You left your Bible on the dresser
So I put it in the drawer
'Cause I can't seem to talk to God without yelling anymore
And when I sit at your piano
I can almost hear those hymns
The keys are just collecting dust
But I can't close the lid

You left my heart as empty
As a Monday morning church
It used to be so full of faith and now it only hurts
And I can heart the devil whisper
"Things are only getting worse"
You left my heart as empty
As a Monday morning church

The preacher came by Sunday
Said he missed me at the service
He told me Jesus loves me
But I'm not sure I deserve it
'Cause the faithful man that you loved
Is nowhere to be found
Since they took all that he believed
And laid it in the ground

Repeat chorus

I still believe in Heaven
And I'm sure you've made it there
But as for me without your love, girl
I don't have a prayer

Repeat chorus

You left your Bible on the dresser
So I put it in the drawer

Ok I know these lyrics are kinda long but I think this song really shows how Alex is feeling right now. The song is called Monday Morning Church by Alan Jackson.

Randy's Pov

"Vince and everyone else is holding a memorial service for Dave on Raw tonight and they want you to say some words of course his family will be there also" I said

"Ok yeah I think that would be nice I haven't seen his family in a while" Alex said

That was easier than I thought it would be she was being agreeable but how long would it last. We checked out of the hotel and drove to the airport the next show was in Dave's hometown I think that management made that happen. Alex was quiet the whole plane ride she was deep in thought. She occasionally wrote something down in the notebook that was on her lap she had headphone on so it was pointless to try to talk to her.

Alex's Pov

It's amazing how music could describe feelings so close to what people feel. Right now I'm listening to Monday Morning Church by Alan Jackson and the song basically describes how I feel. I was trying to write a speech for Dave's memorial but nothing seemed good enough. How do you describe the feeling of loss it is impossible. The song was starting to get to me I have tears in my eyes but I'm not going to let Randy see me cry. I don't know why it is such a big deal if Randy sees me cry it's not like he hasn't before. I looked down at my notebook all I had written was I'm sorry he is gone. The plane landed I got off the plane ahead of Randy I hoped the cold air would help clear my head it didn't. Randy exited the plane a few minutes later he had sunglasses and a hat on.

"People can still recognize you" I said

"Yeah I know but at least I tried right" he replied

"Whatever you say"

"Are you nervous about tonight?" he asked

"A little but I know Dave would do this for me so it's ok" I said

"So how are you feeling?" he asked

"Well right now my heart is being ripped out of my chest but I'm sure it will lessen to a dull pain over time" I said half serious half sarcastic.

He nodded and we entered the limo. The arena was about five minutes away so it didn't leave much time to think. It was 6:30 now so I about 2 and a half to figure what I was going to do. The arena was a somber place it wasn't like the other time I visited the backstage area it was like the people didn't want to be here not that I could blame them I didn't want to be here. I walked with Randy to his locker room I sat down on one of the couches.

"I'm going to talk to the guys so you can have some alone time to think" he said

I thanked him and then kissed him on the cheek. Then I sat back down. There was a knock on the door.

"Come in" I said

Dave's mother Mary his father Bryant his sister Lisa and his grandmother Agatha entered the room. I instantly hugged all of them they were the only people who really understood Dave's loss the way I did. Randy and the rest of the people just knew Dave from work or when they hung out but his family and myself loved Dave so it hurt us so much more.

"How are you holding up Alex?" Mary asked me.

"It hurts but I'm trying to live through it, how are you guys doing?"

"We're getting by" Mary said "we were suprised you didn't go to the funeral"

"I couldn't I guess part of me hopped if I didn't go he wouldn't really be gone" I said

"I think we all felt that way it was so sudden that he was taken from us it still doesn't feel real" Lisa said

"So have you decided what you are going to say tonight?" Bryant asked

"No I thought about it but I can't seem to express how I feel" I said

"Don't worry about it when the time comes you'll know what to say" Mary said taking my hand into hers.

I smiled weakly. We sat and talked for a while then Randy came back into the room.

"Alex we have like fifteen minutes till show time so you'd better get ready" he said

"Well we'd go take our seats then whatever happens Alex remember Dave loved you and we do too ok" Mary said. I hugged all of them one more time and then they left except Agatha.

"I wanted to stay behind and talk to you for a minute" she said

"What about?" I asked

"I know David wouldn't want you to be alone and you and Randy seem to be very close so just think about it"

"Agatha my fiancee just died" I said

Then she said something in Greek and kissed me on both cheeks. She smiled at me and then left. I had no idea what she said but after she said it I felt better. I changed into a black skirt and a nice white shirt I left my hair down and put on some makeup. Randy came back in he was wearing a really nice suit and he had his hair gelled he looked nice.

"Wow you look great" he said "you know the strangest thing just happened to me Dave's grandmother said something to me in Greek and then she kissed me"

"Yeah she did the same thing to me" I said

"Well we should go the show is starting now and the memorial is first up" he said

I nodded and took his hand we walked to the entrance to the ring. We waited for Randy's music to start playing it did and then we walked out. It was a little nerve wracking but then I saw Dave's family in the front row and it made it a little better.

"Ladies and gentlemen were are here to honor the memory of Dave Batista this is his fiancee Alex Hart and she would like to say a few words about Dave" Randy said as he handed me the microphone.

"What can I say about Dave he was a great guy but you probably didn't see that much because he was supposed to be he monster of Evolution. If you ask anyone who knew him they will tell you he had a really good scence of humor he was always laughing. Dave was really the best person I've ever known and I was lucky enough to have loved him. Well I can't really talk anymore but thank you for listening to me" I said I handed the microphone back to Randy. Tear were threatening to fall this had taken alot out of me. The crowd was on there feet cheering it made me feel good Dave would have hated this he didn't like drawing attention to himself he would have said this was too much but he deserved this and he deserved alot more. Randy said somethings and then we exited the ring.

Ok that is enough for this chapter. What do you think Dave's grandmother said in Greek only time will tell.