves aside so Akira can enter.

"Akira? What are you doing here?" Hikaru says as he gets down the stairs.

"Just wanna talk." Akira says as he opens his hand. Hikaru sees a couple pieces of the white chocolate covered macadamia nuts in Akira's palm.

Mrs.Shindo remembers those chocolates. It's the kind of chocolate Shindo was looking at. "Hikaru, why don't you show your friend to your room? I will bring you some tea." She asks.

Hikaru looks at his mother, who smiles to him kindly. The son then nods and says to Akira, "come on up. We can talk in my room." Akira nods and walks up the stairs.

Hikaru's mom smiles to Hikaru and says, "that boy seems nice, my son. Good luck." Hikaru thanks his mom and walks up the stairs after Akira.

TBC…