I WILL BE YOURS FOREVER
CHAPTER 2 "Reflection of the Past"
A Gundam Seed fanfic by lorna-endou aka mylene-jenius
Milly went back to the Dinning Hall to call Kira and the others and asks them to go to the MS Deck. When they arrived there, they saw Marrue staring at an empty space where the Strike used to be as tears in her eyes starts to gather. The only thing they could do was to look at her. They couldn't do anything. They couldn't say anything. They don't know what to do.
Cagali-"Maybe we should try to approach her"
Milly-"I don't know."
They could not decide whether to approach her or not when suddenly Lacus disappears from their sight. As they look for her, they were surprised to see that she already approached Marrue.
Lacus-"Are you alright Miss Marrue"
Marrue didn't answer. She just stood there like a lifeless person. She did not even bother to look at Lacus.
"You know, you shouldn't be like that. I know you were hurt, but life doesn't end there. Even though the Commander is gone you must fight. Fight for the future. The future that many people lost their lives in order to achieve, including the life of Commander La Flaga. The Commander doesn't want you life to end because of his death. He wants you to move on. He wants you to continue on living. He wants you to protect this peace that he's fought so hard to attain. So You mustn't be like that. Fight, fight for the new future."
Lacus tried everything she can in order to comfort Marrue but nothing happens. She did not respond to anything Lacus says. As Lacus was about to give up, suddenly Marrue turns her head towards her. Lacus was stunned when suddenly all of Marrue's emotions came towards her. Lacus saw everything. She saw what Marrue feels by just looking at her. Her face tells everything. She saw all of Marrue's hatred, despair and anxiety. She could not believe it. She didn't know that this was Marrue's true feelings. Lacus couldn't say anything as tears slowly dropped from her eyes. She drops to her knees as she tried to keep herself from crying. Marrue approaches her and looks at her. She raised her head and also looked at Marrue.
"Mu is not dead. No it can't be. I refuse to believe it."
That's the only thing that Marrue has said to Lacus and left the MS Deck. After Marrue left the Deck Kira and the others rushed towards Lacus. Kira helped Lacus to stand up and wipes the tears from her eyes.
Kira-"Are you alright? What happened? What did Miss Marrue say?"
Lacus-"I'm alright. This is not good. Miss Marrue is in a situation where she doesn't want to admit that the Commander is dead."
Cagali-"This is bad Kira. If we don't do anything to help her, I don't know what she might do to herself."
Kira and the others were disappointed because they did not accomplish anything. They were disappointed because they couldn't do anything to help Marrue. As they were thinking on what to do next, Murdock then approaches them and said.
"Miss Lacus, Miss Cagali, You must return to your ships immediately. We will be entering the earth's atmosphere in 30 minutes."
Cagali-"Kira, Athrun I think both of you should stay here and look after Miss Marrue."
Lacus-"She's right, you must keep an eye on her."
Kira-"Alright, be careful you two."
Lacus-"I'll be fine." Lacus kisses Kira on the cheek.
Milly-"I think I should also head back to the bridge."
Dearka-"Hey where's my goodbye kiss, Honey?"
Milly-"HONEY! In your dreams buddy."
Milly left the Deck and went to the bridge. Lacus and Cagali boarded a shuttle that transported them back to their ships. Athrun, Kira and Dearka went to the Dinning Hall to think of a way to help Marrue.
Athrun-"What do we do now?"
Kira-"Let's just look after Miss Marrue until we land on earth."
Dearka-"Do you even know where she is?"
Kira-"Maybe she's in the bridge."
Athrun-"Hey Kira can you tell me how Commander La Flaga and Miss Marrue met?"
Kira-"Well I'm not sure but I think the first time they met is at Heliopolis. Remember the time when you attacked Heliopolis to steal the Gundams"
Athrun-" I remember that, I saw you with Miss Marrue when I was about to steal the Strike."
Kira-"Yes, after you left we saw La Cruset and Commander La Flaga fighting with each other as they entered Heliopolis. Commander La Flaga was using a Mobile Armor while La Cruset was using a Ginn. The battle ended when the Archangel appeared. After that we were forced to board Archangel because Miss Marrue told us to come along with them or else.
Dearka-"Wow! What a woman, she dares to threaten innocent children."
Kira-"As I was saying. When we were inside the Archangel we met Miss Natarle and Commander La Flaga. I think that was also the first time Miss Marrue met the Commander."
Athrun-"So that's how the two met. By the way I was just curious Kira, why did you agree to pilot the Strike in the first place? Why didn't you just ask them to drop you off in another colony"
Kira-"At first I refused to pilot it but then the Commander told me that I must pilot the Strike because I' am the only one who can pilot it and also I must pilot it if I want to protect my friends. At first I just wanted to protect someone. But once I pulled the trigger I realized that it's too late turn back anymore."
Meanwhile inside Marrue's room. Marrue is on her bed thinking and crying.
"I don't believe it. You're not dead. I refuse to believe it. It should have been me. It should have be me who died back there. It's all my fault. If I was a just better Captain then maybe you were still be alive. Why must these things happen to me? Why must everyone who is close to me die? Why am I the only one left alive? I've been close to death many times. Why do I keep on surviving? First when the ZAFT forces attacked Heliopolis Athrun could have killed me if Kira wasn't there. Then the attack on Alaska, That mobile suit could have shot at the Archangel's bridge but once again Kira saved me. Lastly when the Dominion fired at us, it should have been me if not for Mu's sacrifice. Why must I keep on living like this? Why did I even met you? Why did you even come back? I said I will never like a person who pilots a Mobile Armor, but you insisted, you said you are a now Mobile Suit pilot, but that thing led you to your death. Why did leave me? What is the worth of having this peace if you're gone? I don't want to have peace if peace means to loose you.
Marrue just kept on crying inside her room.
The Archangel and the other ships finally landed on Earth. They landed where the Country of ORB was. After the three ships had landed, Kira and the others met inside the Archangel so that they could discuss where they will be going. They decided to stay at Reverend Malchio's house for the time being. As they were about to leave Milly notices that she has not seen Marrue since the time when they were at the MS Deck.
"Has anyone seen Miss Marrue?"
Dearka-"No. I haven't seen her since the time when she was at the MS Deck."
Kira-"I thought she was with you in the bridge when we entered the Earth's atmosphere?"
Milly-"No, she was not there the whole time."
Cagali-"If she's not in the bridge then where did she go?" looking worried
Lacus-"Maybe she's in her room?"
Kira-"Let's look for her then."
Kira and the others go their separate ways to look for Marrue. Kira and Lacus decided to check the bridge but Marrue was not there. Athrun and Cagali goes to the MS Deck but then again Marrue was not there. Finally Milly, Dearka and Sai went to her room but she was not there also. The group decided to meet at the MS Deck. Upon arriving at the Deck Kira asks the others if they found Marrue..
Athrun-"No. We could not find her."
Dearka-"No luck here also."
"Where could have she gone to?" Cagali said with a worried look on her face.
Sai-"Maybe she went to the other ships in order to check on the situation."
Everyone was worried about Marrue when suddenly Lacus notices that someone is inside the Sky Grasper. Lacus points her finger at the Sky Grasper and said.
"Look everyone, isn't that Miss Marrue?"
Kira and the others quickly turn their heads towards the Sky Grasper. They noticed that someone was inside. Kira and Athrun immediately rushed towards it. As they got closer, Kira notices that it was Marrue who was inside the cockpit. Kira climbed into the cockpit to see what Marrue is doing. He saw Marrue sitting inside crying.
"What are you doing here? We were so worried about you."
Marrue just looks at Kira and didn't say anything. Kira tries to convince Marrue to go down. After a while Kira finally convinces Marrue. When Marrue got down and after taking a few steps, she suddenly collapses to the ground unconscious.
Cagali-"What happened? Are you alright Miss Marrue?"
Kira-"Let's take her to her room."
Kira carried Marrue and walks toward the door.
Lacus-"I'll go with you" Running after Kira.
Kira and Lacus left the Deck while Athrun and the others stayed behind. Cagali approached Athrun. She looks at him with a worried look on her face.
"Will she be alright?"
Athrun placed his hand on her shoulders and said.
"She'll be fine"
Dearka-"I think she's just exhausted."
Milly-"I hope so."
Sai-"Let's just see what happens after she wakes up. By the way, I'll just go to the others to see what they are doing." Sai leaves the Deck and goes to the other ships.
MillyDearka-"I think I'll do the same."
Milly and Dearka also leaves the Deck leaving Athrun and Cagali behind. Athrun looks at Cagali in the eyes and asks her.
"What are we going to do from now on?"
"We must rebuild this country and start a new life, but I need everyone's help in order to do that."
"Don't worry I will always be here for you."
Meanwhile back in Marrue's room. Kira and Lacus watches over Marrue and waits for her to wake up. Lacus looks at Kira and says.
"What are you going to do now?"
"I want to live a normal life from now on. I don't want to fight anymore."
"Why don't you come with me then? We could stay at Reverend Malchio's house for as long as we want. We could just plan our future after that."
"Thank you Lacus." Kira stood up from his chair
Lacus-"Where are you going?"
Kira-"I'll just go back to the others and tell them to get some rest because we don't know when she'll wake up."
"Alright."
Kira returned to the MS Deck. When he arrived there he only saw Athrun and Cagali.
Kira-"Where are the others?"
Athrun-"They went outside to check on the others."
Kira-"Oh I see. I think we should get some rest first. We don't know when Miss Marrue will wake up."
AthrunCagali-"OK."
Athrun and Cagali left the Archangel while Kira returned to Marrue's room. When Kira entered the room he saw Lacus sleeping in her chair. Kira approached Lacus and told her that they should also rest. The next morning Lacus wakes up early in order to see how Marrue is. Lacus goes to her room. When Lacus entered the room she was surprised to see that Marrue was not there. She did not bother waking up Kira and just searched for Marrue by herself. Lacus searched the entire ship. After a while she finally saw her inside the bridge.
"Are you feeling alright Miss Marrue?"
Marrue did not answer Lacus.
"Please don't let yourself suffer anymore. Do you know that the Commander does not want you to be like that? He wants you to be happy now that the war is over.
Unexpectedly Marrue answers Lacus
"But he died because of me."
"It's not your fault. It was his own decision to protect the one he loves."
"But it's my fault. I'm not a good Captain. If I was just a better Captain then maybe he was still be alive.
"No you're wrong. Do you think we would still be alive and achieved this peace if you were a bad Captain?"
"But I did not ask for peace in exchange for his life. I don't want it. I don't want to have peace if he's gone."
Suddenly Lacus looks at her with anger and said
"ISN'T IT YOUR WISH FOR THE WAR TO END? ARE YOU NOT SATISFIED NOW THAT THE WAR HAS ENDED? ISN'T IT YOUR WISH FOR THE FIGHTING TO STOP? WHAT IS IT THAT YOU FOUGHT FOR? WHAT IS IT THAT YOU BELIEVED IN? ISN'T IT FOR THE HOPES AND DREAMS OF OTHERS?" Lacus said trying to keep herself from crying.
"Do you think the Commander would be happy if he knew you said that? Do you think Kira and the others would be happy knowing you said that? Do you think Tolle, Nicol, Lord Uozumi and many others who died would be happy to hear? You're not the only here who has lost a love one. You're not the only one who was hurt. Did you know that my father also died during the war? You're so selfish. I cannot believe you are the Marrue Ramius whom I once knew. The Marrue who doesn't give up. The Marrue who will fight till the end. But I guess I was wrong. Tears are now flowing from her eyes.
"I could never have imagined hearing that from you. I guess I must have thought highly of you. I thought you were a very determined person, a person who will not let anything stop her from fighting for what she believes in, but I guess I was wrong. Rather you are the most self-centered, unreasonable, selfish individual whom I never should have trusted.
Lacus left the room crying. At the hallway Kira saw Lacus crying. He approached her and asks what happened. Lacus just nodded her head and didn't answer. Kira wrapped his arms around her. Lacus placed her head on his shoulders and kept on crying.
End of Chapter
Hope you like this chapter also. Sorry for the delay. Please understand if I made mistakes with my grammar. Please RR thanks. Chapter 3 "Separation" coming up