Author's Note: Very sad at the lacking in reviews. But Ifinishedwriting this the other dayandit's not nearly over yet. The song at the end is by Westlife (corny, I know)
But a week later came too soon. It was his birthday. His eighteenth birthday. "You aren't leaving until when?" I asked, snuggling up to him in bed.
"Four days," he said softly, kissing my forehead. "But you have no idea how much I am regretting this baby."
I looked up at him, "I know sweetheart. But I understand. You are doing it for the betterment of man." That's how Simon explained it to me.
"If I could, I'd run off with you," he explained, "But that'd be cowardly and selfish."
"And you aren't either one," I replied, kissing his chest. I knew I was being vixenesque, but I wanted to be. I wanted to make love again.I think I finallygot the hang of that now.
"What are you doing?" he said laughing.
"Seducing you," I replied.
"My fam- Our family is out there in the kitchen," he argued weakly.
"We can be quiet," I replied. That ended every argument he had.
But didn't make me not be red when we joined the family at the table for breakfast.
His father glared at me. "Happy birthday, son."
"Thanks Dad. Lilly, pass the juice?"
Their conversations were always short now. I felt terrible. It was my fault.
MICHAEL:
We walked around the city on my birthday. I showed her the Statue of Liberty and Radio City Music Hall. "I wanted to take you to a show there for Christmas but it was sold out," I explained.
"Michael, stop that. You are setting far too high of expectations of yourself. I just want you and don't care where you bring me."
So we rented ice skates and I taught her how to skate. "I can't believe you've never done this before!"
"We lack the ice necessary for it back home," she grumbled. "You find falling on your bottom fun?"
"If it means I get a better view of yours then yes I do."
She blushed, "You'll be seeing a bruised bum because I am falling far too much."
I fell even more in love with her that week because she read out loud to me some poetry she had been writing. She had copied it and put it into a journal book for me to carry around with me for my birthday. Very original, and she did not have to give away any royal jewels in order to pay for it. Score.
I was leaving the next Sunday though. A fact we both tried to forget. And avoided bringing up. But Saturday night we had to face facts. She packed my bag for me. "Now, where am I writing to?" she asked for the billionth time.
"I'll be at Paris Island. In North Carolina. Training," I explained carefully. "Sit down. I have something for you."
"Michael, you always do," she said with a sigh. "But I never have anything for you."
"Yes you do," I said gently kissing her, "But that's later."
She blushed, "What is it?"
"Sit," I instructed, holding my guitar. "I've been working on this for while now.
Tomorrow morning I have to leave
But wherever I may be
Best believe I'm thinking of you
I can't believe how much I love you
All we have is here tonight
We don't want to waste this time
Give me something to remember
Baby put your lips on mine
And I'll love you forever
Any time that we find ourselves apart,
You just close your eyes
And you'll be here with me
Just look to your heart, and that's where I'll be
If you just close your eyes
Till you're drifting away
You'll never be too far from me
If you close your eyes, close your eyes
I know I'm gonna see you again
But promise me that you won't forget
'Cause as long as you remember
A part of us will be together
So even when you're fast asleep
Look for me inside your dreams
Keep believing in what we're sharing
And even when I'm not there to tell you
I'll, I'll love, love you, forever
Any time that I can't be where you are
You just close your eyes
And you'll be here with me
Just look to your heart, and that's where I'll be
If you just close your eyes
Till you're drifting away
You'll never be too far from me
If you close your eyes
Is there anywhere that far?
Any time you're feeling low
Is there anywhere my love cannot reach? Oh no
I could be anywhere on Earth
It could be anywhere I'll be
Oh baby if you want to see, you just close your eyes…..
Just close your eyes and you'll be here with me
Look to your heart, and that's where I'll be, Close your eyes
Just close your eyes till you're drifting away
You'll never be too far from me,
if you just close your eyes
And you'll be here with me
You'll be here with me
Just look to your heart
Look to your heart
And that's where I'll be
And that's where I'll be
If You just close your eyes
Close your eyes
Till you're drifting away
You'll never be too far from me
If you close your eyes, oh yeah, just close your eyes
She was crying softly while I sang the song, and I stopped a few times to wipe away her tears. "I wrote it out for you," I started. "So you can think of it when you're alone."
She shook her head, "I won't ever be alone," she said before she very passionately kissed me. Damn. I should go away more often.
No. Once I come back I won't leave her again. I'd stick by her side and take care of her.