a/n: YAY US! haha; you won't get it.

disclaimer: i'm ultimate cool

Don't freak out, Lily, don't freak out. I'm walking to Moody's office. I've been in his office countless of times. Okay fine! Just twice, but still. I didn't do anything wrong did I? Oh my god! Farris told on me! She is SUCH a little kid! This is so unfair! I glance around at the other five; and they all look as nervous as I do (hence James). I look over to the Longbottoms. Just recently married. They were two years ahead of us in school and were former Gryffindors. Very nice people. I simply adore Alice. She's the biggest sweetheart. And Frank is such an awful big help. There was this one time where on my first day, I was having trouble finding the auror training floor and I accidentally slipped into the Muggle Artifacts place. Luckily, Frank was there visiting a man called Arthur Weasley and recognized me. The embarassing part was the Mr Weasley, who's actually a pure-blood, has no clue to what some things are. So he asked me what a pen was. The embarassing bit being that he wanted to try it out and accidentally swiped it on me. And i was left with a big blue slash on my forehead. And I tottally forgot I was a witch on that day and the pen couldn't wash off, so I was stuck with it. Terrible.

We've now officially reached Moody's office. He's just sitting there, looking a bit pale and uncertain. He doesn't even look up as we walk in. We each find seats on the couch - well, everyone except me. I stand there beside Serene who's shaking so badly. We look expectantly at Moody but he still hasn't looked up. Then we look at each otherand giving each other looks that say 'what the FUCK?!'. Finally, Frank, being so brave, speaks up. "Uh, Mr Moody Sir, is there a problem?"

Now he looks up. Wow, he looks sad. And a touch regretful. I wonder why.

"Yes Longbottom. There IS a problem," Moody replies strainedly. "Death Eater attacks. It hasn't donned upon us until now. And we must take this seriously."

Well, of course we must take this seriously. But what is this fogey getting at?

"So Moody," Sirius suddenly pipes up. "We all know that this is serious. But what exactly are you trying to tell us?"

The office is so quiet. I can't bear it. Happy thoughts. Okay, I got one. My first time using magic at home, turning teacups into mice! But then Petunia starts freaking out and hitting me. That's not too happy is it? I look up at Moody, who's eyes (both normal and magical) are so intent on us it's as if he's surveying us silently. I think I took a step backward.

"You fellows," he suddenly says. "You fellows are young."

Us fellows are young? Of course we're young! Do we look like old badgers?! I don't think so! How insulting! One more comment and I'll rip more of your nose out!

"Yes, we are," says Alice quietly. But she's staring at Moody with such concentration.

"Young," Moody says. The exact thing we're looking for."

He's looking for young fellows? Is it just me, or is the tension in this room rising like a cake?

"WHO is looking for?" questions James. Everyone is now staring remotedly at Moody.

Moody on the other hand, is looking at us. As if he's approving us; whether to send us back or let us hear his news. I personally want to go back, but as always, curiosity gets to me. He gives a big sigh. "The Order of the Phoenix."

Okay, The Order of the WHAT?! Phoenix?! Okay, this guy is sooo crazier than I thought. He used to be cool. This time, he's really off his cooker. Order of the Phoenix. Pshhh!

"The Order," he continues on looking at me as if he knew exactly what I was just thinking. "The Order of the Phoenix had just been founded recently by Albus Dumbledor himself."

"But... that doesn't really explain what it IS, does it?" James asks uncertainly. He's fidgeting in his seat. Wow. He's nervous! I guess there are firsts for everything right?

"The Order of the Phoenix is a... you can call it a guild," Moody says.

"A GUILD?" Serene repeats.

"Yes, a guild. Or a club, a group; whichever you like. It is a group of people gathering together descretely to fight off Voldemort."

At the sound of the name, everyone in the room aside from Moody shudders like mad. I'm so freaked out by the mention that I topple over on Serene. She doesn't seem to have noticed because she's too scared herself. Moody scowls at us. "It's just a name. And every one of you will be aurors. Learn to use it; fear of the name increases fear of the thing itself."

That's true. There was this one time - before I found out about being a witch - that I was eight, and in my school, there was this big chunky kid called Big Mo. Everyone was so scared of him, and they wouldn't even speak his name. I mean, it might sound stupid now, but it was pretty scary back then. He used to take my lunch for Merlin's sake!

"And why exactly are you telling us about this?" Frank asks impatiently.

Moody seems to give Frank a big stare. And silence is aroudn the room. I REALLY hate awkward silences. Moody now clears his throat. "The Order is a secret. Only people who are invited get to join. Everyone inside is sworn to secrecy."

"You didn't really answer my question."

"Oh, but didn't I? I just said members are accepted only by invitation. People are sworn to secrecy. If people were sworn to secrecy, why would I be mentioning all this to you?"

Okay, input awkward silence yet again. But actually, that old bugger's got us all thinking. Why would he be telling us if he's sworn to secrecy? Members are only eligibale by invitation... Oh my god! Is he asking us to JOIN?!

"Are you asking us to join?" I voice the question everyone's been dying to ask.

And once again, he's staring at us with a hard lock. "Yes, I am asking you to join. We need as many people as possible."

"But, why US?" Serene asks.

"Because, all six of you show extraordinary powers through your training. You're youthful, fast, lithe and alert. And we need as many recruits."

"So, we HAVE to join?" Sirius asks.

"No, you do not have to join. Myself and Dumbledore do not wish you to make a choice unwillingly. I'm asking you to join; to actually join is up to yourselves."

"And we're suppossed to tell you here, right on the spot?" James asks with disbelief. Moody nods.

Okay, how am I suppossed to make a decision of a lifetime right here in this office? How can I think clearly? This is so stupid! I dont know if I should join or not. I look around at the others who are deep in thought. Sirius looks a bit confident and seems to be wanting to join. Serene looks utterly freaked out and extremely stressed. Franks and Alice have moved aside to discuss, and James has his head in his hands. Okay, lets do it this way Lily. Positive and Negative.

Positive:

- I get to be in a guild!!

- I can help out people

- I can stop evil

- People will look up to me

- Voldemort will have a worse chance of rising to power

Negative:

- no garauntees of living through it all

- no time for a normal social life

- won't ever have time for a boyfriend

- won't get married

- won't have a daughter

Okay... I don't know! I want to get married! I want a daughter! I want to stop evil and ruin Voldemort's plans! I don't know what to do!

"I'm in," says a voice. Everyone looks up abruptly and see Sirius with a grave face. Moody nods. Now he looks around the room and his eyes land on Frank.

"Alice and I," he starts, taking big breaths and looking still a bit weary. "Alice and I have come to a decision to accept your invitation. And it is a complete honour."

Okay, now he's onto James.

"Errm..." James trails off. "I don't know. This is the first independant decision I'm making that will actually affect my life forever. But if it means that I will be fighting to protect others, count me in."

He's accepting? Wait - why do I care? Focus on your own choice. It's Serene's turn.

"I... Yes. I'm in," she suddenly states firmly, though her voice is quivering. Oh great. It's my turn and everyone is staring at me. I can't answer.

"Well, Miss Evans?" Moody asks.

"I accept!" I squeak without thinking. Oh my god! What have I just gotten myself into? Oh my god, oh my god; OH - MY - GOD!!!!

"Thank you for accepting," Moody says, interrupting my thoughts. He stands up and suddenly hands each of us a folded up piece of paper. "These are directions to the hideout of the Order. This Sunday, 6:00pm SHARP. Follow the instructions carefully, and make sure you read them right. And do NOT tell anyone any of this. When you get out of my office, tell them that you were sent on an assignmetn together. No one will suspect it as I hand out assingments regularly."

All of us nod together as we stifly march out of his office. Serene stumbles a bit and loses her footing, but Sirius catches her. She really does seem titchy. She can't even walk without support. Luckily Sirius is holding firmly onto her arm. I glance over to James and am quite surprised to see him staring at me.

"You okay there Lily?" he asks softly. No, I'm not okay. But what am I suppossed to say? I'm an auror. I'm suppossed to be brave. I nod and look away. Apparantly, no one is concerned about us, as everyone's still trying to take in the death of the Sullivens. And I'm glad no one's giving us any questions because I personally do not want any. I don't want to talk to anyone! I'm never going to be my old self again. But I want to be normal! I want to go home and eat a tub of ice cream infront of the telly. I want to spend all my money on clothes and accessories. I want a marriage! I want a family! I want out of this mess!

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It's now officially Sunday. Sunday, 5:30pm. Serene, Sirius, James and I have decided to go to the meeting together; and we're to meet at my place at 5:30. Everyone's here right now; infact they're quite prompt - something I would never think that Sirius and James would be. Constance isn't here. She's actually been missing since 4:00. I don't know what's so important but she seemed rushed when she was getting out of the house.

"So," Serene says. "Let's see what message is actually given to us in this sheet of paper." She unfolded the paper and read out loud. "You may find the Order of the Phoenix at Number 87 Thindrow Alley". She looked up expectantly at us. "I suppose this house is in Surrey."

"We're suppossed to go to this address," says Sirius. "I wonder what this place looks like."

"It's a house, Sirius."

"I know, but what KIND of house?"

I too am wondering what kind of house this is. Is it gonna be big and creepy? I'm afraid of the dark! Oh great. You remember AFTER you agree to this. But I'm an auror. I'm not suppossed to be afraid of the dark. I just coincidentally am. Heh. Pretty stupid for an auror-to-be huh?

"If I'm correct, it should take about twenty minutes to get there by foot," James says, and everyone turns to him. "And I'm too nervous to stay here and do nothing. Let's set out on foot."

There are murmurs of agreement from Sirius and Serene. But I'm too scared to move. I don't want to go! I never even decided upon it! The answer just poppoed out and I said the wrong one! But I can't back out of this now can I? Moody has faith in me. Might as well go for the hell of it.

So now, I'm locking my door. And now I'm walking onto the pavement. Sadly, my legs feel like lead. Don't worry about me - I'll slowly make my way to.. Thindrow Alley. I think I passed it once. If I remember correctly, it's quite a didgy place. Why would the Order be in a place like THAT? Hmmm... well, Dumbledore was always a dodgy one himself. Cool but dodgy.

Twenty minutes of walking is not good for stiff legs. I can't even feel them anymore. I had to get help from Constance, who seemed to be having the same dilema as myself. We supported each other all through the walk, while the guys walked behind us making jokes. I don't see what's so funny about this. And now we're at this stupid Thindrow Alley. I'm right - it's IS dodgy. With old, rusting dingy houses and cracked pavement. James and Sirius search for number 87, but they can't find it. After five minutes of frantic search, they give up.

"I don't get this!" mutters Sirius in distress. "This is Thindrow Alley! I don't see no 87!"

At the mention of 87, I could've sworn that the Alley go a bit bigger. But it's just my imagination. Maybe it's like an oasis; I'm so tired and it was like walking in a cold desert back there.

"Well, maybe 87 is just... further down," replies James doubtedly.

Once again, the scenery changed at the mention of 87. This is so weird... I take out the piece of paper and thinkt to myself; 'You may find the Order of the Phoenix at Number 87 Thindrow Alley'. Oh my god! It's actually there! This place is weird. Small; but cozy. I walk up to the door and am about to reach the bell until James stops me.

"Lily, what the fuck are you doing?" he asks in a puzzled voice. I smile up at him.

"I'm entering the house James. Duh!" I tell him. Everyone looks at me as though I'm crazy.

"Nothing's there."

"If nothing was here, why would I be standing here?"

"Because you're pulling a crazy stunt on us."

"No, I'm not! Think about it you guys!"

"We're thinking, and we're thinking that there's nothing here."

"NO!! THINK about it! Think about what Serene read back at the house! Just THINK about it!"

A few seconds later, everyone sees it. They're all flabbergasted. And it's 5:59. Okay... oh my god, I can't do this. I look expectantly at Sirius who's beside me and let him ring the bell. It's rung. And I'm still cowering and shaking like mad. And out of nowhere, Frank and Alice are right behind us. This is getting exciting.

Suddenly, I hear a small creak of the door and a electric blue eye appears.

"Hang on a second," says a gruff voice behind the door. Unmistakenly Moody. He slowly pulls the door open and we're in. We're actually in the house. And We're actually part of the Order. Oh. My. God.

i (ms buggers) have decided to go on a writing hiatus for this week, as i have developed a very sad cough and cold. i dont know how, seeing as it's summer, but this year's weather seems to be going from cold to hot to cold again. also, i'll be expecting family - my big cousin's here and i havent seen him in three years. i do wish to have a nice catch up. unfortunately, i must leave this for the remainder of the week and maybe the week after; but seeing as no one reads it, i might as well just stop right here.