A/N: Well here you go, and I would say that this fic has one or two more chapters left at this point.
Bite Beccy- I believe that this chapter will answer your question…
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Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button boy…
There's a light at the end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again if you only try turning around
But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button girl …
Flashback…
Elliot slammed the phone down in frustration. Olivia glanced up from her paperwork, looking curiously at her partner. She leaned back in her chair, laying her hands over her stomach. Olivia was in quite a good mood- for the first time in a long while she had absolutely no morning sickness and felt one hundred percent again. "What's up?" she asked Elliot, watching as he irritably glanced through some papers.
"I want to go talk to the boyfriend of our vic today, but I can't pull anyone to go with." Elliot said, then he sighed, "Oh well, I can go tomorrow."
"I can go with you. It's not a big deal. The doctor said I could do some field work every once in a while." Olivia told him.
"Are you sure? I really can go tomorrow and pull Munch or Fin." Elliot questioned, eying her with concern.
Olivia grinned and stood. "I will be fine."
They made their way out into the early spring air, all its promises of renewed life quite apparent. Elliot drove and they found their way to the beaten down old house that Mr. Skinner lived. Olivia got out of the car first, noticing someone standing at a window. As she squinted to get a closer look the curtain dropped again. "Looks like someone was waiting for us to arrive." She whispered to Elliot as he walked up beside her. Elliot bit his lip lightly as he ascended the stairs. They stood for several minutes in front of the door until Elliot's incessant pounding on it finally forced Mr. Skinner to answer. He looked at them with mild interest, glancing over at Olivia most frequently. She was fairly certain he couldn't tell she was pregnant, as her button up coat was thick and helped hid her belly considerably. Still, her instincts told her to tread carefully.
"Mr. Skinner, we would like to speak with you." Elliot said simply, and the man nodded easily.
"Of course. Come in." he told them, his suspicious demeanor instantly dissolving. Elliot walked in first, while Olivia took up the rear, keeping a sharp eye on Skinner. Every nerve in her body was screaming at her to stop, and she felt herself slowing. Up ahead Elliot was just finding his way around the corner, when Skinner wheeled around and lunged at her. Olivia just barely jumped out of the way, finding herself very close to the edge of an old wooden set of stairs leading down to the basement. Her breath came rapidly as she struggled to regain her balance. She kept her eye on Skinner the whole time as he rolled up off the floor. When he raised his eyes to meet hers, he grinned.
Olivia turned, but not fast enough. A burly man came out of nowhere and with a hard shove knocked her down the steps. She fell down the entire flight of stairs, finally coming to a stop when her back slammed up against the door at the bottom of them. Pain seared all through her body and she started to try to sit up. Loud footsteps on the stairs made her desperately attempt to stand quickly, but her knee had twisted around at a funny angle and she could hardly bear weight on it. She seized her gun but before she could even flip the safety off, the man had tackled her, pinning her wrists. "You are quite a lot prettier than the bitch Skinner had. I am sure he will be quite jealous of me after we finish." he panted into her ear. Olivia cringed and wriggled around, managing to wedge on of her feet against the wall. The man pressed his weight down on her to keep her still, but he wasn't quick enough. She used all the force she could to flip them over and wrenched her wrist free of his grasp, seizing her gun and whacking him hard against the shoulder. He recoiled in pain and she got up off of him. She quickly jerked his hands behind him and cuffed him.
By this time Elliot had heard the commotion and came running back into the hall. He was greeted by Skinner who immediately tackled him. They hit the floor with astonishing force. Fighting ferociously Elliot managed to pull Skinner into a neck lock, and then looked up to find another man staggering up the steps, looking quite ready to take Olivia out. Her lip was bleeding and she looked quite battered, but as the man attempted to run into her she expertly dodged and seized the side of his shirt. With a hard jerk she slammed him up against the wall and then used the resulting momentum to toss him down the stairs, just as he had down to her. Olivia didn't wait to see when he hit the bottom, and instead limped over to Elliot, who was putting Skinner into handcuffs. Skinner wasn't moving much anymore. Olivia reached over and helped Elliot to his feet. "You okay?" she panted.
"Fine." Elliot answered, and felt her hands suddenly grow slack on his arms. "Liv?"
She swallowed as she fell against his chest, her entire body shaking. "Elliot, I need to get to a doctor." She gasped out before darkness completely took her.
Elliot put his face in his hands in the waiting room of the ER. Never before had time seemed to drag so slowly. Olivia had been rushed into emergency surgery to see if they could somehow save the baby, but the doctor had warned him that it might not make it. There had been no word so far, and nurses walked by looking both sympathetic and accusing. It had of course come out that he was married with kids and that Olivia was his pregnant girlfriend. Elliot slowly dropped his hands to rest on his knees.
A hand on his shoulder made him look up. He recognized her only from a photograph on Olivia's nightstand. Serena Benson sat down beside him, smiling sadly. "I didn't even know my daughter was pregnant until a month ago. She didn't want to tell me because she didn't want to get the father in trouble..."
"Because I was married." Elliot finished for her, eying his gold ring guiltily.
Serena nodded and said, "Right, and because she told me that she loved him more than anything else in the world."
Elliot looked at her in surprise and asked, "She really said that?"
"She did." Serena answered, leaning forward in her chair and looking him in the eye. "Are you so surprised?"
Elliot shook his head slowly and replied, "I guess I just don't know why. I have made a lot of mistakes."
"Don't we all?" Olivia's mother asked him gently, squeezing his shoulder sympathetically.
After a while, a doctor finally came out. She walked right over to Elliot and said, "You are the father, correct?" Elliot looked up at her and nodded. "Well Ms. Benson is out of surgery, she ought to be fine."
"And the baby?" Serena questioned, rubbing her hands together nervously.
The doctor sighed and said, "I'm sorry, he didn't make it."
Elliot shut his eyes and mumbled, "This is all my fault."
She looked down sympathetically and told him, "Actually, it's not."
"What do you mean?" questioned Elliot.
"The accident made her go into premature labor, but the baby had already died. I think he died a week or so ago, the umbilical cord got wrapped around his neck." The doctor told him, patting his shoulder gently. "But at least she can still have kids. No permanent damage was done. Now if one of you wants to come in, the nurses are waking her up right now."
"I'll go." Serena said quickly, then she looked back at Elliot, "I'll not take too long."
Elliot nodded, watching the two walk off. He wiped a tear from his eye as he looked back down at the ground.
Olivia reluctantly opened her eyes. The nurses kept smacking her shoulders and rolling her gently from side to side, telling her she had to wake up. Her vision was hazy as she looked up at her and she immediately wanted to go back to sleep. "Come on sweetheart, you have to wake up." said one of the nurses, a kind looking black woman.
"Olivia, wake up! Your mother wants to see you." said the other nurse, a skinny blonde. Olivia thought she recognized her from somewhere. She opened her eyes a little wider as they rolled her back and forth a couple more times. And then it hit her.
"Kathy." Olivia muttered, only just finding her voice.
Kathy smiled down at her and said, "Welcome back, Olivia. You were out for quite a while."
"I'm sorry." Olivia told her, fighting very hard to stay awake.
The black nurse glanced at Kathy curiously. "It's alright Olivia. You just get to feeling better." Kathy said, ignoring the other nurses looks. "Your mom's here."
With that Kathy turned and left the room, her colleague running behind her, obviously dying to know what was going on. Serena walked into the room, looking down at her daughter. Olivia smiled slightly at her mother. "Hey mom." Then her face clouded, "My baby died didn't it?"
Serena took her hand and squeezed it. "Yes, Liv, he did. I'm sorry. But they said it wasn't from what happened today. The umbilical cord got wrapped around his neck and he died sometime last week."
Olivia shut her eyes and felt hot tears slip down her cheeks. "It was a boy?"
Her mother nodded and then gently kissed her forehead. "You are going to make it through this. Both of you."
"You talked to Elliot? Is he okay?" Olivia questioned her, laying her other hand over her flat stomach.
"He's fine. I will bring him in. I'll be back in the morning, sweetie." Serena said, and gave her daughter a somewhat lopsided hug over the bed's railing.
Kathy walked out of Olivia's room and headed out to the waiting area. There she found Elliot hunched over in his chair looking down at his knees, silently crying. "Elliot?"
He looked up, his eyes wide. Kathy sighed and sat down beside him. "How long have you been seeing Olivia?"
"Almost seven months." Elliot said softly, unable to look his wife in the eyes. "I am so sorry Kathy. It was like I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I couldn't stop. I don't expect you to forgive me."
"It's hard, Elliot, I am not going to lie to you. I suspected something for a long time. And the reality that my husband cheated on me for a younger woman is more than a little difficult to bear. However, I do understand why you did what you did." Kathy replied.
Elliot looked up at her. "How can you understand? I don't even understand what happened."
"You know that whole soul mate thing? You never really believed in it, I know, but you've got one. She sees all that you do every day and is the only one who truly understands every part of who you are. Olivia is everything that I am not." Kathy said, and Elliot wasn't sure, but he thought he heard a hint of bitterness in her voice. With that she stood and went over to the nurse's station, pulling out some paperwork and walking back over to him. "I started to work on these two months ago."
Elliot took them from her. "Divorce papers?"
"All those times we had Olivia over for dinner, I could tell. The way you looked at her. You left me a long time ago Elliot. In fact, I remember the night… it was a Friday. You got back from the bar; you had just met an old friend of your partner's." Kathy said.
Elliot stared at her, unable to quite comprehend the situation. "I… can you give me a couple days?"
"Of course. You can mail the papers to my lawyer after you sign."
Elliot watched her get up and walk back down the hallway, passing Olivia's mother. Serena smiled at Elliot and called, "She wants to see you."
Olivia slowly sat up, her abdomen incredibly sore. She wrapped her arms around it and felt the thick bandage underneath. "Olivia?"
She turned and saw Elliot standing hesitantly in the doorway. "El!"
He walked over to her and asked, "How are you?"
"I have been better." answered Olivia as he walked over to sit on the edge of her bed. He laid a hand on her thigh and looked up at her with sad blue eyes.
"I guess it's just been one of those days." Elliot said, and he felt her press her head up against his shoulder. He turned and wrapped his arms around her, pulling her close.
The nurse stood outside the door, glancing in through the window. A smile danced across her lips as she said softly, "Well there's something you don't see everyday. Guy actually sticks around when his girlfriend gets pregnant. She's quite lucky." She glanced over at her colleague.
"They're both lucky." Kathy said, leaning up against the wall.
A/N #2: Yes, that is how they wake you up from anesthesia in case you were wondering… it sucks! Lol.
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