Marauder-girl:…actually I took a test online that said I had the I Q of an average 8-year old….sob thanks for ur review!
Hannio: muahahaha, u rock!
kimothy ….i didn't have a beta in chap one, so sorry 'bout dab grammer. I haaaaaaaaate grammer! But I do get a beta around….a few chapters later, so please read it to the end. Thanks though!
not-yet-written: oh yes, the plot thickens like old gravy! Get it? Gravy coagulates and gets thick and lumpy? Hahahah! Nice assumptions about the lake and the blacks house….muaahahah u shall later see if they are right.
dragonlady 44: Yes I luv system of a down with a hot fiery passion. During school I randomly scribble down the lyrics on my hand and school work….hahahah…..yeah my teachers think I crazy so it doesn't matter anyway.
KCEstel: well currently I'm in 8th grade choke, choke die die my friends at school suck majorly, cept for emma and raff! yeah….so I wasn't planning on Sirius and Remus having any past connections, but I dunno they might…muahaha.
FlamencoPenguin: YAY! A believer! Muahahah kill all non-believers….I didn't just say that out loud….lols. ahahah….I wasn't going to kill Remus….grabs him and chains him to the wall there! Now he can't get in any trouble!
On another note entirely my fave Teacher Virginia is back from maternity leave on the 28th yay! mini courses (whole month where we have no work) starts soon yay, taking math placement test for my new high school in april and have to study like crazy boo, and my friends are mostly being…unfriendly. boo. being 13 rocks/ sucks…not a skitzo. Sorry it took so long to update but I lazy, lols. oh and this chapter is unbetaed, sorry.
Warning: this will contain a few religious influences and stuff, so if religion stories bother you or you are extremely/ strictly religious I suggest you skip the extremely long dream sequence.
Remus shivered, and clutched his arms tightly to his sides. He was cured up in a little ball, he eyes closed tightly. Something warm was draped over his body. Remus started to relax when he felt something jabbing dully into his lower back. He shifted his t position, but the thing wouldn't stop stabbing him!
One amber eye finally blinked and in seconds the other was wide as well. He was sitting in a gigantic room, with linulium floors and huge lines of people flooding out the doors. All kinds of people, old, young, blonde, brunette, English, Asian, Indian, and even…sheep were lined up.
Remus yawned and got to his feet, the warm blanket wrapped around himself. He started to push politey through the crowd, when suddenly something latched onto his shoulder. He whipped his had around and came face to face with a pair of plain brown eyes. Remus opened his mouth to speak, but no sound came out. The man guided Remus towards an orange booth.
Inside the booth was a man in an orange and black uniform. Remus stood there dumbly, he looked back at the man with the brown eyes, who nodded encouragingly.
"Name?" The man inside the booth asked, very bored.
"Uh…Remus Lupin."
"The Remus Lupin?" The man asked, large bronze eyes suddenly becoming interested.
"There's more then one?" Remus asked.
"Wow….jes I never thought I'd get to meet you!" The man exclaimed. "I'm Jack." He stepped out of the booth and shook Remus' hand excitedly. "Come this way please."
Remus followed Jack through the crowd to an elaborately carved door. "Where are we going?" Remus asked. The door closed with a thud behind Remus and a forboding sense of 'this is the end' washed over him. The room was plain with and the only object was a wooden desk, decorated with a computer, a phone, and rolling orange chair.
"Don't you know?" Jack asked.
"No." Remus growled. "Look I don't know what kind of prank this is, but-"
"Mr. Lupin….Remus. This is no prank. Do you know what the date is?"
"The first of December." Remus said instantly.
"WHAT!" Jack yelled. He plopped down on chair and typed frantically on the computer. "That can't be right!"
"What can't be right?" Remus asked in confusion. Jack's dark hair whipped around as he dashed over to Remus.
He grabbed Remus' shoulders and shook them violently. "You shouldn't be dead!"
"Of course not I'm still alive!" Remus yelled back.
"Then why are you here!"
"Where is here!"
The bronze eyed man froze and for a moment his eyes latched onto Remus' amber ones. "This is the world beyond life." Jack said slowly. "You're dead."
"No! That's not right!" Remus shouted. "I don't want to be dead!"
"But before….Before you said you would mind death!" Jack yelled back, he went back to the computer. "You definetly shouldn't be dead yet. God this is a horrible mistake!" Just as he said 'god' the phone started to ring.
"You mean…this is heaven!" Remus asked. "How'd I die!"
"Actually this isn't heaven, this is where we decide whether you belong in heave or hell. And right now you died from suffocation, but you're supposed to die from blood loss!" Jack exclaimed. He picked up the phone. "Hello? No sir, sorry to disturb you, but we do have a large problem. No sir, it's not about the pizza, it's about Remus Lupin. No he's not attracted to Hermione, he's dead." Jack held the phone away from his ear as the other voice started to scream.
"Yes sir, I know. How he died? Currently it's suffocation. Yes I know that's wrong. He shouldn't be dead? I know he shouldn't be dead Sir! Yes, can I send him back?"
Remus started to pace around the room angrily. "I died! Fuck this, where the hell is Sirius!"
Jack slammed the phone back down on the receiver. "Bastard." He muttered darkly.
"Who was that?" Remus asked.
"God."
Remus shook his head. "look I won't ask, but basically I died when wasn't supposed to!"
"Basically yes." Jack stood up and walked past Remus toward the door. "Coming?"
Remus followed him out. Instead of the crowed room with the toll booths they were now in another plain white room with door on every avabile wall space side. Jack was now wearing a long white robe and his eyes had become very bright silver. His once shot black hair now trailed behind him on the floor. "What happened to you?"
"Oh, this is my real appearance." Jack explained. "See I'm an angel, all the angels work the toll booths, if we deem you worthy you get to go to heaven, if not you go to hell."
"So…What's hell really like?" Remus asked.
"Eh, not half bad. You just wait there until god gets to speak with you or your given a redemption."
"A redemption?" Remus asked.
"Yeah, a chance to redeem yourself and go to heaven." Jack explained. At Remus' puzzlement he laughed. "You'll get it someday, for now just follow me. I'm taking you back to life. You see you weren't supposed to die yet, it was a big mistake."
"Jack?"
"My names actually Godric."
"Oh." Remus said. He followed Godric through the door and now they were in a white hall way. "Am I going to hell because I'm gay?"
"No!" Godric growled. "You know a lot of the angels are bisexual! We're usually attracted to the ones we're assigned to guard."
"You're a guardian angel!" Remus asked stunned.
"Actually I'm your guardian angel. I was assigned to you when you turned fifteen. See you've always been meant for greatness, so it wouldn't work if you were a mentally fucked up pedophile. So I stayed with you to keep your head straight." Godric explained.
"Oh." Was all Remus could say. "So…When will I die?"
"After you've done what you're meant to."
"…What about Sirius?"
"After he's done what he's meant to."
Remus sighed. "This is insane."
"Welcome to organized religion." Godric grinned. "Now, when you wake up, you'll be at Hermione Granger's house."
"Aren't I dead?"
"Well yes, but Sirius is an idiot who's scared of hospitals and needles." Godric joked. "So he's taking you there. When you wake up, please don't tell him about us." Godric paused and started to laugh. "Sorry, I should warn you, this will have been a dream to you, all this heaven and hell stuff."
Godric came to a door with the words Remus J. Lupin printed on a brass plate nailed to the front. Remus looked from him to the door. "So this was all a dream?"
"If you want it to just be a dream, then that's all it is." Godric said kindly, before opening the door and gently pushing Remus towards it. "Good night sweet prince, may flights of angels sing thee to thy rest."
"Remus please wake up!" Sirius moaned. "I'm sorry I'm a stupid idiot with personality disorders and that I can't drive very well." He clutched the unconscious body of Remus Lupin closer to himself. Sirius was sitting on the pillow of Hermione's bed, leaning on the back board with Remus' torso in his lap. Remus' head was nestled in his shoulder and his silky hair fell limply onto his chest. "Just wake up."
Remus opened his mouth to scream to Sirius, but found no sound came out, in fact he didn't even breathe. Remus was floated above his body, watching this heart wrenching scene, unable to help. Sirius! He screamed mentally. I'm up here! Look up you dumbass! He glanced around frantically. Sirius please!
"Remus…I need you." Sirius whispered in a raw torn voice. "I'm scared."
Remus suddenly found himself in his body gasping for air. He clutched Sirius arms with tight sharp hands trying to breath. Finally he managed to gasp something on the lines of 'Sirius!'
"Remus!" Sirius whimpered. He nearly started weeping as Remus started to cry. "What happened! I was so scared…when you didn't come up…."
Remus curled his legs into Sirius' lap and wrapped one arm behind Sirius' neck. "I had a really fucked up dream."
Sirius started to laugh. He was crying because he was laughing so hard and he held Remus tightly. The smaller man stopped crying and looked up into Sirius face with a look of pure anger and confusion. He face softened when he saw the deeply etched lines of worry in Sirius face and his puffy red eyes.
"You are so fucked up!" Remus chuckled weakly.
"I'd like you fuck you up." Sirius teased.
"Oh shut up you perv." Remus admonished. He smiled into Sirius' neck. "God Sirius." Suddenly he froze and his eyes widened. There was a cold spot on his chest, the kind of small spot you'd feel from a metal pandent Sirius could feel his lovers shoulders stiffen and the once liquid muscles straightened with ridged icy fear.
"Remus?" Sirius asked.
Remus started to shake as he reached one hand up to his heart. He groped his chest searching for the source of the cold. His hand latched around a small metal object, that felt like a key. He looked down at it and gasped. The tiny golden key hung around his neck from an equally delicate golden chain. The key was elaborately decorated with flowing patterns inked in black.
"Where did you get that?" Sirius said softly, running the pads of his fingers over the key.
Remus shook his head. "I…I found it at the bottom of the lake." Remus lied. He fought the voice that screamed to him not to lie to Sirius and looked up at Sirius with shining honest eyes. He'd learnt to lie from the best, his father. "I thought I'd lost it!"
"It's a nice key." Sirius remarked. "What do you think it opens?"
"Well….The lake is right next to your house….So what if it opens a door in your house?" Remus reasoned. "I mean, it makes sense."
"Yeah, but….Remus you are not going in that house." Sirius growled. "Bad things happen there."
"Like what?" Remus asked. He stretched out his legs and slid down so his head rested in Sirius' lap. Sirius long fingers subconsciously ran through his blonde waves.
"You know I'm scared of hospitals?" Sirius said blankly. "Ever since I was sixteen. It was a phobia, completely irrational…But I never went in a hospital. But you know what else I remember? I remember going back to Ireland when I was sixteen, we went over Christmas break. It was beautiful with all the snow, but I could never shake this feeling of unease."
"You said something about a man named Riddle?" Remus asked gently, he was careful not to push Sirius.
"Yeah….He worked at the orphanage. I was so scared of him. I was twenty two and I was scared of him! He was older then me. Much older, but he looked so young."
"Do you remember what he looked like?" Remus asked, his heart began to pound violently in his chest. What if that guy in the lake…was…is…Riddle!
"Not really…but it's funny cause the first face that comes to mind is Harry's. Cept Riddle looked more…sophisticated."
Remus' eye widened and he almost leapt of the bed, however he willed himself to relax. Sirius would have a heart attack if I told him. I'll tell him when I'm sure. Riddle did something to Sirius…Riddle killed Snape and Regalus. "Does Ed remember Riddle?"
"He mentions a guy that reminds me of Riddle…Why?"
"No reason…I was just thinking that maybe he was the one who gave you the Paril. Maybe he works for the Black family. Do any of your other brothers remember Riddle?"
"We all remember the same guy." Sirius hissed. "Riddle…God I hate this!"
"What?"
"I….when ever I get scared I….I get angry and I can't think right." Sirius sighed. He twirled Remus' hair in his fingers and leaned back against the head board. "So Riddle is working for the Blacks…and he's the one they hire to do their dirty work."
"Or your parents do it themselves." Remus suggested.
"But where do they inject it? Where's there base!" Sirius nearly shouted.
"Maybe it's in Ireland." Remus shrugged.
"Yeah." Sirius agreed. They sat still for a moment before Sirius interrupted the silence. "Remus why the fuck are we playing detective! We're not involved in this, I don't really give about Regalus." Remus could tell it was a lie, but he didn't impose on Sirius' spotlight. "We can move to the states and leave all this behind. I don't care that much about remembering, or righting wrongs, I just want you."
"I know Sirius…And I would…But I think we're more involved in this then you think." Remus said softly. Both their minds drifted to the barcode on Sirius' back. "We've been branded, and whether we like it or not we're more tangled up in this shit then either of us can imagine. If we run they'll follow."
"Well it was worth a try." Sirius joked weakly.
Sirius sighed and gently laid his hand on Remus'. He waited for Remus to grab his hand or move up to kiss him, or something. Sirius' face fell as he realized Remus wouldn't recognize the symbol of affection. Sirius was about to move his hand when Remus' fingers deftly laced themselves with Sirius. Remus shut his eyes, and smiling squeezed Sirius' hand lightly. I love you. Remus thought.
From above him Sirius smiled as well. I need you.