Author : Maddys-Murphy
Summary : In a time of darkness, people have to make choices whether they are right or wrong, you have to continue living. Hermione Granger had to make the same choice of life or death, with demanding consequences. In the middle of a war, love will always bring you down. It gives you comfort and yet can tear you apart. Two people both different and yet so much the same, fall in love with our broken heroine, who will be the one to bring her back and who will push her further into the darkness, that has become her since her fateful choice.
Chapter One : Going Back to when it started.This is my life now, a bottomless pit. I was the solider that never lost her composure. One man changed that, he made me feel. I have tried so hard to keep my composure and yet he breaks all of my walls down, gives me hope in something I know would be frowned upon. So I let down my barriers and let him in, only to be chucked out when things become too difficult. I stand here in this place of god, and think to myself, what did I do wrong, what were my sins. I have no answer to my questions.
Thoughts spin through my head of how things were. But here I am all alone, carrying his child. You see love makes you do some stupid things, who would have known that I would fall, for his charms. I prided myself on not letting emotions break me. I am a traitor to what I preach. Never give in is what I used to say. So where did I go wrong. I only have 3months to go, before I bring a child into this world. A world riddled with evil and war, but it's my own fault that is what I get for letting my walls down and opening my heart.
Life is what you make it, you learn by your mistakes. I have learnt that to create that one peace of love you have to let people in. Life will never be straight forward, no matter what anyone may say. Life is full of regret and bittersweet remembrance.
I am trying so hard, to keep thoughts of you out of this head. It's mine, not yours. I am Dying, inside without you here. To keep me sane. Well sane-ish anyway. I am learning, to live. Again. Alone this time on my own two feet. However I seem to be failing to keep out of love. With you. I keep stumbling. Along this path crooked, winding, all uphill. I will prevail, I guess. I am yearning, for you once more. Trying not to breathe, your scent is in the air. As usual. I will keep shutting out the world, to keep you at bay. I'm snacking late at night, pretending. You were here with me like before. No matter what I will keep wishing, that I had you. If for an hour. A little bit of closure, for my Hurting soul, mind, heart and body. I am aching, physical pain. I try to shut it out, it's not working. Damn'it. My mind keeps remembering, you're laugh, my smile, and our true happiness. Just thinking about the past, I feel like I am losing my grip on reality.
And so you see love is not what people make it out to be. Here is my story, of how he destroyed the person, people once knew and loved. I will take you back to a time when, life seemed so easy. Oh yes the war was about. But I was a solider and I was the one that would never loose my composure. The story starts on a warm summer's eve...