I'm dying.
Praying.
Bleeding.
And screaming...
'Inhale..."
Emotions swirled within, threatening to overtake him. He was a vessel, filled beyond the brim and then dropped to the floor in a shattering of confusion, anxiety, and many other feelings that he could not quite comprehend.
'...and...'
Not that he wanted to.
'...Exhale...'
It wasn't so much that he didn't want to know what he was feeling, but more that he was afraid to discover what was locked inside of him. He had trained himself not to reveal such emotions. To appear tranquil at all times.
'Feel the tension drain from your body...'
Why had he lied to Jessie earlier? She knew damn well that he was always the first one up in the house. Knew that he would have already meditated. That he had looked her straight in the eyes while he did so to boot.
'All of your muscles are relaxing...'
She was like his sister, he was not supposed to harbor such feelings for her. She was not supposed to have such hold on him, such effect.
'As you breathe in, positive energy will flow into you...'
But there was no denying that she did.
'Inhale...'
No denying that he could go for years without seeing her, but would still be able to recall her features in detail without a moments notice.
'...1...'
The way her hair fell across her face as she lay sleeping...
'...2...'
How her face was so tranquil as she was at peace for the first time in so long...
'...3...'
All of her features completely relaxed...
'...and...'
Such beauty.
'...Exhale...'
Indeed, far too much beauty for this world.
'You are at peace.'
A bitersweet smile played across Hadji's face-When the time was right, he would be with her.
But no sooner.