Hey! I couldn't wait any longer for more reviews of the last chapter and I was just burning to write this one so here you go. Chapter 9. Read it in good health.
Chapter 9: Somewhere In Between
Lizzie quietly shut Gordo's door and took a few steps towards her room. She looked up at the sky for a few seconds and then began to cry. Slowly at first, until eventually she was bawling. Down, down she went. She sat there in the middle of balcony, her movements slow yet shaky as she brought her knees up to her chest and her head down on them. Once she looked up and mouthed, as if someone was out there who knew the answer. Suddenly she thought she heard Gordo stir in his room and she quickly got up and went into her room. She stood there in front of the door for a minute until she was sure that Gordo wasn't coming out and then she turned around and slid down the door on her way to the floor. There she stayed crying, emotionally drained, for what seemed like hours. Soon no more tears would come so she decided to go to bed. She got up and walked over to her bed, pulled open the covers and slid in. After much tossing and turning she sat up.
LT: It's no use, I can't sleep. I'm so tired and heartsick that I wish I could stay in my bed forever, but I just can't seem to stop replaying it in my head. Why? Why did it have to happen? Why couldn't we have just stayed like we were? There has to be a way to fix this. I can't just lie here, I need to walk around.
Lizzie got up and began to pace once she realized that it was the middle of the night and therefore not safe to go out for a walk.
LT: Tomorrow, well, today I guess, is Christmas Eve. I can't be depressed for Christmas. I have to fix this, but how? Christmas, Christmas will fix this. I'll just have to wait until then. Christmas will magically fix everything. Besides Gordo could never just abandon me right? He said he would always be there to catch me. What do you do when the person who always catches you is the person who made you fall? I have to fix this. I can't run from this. I have to do something. But how will I ever decide what that is and how will I ever work up the nerve to do it? Oh, God, I've messed this up so much. My brain hurts, I need sleep.
But Lizzie knew that sleep would not come. She instead got her discman and put in the cd that always seemed to speak to her no matter what she was dealing with. No Name Face by Lifehouse. It was her favorite cd, it had literally changed her life, but little did she know how much it would tonight. She started at the beginning but quickly switched to the next song because she wasn't in the mood for a song about falling in love. She laid back down in bed and let the music overtake her. She listened to all the familiar songs as they calmed her until she came to a song she had only listened to a few times because it never made sense to her. Tonight, though, tonight it's meaning became clear. It was exactly how she was feeling. So much so in fact that she sat up once again out of utter astonishment. It couldn't have been more accurate than if she had written it herself.
I can't be losing sleep over this
No, I can't
And now I cannot stop pacing
Give me a few hours, I'll have this all sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing
Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
This is over my head
But underneath my feet
Cause by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy
Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
What is real and just a dream
What is real and just a dream
What is real and just a dream
Would you catch me if I fall
Out of what I fell in
Don't be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this
Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
What is real and just a dream
What is real and just a dream
What is real and just a dream
What is real and just a dream
Short again I know. I'm sorry, I just wanted to used this song and the one from last chapter because they are two of my favorite songs, they fit what I was trying to say exactly, and I know how much I like listening to music when I'm feeling depressed. I wanted to show how the two were feeling after their fight instead of just going straight into the next big scene. Anyways, you know what to do. Just look down to your left and hit that button to review. You know you want to. I want to know what you like, what you don't, what you wish would happen or had happened instead. I want to know everything you're thinking and feeling. So please make my day, REVIEW! Luv y'all tons and hope to see you in my inbox tomorrow with a super awesome review. Keep spreading the word about the story, thanks you loyal fans!