Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine You look so beautiful tonight
Remind me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces Rest in Pieces- Saliva

Randy's Pov

It took me a half hour to drive to Louisville from Owensboro I have no idea why I let Paul come with me because that would mean I would have to explain everything and I was not in the mood. Paul seemed to scense this and didn't question me. All I wanted to do was get to my wife and make sure she was ok. I reached the hospital and ran to the front desk Paul was at my heels.

"I'm looking for my wife Alexandria Har...Orton" I said

The guy at the front desk typed her name into the computer in front of him.

"She is in room 1234 it's on the third floor" he said. I thanked him and headed to the elevator.

"So when did you and Alex get married?" Paul asked

"About 3 weeks ago" I replied looking down

"Why didn't you tell anybody?" he asked

"We wanted to wait a little while before we told people we are still getting used to being married" I answered

"Don't take this the wrong way but did you marry her because you love her or because you felt you had too did you know she was pregnant"

"I love her and no I didn't know she was pregnant if I did do you think I woud have let her go to OVW" I snapped

"Listen man I'm sorry but I needed to know" he said timidly

"It's ok I shouldn't have snapped at you I know how this must seem but no I honestly love her" I told him.

"You know when we were kids I could always make her laugh it's just so hard now" I said as I broke down. I didn't care anymore that I was standing with Paul in a hospital elevator or of what he thought of me at this moment. He seemed confused on what to do for a few minutes but then he hugged me.

"Don't worry you'll get through this you both deserve to be happy" he said. I continued to cry and he just let me cry on his shoulder as if I was a child. The elevator doors opened and I stopped crying. I wiped my eyes with the back of my hand and stepped out of the elevator. I heard someone calling my name from the end of the hall. I'm guessing the person was Alex's friend Ashley. We walked over to her.

"Hi Randy it's nice to meet you" she said I could hear the sadness in her voice I couldn't even look into her ice blue eyes because I knew that I would see tears in them and I wasn't ready for that.

"How is she?" I asked

"She is sleeping right now the doctors say she is going to be fine but I don't know how she is going to be she just lost..." she remembered who she was talking to. "I'm sorry I forgot who I was talking to"

"It's ok this wasn't your fault" I said "can I see her?"

"She is being examined right now but I'm sure the doctor would let you in" she said I nodded and entered the room.

The doctor looked up when I walked into the room.

"Are you the husband?" he asked

"Yeah" I replied

"Your wife is doing fine she was about a month pregnant do you have any idea if she knew?" he asked

"No she didn't say anything I don't think she knew because if she did she wouldn't have risked the baby's safety" I told him

"You are probably right" he said "I'll be back to check on her later". He left the room. I had a seat next to Alex I couldn't believe this was happening to us we were finally starting to be happy.

"Randy" Alex whispered

"Hey I'm right here" I said

"Looks like I screwed up again" she said sadly

"No it wasn't your fault you wouldn't have gone if you knew" I reassured her.

"I thought I might have been but I took one of those home pregnancy tests and it read negative I know I should have gone to the doctor's to make sure but I was so relieved that the test was negative" she said

"You don't want children?" I asked. I was suprised we never discussed children but I remember when we were younger she told me once she wanted to have a big family when she grew up.

"I want children it's just that we just got married and I finally achieving my dream of becoming a diva" she said

"I understand" I said

"It would have been exciting though having a baby I mean" she said

"Yeah it would be" I said

"Do you even want children?" she asked

"Yeah I do I want to have a big family" I said

"So do I" she said

"Well then if it's a big family then I will give it to you" I said. She smiled.

"Randy will you stay with me tonight I don't want to be alone I hate hospital?" she asked

"Yeah of course I will" I said. She moved over and I laid down next to her.

"I love you" she said

"I love you too" I replied.

She was asleep in minutes I watched her sleep for a while but then I fell asleep as well.

A/N: yes the baby was Randy's I know it's sad. But don't worry I have a feeling things will get alot better.