Kagome kept looking behind in fear that she would see him hurling after her. What had he meant by his words? She was not his! Why would he even say something like that? She heard birds fly away, panicked into the sun. She gave a nervous squeak and tired to run faster, but unfortunately there wasn't much of a difference. All she needed to do was to get the village into her sight, and then maybe she would feel safe. After all, she was sure Inuyasha wouldn't come into the village to get her. He wouldn't, would he? She turned around to see if she could at all see him, but was only greeted by sun peaking through the canopy of trees. Slowing her pace a bit she jogged up a final hill and jumped for joy when she saw the village. She began to run down the hill and burst into Kaede's hut. Everyone was up and they stared at her when she came in. Sango got up and led Kagome to sit down beside her.
"Kagome are you okay? What happened?" Sango got up once again and gave Kagome a spoonful of water, which Kagome drunk greedily
"Ummm...Sango do you think I could talk to you outside for minuet?" Kagome didn't want the others to know whom she had seen. It just didn't feel right talking to them about him. But she was sure Sango would understand, after when they had traveled together each girl told the other many things, secrets, fears, uncertainties, hopes and dreams. Surely this would be another one of those times. Kagome wanted to be able to let Sango know everything, why she had left. She needed to talk to someone, because keeping everything locked up was beginning to make her feel sick.
"Of course Kagome," Kagome held out her hand and Sango accepted it. Once outside
Kagome led Sango further away from Kaede's hut. They were almost near the front gate when Kagome stopped and let go of Sango's hand. Kagome pointed to large rock and both girls sat down.
"Kagome what is going on, I know you're keeping a secret from me. I thought we were sisters Kagome, and sisters tell each other everything. Unless...you don't feel that way..." Sango smiled sadly
"Oh Sango of course we're sisters, but this...this is different. I wanted to tell you the day I got back I really did. But something was telling me to wait. But I...I can't wait anymore I need to tell you!"
"Then tell me!" Sango took Kagome hand
"I know Inuyasha's not dead! I know he's alive because I saw him!"
"Kagome! What's so bad about that?!" Sango looked confused and tried to piece together the possible threat of everyone knowing that fact. "Unless there's more to it then you seeing him...there's more, isn't there Kagome?" and Kagome nodded and looked into Sango's comforting eyes. They seemed to plead with her to know the truth and Kagome took a deep breath.
"You remember three months ago when you went to the village a few miles to the west? Well when I came back inside the village from playing with Shippo, Kaede asked us we wanted to aid her in a healing. Shippo agreed but I had to pack up to go home for a test and also to beg Inuyasha to let me go...well I couldn't find him so I decided to pack my bag and then find him, while I was do it he came in. When I was about to ask him what he was doing, but he cut me off and asked if he could see the Jewel. I was a little hesitant but then remember that I trust him and I knew that he wouldn't take the Jewel and run...trust, I thought that was what I had for him. I turned my back to finish packing my bag when I felt the Jewel's aura begin to fade I turned around and I saw...saw...I...I..." Kagome used her free hand to wipe the tears that had fallen. Her tears she shed for him. Kagome took a deep breath and continued again.
"Inuyasha used the Jewel, he made a wish. His wish the one he sought after for so long now he finally made it...he became..."
"Full demon..."Sango finished the sentence and Kagome gave a shallow nod. "Kagome I didn't know, please tell me he didn't hurt you!"
"He did. When I stared into his eyes...I don't know but they almost seemed apologetic. Then he got this power hungry look and went after me. I manage to get away but he caught up with me he seemed angry that I ran so he hit me and when I tried to get away again he slashed my side, then he pushed me into the Well and yelled something after me but I cant remember what it was. I must have blackout because when I woke up I was in my Era and I was afraid to go back, that's why I stayed away for so long. I tried to live with the guilt but after a couple of months the thought of my friends being dead...I could never live with myself if you guys had died because of my stupidity. So I came back...and well here you are, you're not dead! Sango Im so sorry please forgive me!" Kagome threw her arms around Sango's neck and cried.
"Oh Kagome its okay I..."
"And then he appeared I thought he could be dead but he-he wasn't! And-and he told me that I was his...but I don't understand what he meant by that...cuz I'm not his!" Kagome let go of Sango and looked at her.
"Kagome I'm sorry also, had I known that would have happened I would have never gone to the village?"
"Oh Sango you couldn't have known! Who would have guessed that Inuyasha would actually wish after all that has happened when he has become demon. But what do you think he means when he says that I'm his?"
"I don't really know...Kagome why are you blushing? He kissed you didn't he?! Ohh I knew it! Maybe he's showing you his feelings?"
"Well its not in a good way," Kagome crossed her arms and heard Sango give a small sigh. "I think I need to go home for awhile a day or so to get some things, like clothes. Hummm you should tell Shippo that I've left to get him some candy."
"He really thinks of you as his mom Kagome, but alright I'll do it, hurry back soon though okay?" Sango got up with the help of Kagome
"I'll try, thank you so much for listening to me Sango!" Kagome gave Sango a hug and waved good-bye as she began to walk down the path. Sango then began to walk towards Kaede's hut.
Inuyasha bent down on the ground and sniffed it. Why could he no longer pick up her scent? His head snapped up and he looked at his right wrist. The dirty human was trying to come back; he could feel it and it disgusted him. Growling loudly he ran to the village he knew she would be at. Still he could not smell her scent at all and the filthy human was still attempting to mix itself with his untainted demon blood.
But he would not allow it. Leaping onto the tree that overshadowed the dead bitch's sister's hut he waited patiently. After what seemed like and eternity to him his patience wore thin and he jumped down and began to search for her. There was monk's bitch, the one Kagome liked, coming down this path. He smirked and ran ahead to meet her. He could see her eyes wide at the wind that seemed to head right for her, her mouth open as he collided with her. He dug his sharp nails into her arms and she cringed in pain.
"Where did she go!?"
"Inuyasha? Is that really you? Let go of me, now!" Sango narrowed her eyes
"Answer me! Where did my mate go?!" Inuyasha's grip on Sango's arms tightened
"She is not yours! You know that!"
"Listen to me very carefully bitch, either you tell me where my mate went or I'll not only have to kill you but you're unborn child as well. Now where is she!!" Inuyasha felt the human blood empty from his veins and the demon blood begin to boil. Sango began to cry as she pointed in the direction of the Well. Sango prayed that Kagome would forgive her and get to her own Time safely. She wanted Kagome to seal the Well again and never come back to this Era.
"Now that wasn't hard was it?" Inuyasha shoved Sango out of the way and she stumbled. She watched him bound after Kagome. Sango began to run to Kaede's.
"Miroku! Miroku! Come quick! It's Inuyasha! Hurry!"
Miroku looked up from his meditation under the protection of a tree and slowly stood. He began to walk in the direction of which Sango's voice could be heard. Soon he saw her bounding to him. Sango wasn't supposed to be running in her present state, but that girl never listened to anyone's advice unless it was Kagome's. Slowly she began to stop until she reached him and caught her breath.
"Miroku, come you've got to hurry!" Sango began to pull Miroku's hand
"Whoa! Sango slow down what's the hurry?"
"It's Kagome! Inuyasha! Alive! Kill her! Full demon! Well!" Sango tried again to force even breathes
"Slowly Sango, calm down," Miroku began to walk towards Sango but she shook her head
"There's no time! Inuyasha's a full demon and he's gunna kill Kagome if we don't hurry to the Well to stop him!" Sango pulled Miroku's hand again
"Let me get this straight: you say you saw Inuyasha, he wasn't dead but rather a pure demon and now you say that he wants to kill Kagome?" Miroku rubbed his chin and thought
"Yes now stop procrastinating! We have to help Kagome!"
"Alright Sango lets go!" Miroku grabbed her hand and pulled her in the direction in the Well. "You know Sango we would have had an earlier start if had just said what you needed to say."
"What! You we're the one who couldn't take my word for it! You had to figure everything out for yourself!" Sango's cheeks flushed
"Come on Sango you have got to be faster than that!" Miroku glanced back
"Umm Miroku, incase you haven't noticed or have forgotten, I'm a month and a half pregnant!!"
"Ah yes,"
Kagome could see the Well in sight and gave a tired sigh. How long would she stay in her time? A few days? A week? She didn't know. She would have to bring some candy for Shippo though; after all she owed the little kit something for being away for so long. Was that her named being called just now? It sounded like Sango, but what could have her so worried? Kagome looked around as she approached the Well. There was nothing. That's what scared her; there was no sound at all. Nothing...no birds chirping not even the wind was heard shaking the tree's leaves.
That was weird. Immediately her mind thought of Inuyasha creeping up behind her and jogged to rest of the way to the Well. She peered over the side of it and was greeted by darkness and silence that accompanied it. Would Inuyasha really hurt her? So far he had only been a little rough. But he was a good kisser. Kagome gave a nervous laugh and put her hands to her cheeks. All she wanted was her half demon back. The one she fell in love with, the one who hated being a full demon.
She wanted to spend at least some time with him to inquire why he did this but she feared the worst. Inuyasha losing his temper and going a killing spree, She didn't want to think how many innocent people he had slaughtered these past agonizing months. She missed her days traveling with him. He was sorta like the pack leader, always looking out for everyone, so it seemed, but she knew he really wanted to make sure she was safe. His jealousy. That was priceless and also cute. The more she thought of the past the more she began to lose all hope that there was no way she could cure him. The sitting technique was sure not to work, what else could her be? Kagome began to think of more possibilities as she jumped over the Well's edge.
Inuyasha punched a final tree that obstructed his way and stared at the Well. The boiling demon blood began to die down and he sniffed the air. She was here, not too long ago. She must have jumped into the Well. Growling loudly he peered over the edge and growled again. It reeked of her luscious scent, but she was gone. Forever? Hopefully not, and if so he would rather kill himself then be subjected to the solitude and anguish he had experienced last time. Turning around he looked up at the sky he began to miss her already.
Miroku dragged a now exhausted Sango behind till he saw the Well. But he was not prepared as to who was standing there staring right at him with a smug grin. Emerald ruby eyes shone with anger.
"Well, well Inuyasha this certainly is a surprise," Miroku shoved Sango behind him
"I was about to say the same thing monk. Looking for Kagome? She left...so you're wasting your time,"
"Are you saying you haven't killed her?" Miroku asked
"Hell no, I need to have her. Why would I kill her?"
"I'm not sure, you tell us,"
"My business is my own, however since there is no need to tell you, I'll just kill you both right now," Inuyasha lunged for Miroku
"Sango run! NOW!"
Inuyasha lunged at Miroku who blocked the force with his staff. Turning his head to see Sango backing up he yelled to her
"Sango don't be foolish! Run! Please! Just run away!" Miroku was relieved to see her begin to run but he was knocked backward into a tree and black dots danced in front of his vision. He couldn't see hardly anything, or most importantly Inuyasha, he tried to look in the direction of Sango but he couldn't depict a clear enough sight. Slowly he stood up only to feel himself fall forward and his vision began to blur. But his senses were still sharp enough to let him know that he was being lifted up by the throat and he battle with his eyes to let him see Inuyasha. Giving in a bit, his could slightly focus his eyes and saw the terrible smirk that covered his features. He couldn't breathe. Was this what it felt like to die? His story had a much different ending then he had originally thought. He always thought that he would die from the Wind Tunnel because Naraku hadn't been defeated yet. He wouldn't get to even see the birth of his child. Sango the one women he thought he would never be able to bed. Well there she was, pregnant, she finally cracked. I knew no women could resist me.
"Sango...I'm so sorry, live be...be happy," Miroku whispered and he closed his eyes. And yet strangely he didn't feel himself die, he felt him self fall. He breathed in the cool air he had been deprived of and with widened eyes he stared at Inuyasha. His mouth opened as Inuyasha bent down and stared at him.
"Miroku...I-I...I'm sorry,"
"Think nothing of it," and he gave a short cough
"I don't have a lot of time like this, I can feel it starting to come back...Kagome went home right?"
"Yes...she did," Miroku took a deep breath
"Okay...thanks...hey monk...sorry,"
"I know it was not you that had control of your body, but please don't hurt Kagome," Miroku watched Inuyasha crouch on the Well's rim and he smirked
"No worries monk, I'll be fast," and with that he jumped into the Well.
"I hope this is permanent Inuyasha," Miroku tried to stand again he was unsuccessful so he sat down and tried to focus his eyesight as well as try to even his breathing.
Inuyasha opened the Well House door and was greeted with the downfall of rain. The sky was so dark and ominous that he thought it was nightfall. He didn't have a lot of time. He could feel the blood return he needed to apologies to Kagome and get out of her time before he lost control again. After all who knows how long it would take for him to gain it back. He leapt on to Kagome's windowsill but he saw just walk out of her room. Slowly he opened the window and jumped in. He saw her yellow back on her messy and unmade thing she slept on each night. There were her clothes folded or unfolded around the yellow pack as well as some of that 'chocolate' stuff she brings for Shippo. He looked around her room. Three months. That's how long he hadn't seen her. Three times he had tried to kill himself in his time but he always would awaken. If he had been human then it would have been so much easier. But he wasn't. He was a pure demon now. He wanted the power, he would brag about it all the time. But now that he had a taste of that power he wasn't sure if he still wanted it. But he had no choice; a foolish thought had resulted in now a life of bloodlust and uncontrollable power. He stood and stared at her door and wanted Kagome to hurry up, he could feel it. It was returning...he couldn't hold on to his sanity much longer. Worse was that if he lost control, it wasn't like he could run somewhere and calm himself down, he was in her Era and he didn't know where he was. Her room smelled like her, her scent was on everything and it wasn't helping his present situation. Come on Kagome hurry up! I don't have time for this! The door opened and Inuyasha took a sharp inhale of air.
Kagome closed her eyes as she balanced the plate with her sandwich on it in one and fooled around with the door knob, finally is opened and she walked in, however, she wasn't ready for whom she saw standing not three feet from her. She hadn't meant to drop the plate. It slipped. She looked at the shards of it and then looked up to meet his golden eyes. Stepping over the mess she ran over to him and threw her arms around his neck. Kagome hugged him, never wanting to let him go. Inuyasha hugged her hard; he put a hand on the back of her head and buried his nose into her neck. He felt her tears soak through his haori, he wanted to let her go but yet he didn't. He knew that he had to explain everything or Kagome would never understand. He pushed her away from him and sat her down on that object that she slept on. Her tears never stopped and he badly wanted to wipe them away, but now was not the time.
"Kagome listen to me, I don't have a lot of time. I need to explain," Inuyasha began to pace around her room.
"How did you...I mean you found a way or did you..." Kagome shook her head and smiled. "It doesn't matter, what matters is that you're back!"
"No I'm not,"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that I'll soon become full demon again! I was able to gain some control but its not enough because I can feel the blood trying to come back. It wants to banish my human blood completely!"
"But there has to be a way I can help please!"
"Kagome don't cry okay? I know there is nothing that can be done. But while I was able to gain control I wanted to apologies for what I did and I want you to know the truth what happened three months ago,"
"Do I really want to know?" Kagome looked at her lap and sighed. She was being selfish Inuyasha was risking everything to let her know what had happened; she needed to be there for him, she needed to listen. "I'm sorry, that was rude of me, I do want to know I really do."
"Well the night before I became a full demon I was struggling to keep my demon blood in check. I don't know why exactly but I was fighting it. I didn't get any sleep that night because I was afraid that I could wake up and be a full demon, and then I could have hurt you. I don't even remember going into Kaede's hut or seeing you. All I remember is holding the jewel and thinking that if that was what being a full demon was like then maybe I should reconsider my wish to be full demon," Inuyasha stopped and looked at Kagome. Her eyes had tears in them but she was silent. He smiled; she was always a good listener. But his smiled vanished. His human blood was deteriorating faster then he had expected he fell to one knee and Kagome got up and helped him balance. That stroke had made him feel dizzy.
"Inuyasha?"
"I don't have a lot of time the demon blood is coming back faster then I had thought. Anyway the Jewel misread what I had thought. It thought I had wished to be full demon even though I don't. But it's my own fault I shouldn't think while I was holding the Jewel anyway."
"Oh Inuyasha!" Kagome hugged his neck again and returned her embrace. He never wanted to let her go. He always though of Kagome as his, but he wouldn't say anything till the time was right. But the demon was almost willing to do anything to claim her. He looked at Kagome's neck. She was too young to be marked; she would remain untouched and unclaimed by anyone. And if Koga...he didn't want to think of him right now. Kagome nuzzled into his neck and sighed.
"I will find a way to help you Inuyasha. Unless...you don't like being like this do you?"
"Of course not! But there is nothing you can do," the blood was coming back "I'll have to stay away from you until I can find the strength to gain control again."
"But I don't like staying away from you!" Kagome stood up and went to her bed. She tossed in the remaining items that were around it. Inuyasha stood as well and looked at the floor. Too soon! It's too soon!
"You don't have a choice, I don't want to hurt you Kagome!"
"You wont and I will find a way to help you. Inuyasha?" Kagome began to walk forward
"Stay where you are Kagome don't come any closer," Inuyasha could feel the demon blood eat away the last of his human blood. "Kagome run! Run! You must run right now! Im sorry I lost control! Run!" his head shot up to reveal red eyes and purple streaks. He smiled evilly at her and Kagome back up. She looked her bag then at the door. She promised Inuyasha that she wouldn't be afraid, but his eyes they told her to be very frightened. Breathing heavily her reached for her bag and bolted for her door. Sliding into the wall she ran down the hall and glanced back. He walked out of her room. He looked so clam. She went down the stairs as fast as she could. She tried to put on her shoes but when she couldn't undo one of the laces because of her shaky fingers she gave up and opened the door. Standing on the porch she didn't him coming she began to worry about his whereabouts. But insisting that the Well was her best option she jumped down the steps soaking her foot in the process she threw open the doors.
"Don't move girl!" Kagome turned around and tossed her bag into the Well. "Nice of you to stop running."
"Inuyasha don't please. You have to fight it!"
"Im a full demon now, the half breed you knew is gone," while saying all of this he was coming closer. Kagome backed up until she lost her balance and fell backwards into the Well. The last thing she saw was Inuyasha's surprised face.
Kagome tossed and turned but to her dismay she couldn't bring herself to fall asleep. She had been in the Warning States for a little more then four days now. Falling backwards into the Well had left a bump on the back of her head. She had picked up her bag and climbed the Well's walls as fast as she could. Inuyasha had told her to run, to keep her distance; she didn't want to do that, not when he was in need of her help. Still though, he pushed her away, and gave no hope that this problem could be fixed. She heard him come out of the Well, how could she not? He was calling her name. But she knew it was a trick, and she didn't want to get caught in it. Still though, she wondered how he had summoned up the strength to keep his demon blood in check.
But how could she get rid of it so that there would be less of it? Kagome rolled onto her side and yawned, her wet hair fell into her eyes and she brushed it out of the way. Rain was falling pretty hard outside and the wind was awful. She shifted onto her back again and watched the wind rattled the fire on the ground. The fire struggled to be alive, just like Inuyasha. Embers danced slowly in the air and soon turned to smoke. Kagome pictured Inuyasha just like that, lost, not sure of what to do and afraid that he might die or disappear form her life.
After all it was quite clear that he wanted her, just by the way he acted as a demon and they way he had hugged her that night in her time. Cool air whipped around her face as the rain began to quicken its pace. She hugged her knees to her chest and felt Shippo shift his position to be nearer to her. Kagome tried again to make herself sleepy, but she couldn't stop thinking of Inuyasha. She wanted to see him again; she wanted to have his strong arms around her. She couldn't find the strength to continue. She felt alone, abandoned by him, even if it was a mistake. She couldn't talk to anyone about this, who was there? No one would understand a half demon's cry for help, only she would recognize it, she wanted to answer it, but she wasn't sure if she could, if she had the courage and power to do so.
She loved him, no matter if had decided to become a human or stayed a half demon. Full demon scared her though. Kagome knew that deep down Inuyasha was there, a prisoner within himself. I have to help him, because I am the only that can, because I am the only one who will. Kagome turned herself to her left side and was staring at the corner where he always would stay, Tetsuisga resting on his shoulder. Why did these memories seem so faded and lost to her. Was it because she had already begun to forget them? She didn't want to, but it had happened without her knowing it...no, she would never forget them; they were her life.
Kagome shifted back to her back and stared at the ceiling, finally the sleep she had been seeking drifted onto her eyes and she shut them, hoping that Inuyasha was safe, that he would hold on to faith, because she was going to find away to help him, even if it ment to seek her answers alone.
Inuyasha kept running. The rain and wind were pretty dangerous. The night felt like it was going to last forever. He only wanted to see Kagome again. But after the mishap in her own time the half-breed wasn't letting him go near the village in which she stayed at. He had to admit, that one time the half-breed was able to overthrow him, only because there was too much human blood at one time, his demon blood couldn't get rid of it fast enough. That was the only reason why the half-breed mutt was able to gain control, too much human blood for his demon blood to purify.
That however, was never going to happen again, no matter how much the mutt begged for control, and by the end of it all he would have Kagome, she would be his. No matter the cost, if he had to kill to get her then so be it. Inuyasha stopped and looked at the sky, rain fell onto his face making is bangs stick to his face. This was a really pleasant night. Rain, he didn't like it, it made the night so by even slower. Though he detested it when he was human. Damn it! He was showing another weak moment. Pure demons don't think about their half-breed pasts.
But Kagome was in his past, so why couldn't he stop thinking of her. And the other girl, Inuyasha racked his mind for her name, ahhh yes, Kikyou she was even more into the past and yet he forgot about her the moment he become a pure demon. Maybe because becoming a pure demon had made him realise what Kagome meant to him. After all when he was human for those agonizing nights, the thought, mostly of her, but he knew that no matter what he lead Kagome to believe no matter how he treated her when he became himself again, he loved her, end of story.
Inuyasha looked straight on and spotted a large oak tree that looked somewhat warm and shielded him enough from the wind and rain. These raindrops reminded him of the tears Kagome had shed for him in her time this past week. He hated it when she cried. Inuyasha ran to the tree and jumped into the large branches. He hoped she wasn't crying now, it seemed the half-breed mutt was the only one who stop the flow of her tears. He only wanted to see her, was that so much? Inuyasha put his hand behind his head and sighed. Again he looked up into the oak tree leaves that dripped tear like water onto his face. Figures, it was probably raining because Kagome was crying. Just once, one time I want to see her...
As the rain began to lighten its pace huffing was heard in the distance. Running out of breath it stopped.
"Hummm I know Master Inuyasha's blood has changed, now I remember why I hated traveling at night, can't see a darn thing," Taking a big breath the small flea began to run again. My I hope Kaede's hut isn't far...
Myoga knew he had to help the Lord in any way he could, but first he needed the facts. So far the only fact he had was Inuyasha's different blood smell. He also knew that the best way to get that information was to talk to Kagome herself. My I must be almost there by now...great a folk in the road...now was it left or right. Of for the love of...I don't have time for this, so left it is! Myoga hoped this was the right way, if not he had a lot of work ahead of him.
Hope this is working, longer chapters are a must