Hey everyone.
Here is chapie 2...
Hope you'll all enjoy it.
Eyes are the windows of the soul
by: Kana
Chapter 2
Back in the house...
Alone, again...
I peer through windows, watch life go by.
Dream of tomorrow, and wonder "Why?"
The past is holding me, keeping life at bay,
I wander lost in yesterday,
Wanting to fly,
But scared to try...
I'm sitting in front of my desk. Thinking of nothing. I'm just blankly staring in the fire of the candle in front of me.
An empty piece of paper lying before me. I don't even remember what I wanted to write down...
I sigh and shake my head. Averting my gaze from the flame to the two cards standing beside the candle.
'Time to get over that Tala!'
I take the 2 cards with trembling fingers, stroking my thumb over the little bear on the front.
I close my eyes, open my drawer and lay them carefully in it.
A little smile creeps onto my lips when I close the drawer.
How could I have been so foolish to believe it could be true. It probably was just someone who wanted to fool me, hurt me...
Well. I guess it worked...
But than again, the text on the last card seemed so honest...
I sit and watch the rain, and see my tears run down the windowpane,
I sit and watch the sky, and I can hear it breath a sigh...
I suddenly feel so empty...
Look at me and tell me who I am
Why I am, what I am.
Will I survive?
Who will give a damn,
If nobody knows who I am...
Tears are rolling down my cheek, but they don't even bother me...
No-one is here. No-one can see me. No-one cares...
I'm so lost in my world of self pity, that I don't hear my door opening...
I don't realise someone is here before I feel a hand on my shoulder.
I turn abruptly. Seeing Bryan standing there...
He looks shocked... He never saw me cry. Not even after the worst punishments in the Abbey.
Yes Bryan, take a good look. My mask is breaking. My true self is reappearing. Guess it wasn't gone after all...
My true self... I don't even know who I am myself... I was not always the strong boy I pretended to be... I am not strong. Far from in fact. I am a person who needs friends, attention, love... All the things that weren't allowed in Hell...
You're staying silent. That also never happened before. You, not finding your words? Where are we going to write that?
A ghost of a smile appears on my face... I never knew I could be like this. And actually, it feels good not to pretend...
You're still looking at me as if you've never seen me before.
Bryan, don't you know how much that hurts? Don't you know how much you can hurt people, just by the look in your eyes...
You've never been this way before.
Where is the fire that's always in your eyes?
There's something strange,
There's something wrong,
I see a change, it's like when hope dies...
I, who have known you for so long,
I see the pain in your eyes...
I close my eyes. Sighing. Just go away Bry... Leave me. Please. I don't need pity, I want... I don't know what I want...
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Kana: well, this was the end of chapter 2.
Hope you all liked it... please leave a note to tell me what you think about it...
And, hopefully see you next chapter...
Bye.