Kagome struggle out of Sango's hand and ran back to the clearing where Miroku was. Her eyes filled with tears as Miroku pointed to Inuyasha. Surely enough his chest was rising and falling but it was clear that it took effort. Sango appeared behind Miroku and breathed a sigh of relief. Shippo hugged Miroku and Sango and couldn't stop smiling.

"Come Sango, Shippo, let's leave them be..." Miroku whispered and Sango nodded

"No, no I wanna stay!!" Shippo cried but was soon muffled by Miroku and was carried away by Sango.

Kagome bent down on her knees and looked Inuyasha over. Still his chest rose and fell but his eyes wouldn't open. Slowly Kagome picked up his head and put it in her lap. Blood covered her hands and her pink pyjama pants but she didn't care. Suddenly she thought about him. Full demon. What would happen when he wakes? Kagome started to get an uneasy feeling in the bottom of her stomach. She felt her hands brush away the bangs that fell into his eyes and tried to replace the emerald ruby eyes with the deep golden ones she was so used to.

She found it impossible because always the image would shift into the power crazy pure demon. Still he had a boyish appearance to him, something he never lost during the transformation, a gentleness Kagome had never experienced while traveling with him or the past couple of weeks. The snowy dog-ears perched on the top of his head twitched every now and then, letting Kagome know that he was still alive and listening to danger or threats.

She took his hand in hers and squeezed it. Still though he gave no response to her though. It worried Kagome and it didn't. Kagome looked in the direction of which Koga took off. It worried her that he might come back to get her, and that Inuyasha wouldn't be able to protect her, Kagome would have to live with Koga for the rest of her life. At that thought Kagome shuddered and bit and remembered the conversation that Inuyasha and Koga had had before they fought.

"Why? She's mine anyway, I claimed her as my mate long before you did!" Koga had said

"You haven't marked her! So she can still be claimed!" Inuyasha stated

What did that all mean? Kagome didn't understand and she was beginning to think that she didn't want to either. A sudden moan by Inuyasha made Kagome look down and meet red eyes. She took a sharp in take of air and waited for the worst. After all, Kagome was sure that he still had enough strength to do something bad. However he made her blush when he seemed to make himself more comfortable in her lap. He stared at her and gave small smile. It was more of a smirk. The smirk Kagome was always so familiar with, an old Inuyasha smirk. Kagome whispered to him,

"I thought I'd lost you," tears began to fall again

"Nope...never..." His voice was soft, like the real Inuyasha had found control again, though couldn't rid himself of the demon mask. "Don't cry Kagome...stop please?"

"How can you ask something like that? I really thought you were dead," Kagome was going to mention hat Koga wanted to take her away but decided against it. The mention of Koga would send Inuyasha into a killing stage Kagome was sure.

The sun had dipped far into the mountains and not much light was left, only the far off glowing the Kagome's campfire.

"You don't have to shed your tears for me Kagome," Inuyasha whispered. Kagome remembered Inuyasha saying something like that the very first time she had seen him mortal. That memory seemed so far in history, so long ago. She missed the moonless nights. Inuyasha was so much more honest with her, though he seemed to be touchier then usual and bad luck always struck on the moonless nights, but they were still her favourites.

"I don't have to Inuyasha but I do. I worry about you. When I left I thought only of you, of what you had done. I missed and hated you. Missed you because I care so much for you and hated you because of what you had done, though I now know the truth. I cry for you because I need to be with you Inuyasha. If you were to ever die, I wouldn't know what to do, how to live because the thought of you would always be in my mind." Inuyasha stared at her. Again the pure demon blood seemed to be fading...it may have saved his life, but he did not want it to harm Kagome. Inuyasha stared at her hand in his and closed his eyes. There had to be some way for this wish to be reversed. He hated living like this...in constant fear. He wanted to be with Kagome but he knew that he could last in front of her with going crazy for long. It wasn't fair! Why did he have to be cursed?! He couldn't deal with Kagome's touch or smell for long without going crazy! He squeezed her hand in return and opened his eyes. The demon blood was almost fully gone.

Why was it that Kagome was the only woman he knew that had the power to calm him and make his blood boil? When they were alone together like this he felt so relaxed and the demon blood didn't hound for him to mark her, yet when she ran or was frightened the blood boiled and called to him...mark her! Claim her! Mate her! Still he found the strength to subdue it. He didn't know how but he did, was it because he hated to see her in pain, especially when he caused it? Kagome looked down to find warm golden eyes staring at her. She didn't understand.

"Inuyasha? How?"

"I don't know, but when I'm with you and I'm calm I can feel the demon blood, I don't know, but I-I don't feel like killing anything...I just want to be with you," Inuyasha smiled and closed his eyes.

"I'm sorry Inuyasha..." Kagome whispered

"For what?" Inuyasha opened his eyes and stared at her

"For leaving, for being scarred away, for not being there for you,"

"I understand Kagome, trust me...I really do..."

"But I cant seem to do any right for you...I feel so useless. I can only watch you struggle though this without anyone... I hate just watching!" Kagome brushed more sliver out of his eyes. Pure golden, how she missed them. She looked at the side of his head, blood was everywhere, which was going to get infected if not treated. But she was so comfortable, and she knew he was too.

"You're doing everything right now Kagome...just being here with me right now...you're the one keeping my demon blood in check..." He struggle to sit up and turned to face Kagome. He took her other hand in his and stared at her. Kagome looked at him and smiled. He looked at her hands and sighed.

"My blood is all over your hands,"

"No big deal..."

Inuyasha smiled a bit and leaned in and brought his lips to meet Kagome's. He brought a hand behind her head and brought her closer to him. Kagome carefully put her arms around his neck and deepened the kiss. Inuyasha was afraid that this would reawaken the demon blood, but strangely it was still calm. Inuyasha couldn't shake the feeling that that was a bad thing and not something good.

When Inuyasha woke again he was in a small room with a dimming fire. He put a hand to his head to try to numb the pain that he felt. It was no use; still the burning was there. He was going to kill Koga as soon as he felt better. Getting an uneasy feeling he looked around for Kagome and was relieved to find her sleeping soundly. But then where was the pure demon blood? This worried him. The human blood had returned but was that because the demon blood had allowed it? The new moon had long since passed and was on the way to once again becoming full.

Kagome stirred a bit and he glanced at her. Kagome came back. Even when he had no control he attacked her, and yet she still stayed. He knew that his demon side wanted her, but what about the human? He smelled his blood all over Kagome and only realized that white gauze was around the wound. When had she done this? He didn't remember any of it. Getting up and swaying a bit he began to walk outside. Small dots danced in front of his vision and sighed. He hated living like this...no control. Or, in some cases getting some control, but not knowing how long it would last. The sky was beginning to lighten and Inuyasha looked up. The moon hung lazily in front of him. Tonight, he knew, it would be full. And somewhere inside of him he knew that wasn't good. He sat down and looked at the small hut behind him. He really appreciated all Kagome had done for him, but he didn't want to put her in danger. When he became a full demon he was unpredictable.

He knew he scared Kagome, he remembered her face the first time she had seen him again. Sheer terror. It was like all he could do was watch as the demon...he was suddenly pried from his thoughts as a hand reached out and touched his shoulder. Kagome stood above him and she smiled tiredly.

"Mind if I join you?" she asked

"Go ahead," Inuyasha folded his hands inside his haori and watched her as she sat down beside him

"How's your head?" Typical, always concerned with other people's needs

"It's a bit better...still hurts though," he admitted

"It will get better soon enough, though, you have to be patient Inuyasha," she stressed the word 'patient.' He replied with rolling his eyes.

"Kagome, do I scare you?" Inuyasha asked honestly. He had caught her off guard and watched as she searched for the right answer.

"Of course not Inuyasha, why would you ask a question like that?" A lie. He knew her too well to know when she was lying, and besides, she wasn't very good at it.

"Don't spare my feelings Kagome,"

"Well...it's just that, well you do...but I don't want to...what I mean to say is that,"

"Do I or don't I? Simple question Kagome!" Inuyasha said irritably

"I don't know, okay?!" Kagome cried

"What?" Inuyasha stared at her.

"I am scared of you and yet I'm not. When your full demon you unnerve me and make me a little nervous, but I would use the word scared... when you're like this and human...I don't know but I am not scared of you." Kagome said

"So when I'm full demon I don't scare you?"

"You just make me nervous is all, you're kinda unpredictable," the night sky lightened at Kagome's last statement. Inuyasha stared at the moon and sighed. Suddenly he felt the pure, strong essence of demon blood returning to his system. He looked at Kagome frantic, how had this happened? Where was he to go?

"Kagome's the demon blood is coming back," Inuyasha tried to stay as calm as possible but his voice sounded uptight.

"What? But how?" Kagome grabbed his hand. Her scent wasn't helping much either. The moon! Tonight was a full moon! But it was barely even sun up, so how could it have this much affect...unless...the demon could somehow sense that it was a full moon and humoured him into thinking that it had been laid dormant. The full moon would how its sway on him tonight. Tonight when his demon became even stronger then normal. Inuyasha got up and looked nervously around for somewhere to go. Kagome soot up with him and began to say something, but why couldn't he hear her. All he could hear was the pounding in his head and ears. Faint purple streaks began to graze his cheeks and his eyes slowly began to redden. Inuyasha saw Kagome come forward and touch his arm. He had no control over what he did next. He gripped the sides of his and clenched his teeth together.

Then she yanked a bit on his outer kimono. He sent her flying backwards. He hit her and the demon felt the half-breed mutt scream in his head. It was all so loud, the half-breed yelling in his head along with the pounding...why didn't it just stop. He looked at the girl lying on the ground; her head lying to the side with a small pool of blood enveloped her head. Had a demon attacked...no, he had sent her fly backwards and she had apparently hit her head on a rock. Her blood...he needed to get it out of his senses, but he couldn't just leave her there. And the half-breed was yelling at him to bring into the hut...dammit! He would give into the half-breed only this once and only because he liked this girl. He walked over to her and looked her over. A very evident bruise was forming under her left eye. He gingerly picked her up in his arms and took another opportunity to look her over. Her head just fell over his arms revealing her neck. It was very tempting. Damn! That half-breed didn't just shut up! The demon looked up at the hut and began to walk towards it. Yes he would help the young girl. He wanted her well. He wanted her to wake up soon, he wanted her back to him and didn't like giving her up to people he didn't know or most importantly the half-breed knew.

Stealing one last gaze at the soon to be full moon he smirked and walked down the path to the hut and pushed past the bamboo. Everything was quiet and he smelled for where her scent would be strongest. Spying it he walked over and placed her onto s soft green sheet of material. Her head fell to the left and he watched he blood flow through it. He hesitated for a moment and then turned to walk out. He heard someone get up and go to the girl just as he walked out. It was the monk and he was now alerting the other young girl, the monk's girl. He walked down the path and stopped to stare as the moon felt behind the trees. Muffled screams erupted from the hut and he smiled. Turning towards the forest he smirked. He would come later for his girl. He began to run, to chase after the dying moon and eagerly awaited tonight's moon. The one who would hold her sway over him.

"I'm really worried..."

"She will awaken soon...give it time..."

"Is she awake yet...?"

"No...you...need...have...patience..."

Kagome opened to the whispers of surrounding people. Trying hard to focus her eyes sight Kagome saw the face of Miroku, Shippo and Sango. Kagome stared ahead of them to see if she could find Inuyasha. Had he really hit her? Lack of control, she knew that, but it still felt weird to think that Inuyasha had actually struck her. She felt the bruise and flinched as small amounts of pain were felt.

"Kagome! You're awake!" Shippo cried and he gingerly placed his arms around her waist and looked up at her with tears. Kagome smiled and placed him in her lap. Poor Shippo he must have felt so neglected. Kagome hadn't been paying much attention to him, but this thing with Inuyasha. She needed to help him and Shippo needed to understand that.

"Kagome how are you feeling?" Kagome squinted her eyes only to make out a fuzzy image of what looked like Sango. She tried to answer but no words were formed. Her mouth was dry and she needed water.

"Water...please..." Kagome whispered hoarsely

"Of course!" Sango cried and went over to a bowl and placed some in another smaller bowl. She returned and handed the bowl over to Kagome who was relieved when the water touched her parched throat.

"How are you Kagome?" Sango tried again

"My head...it hurts. What happened?" Kagome knew the answer she was going to get; yet she wanted to hear it form their point of view.

"All we know is that Inuyasha brought you in here. He woke up Miroku who spotted you. You had quite a knock to the head, but Kaede was able to fix you up,"

"What time is it?" Kagome tried to find her watch

"The sun is setting Kagome, you've been out for almost the whole day..." Sango replied.

"Inuyasha? Where is he?" Kagome tried to stand but was only sat back down by Sango

"Kagome! You can't go looking for him now! You need to rest!"

Kagome knew that Sango was right, but she wanted to badly to be with Inuyasha. Even if was a full demon again. His words: Do I scare you Kagome...? What could they have meant? What was he trying to uncover? How did they even get on that subject?

If the sun were setting then maybe after they all fell asleep she would sneak out and find him. It was like he was calling out to her. She had never, in all the times she had been separated from Inuyasha, felt this yearning, this desire to be near him before. It almost made her feel sick. It was a good plan, but she would have to carry it out as quietly as possible, because she didn't want to let the others know. It was a secret. Her secret. Kagome felt like by sneaking out to see Inuyasha it was like forbidden love. But his love was for Kikyou, no matter how much his demon side wanted her. Kikyou. She was so jealous of her because of the love she got from Inuyasha. She felt her cheeks tinge of anger.

"Kagome! Are you okay? You look a little flushed," Kagome heard Sango's voice and could now clearly see her.

"Ohh I'm fine just a little hot that's all..." she lied

"Maybe you should get some rest..." Miroku said

"Ya that'd be nice and I am kinda tired," Kagome faked a yawn to make it look convincing.

"Okay then," Sango clapped her hands, "Let's leave Kagome alone so she can get rest and recover! C'mon Shippo!"

"No I wanna stay with Kagome," Shippo pleaded. Kagome sighed she was never going to be able to sneak out if Shippo was always snuggling against her.

"Shippo if you don't let Kagome recover then she won't be able to play or tell you stories anymore...you have to let her be, just for this night okay?" Miroku said

"Well okay, but you have to promise to tell me a story tomorrow night..." Shippo said

"Right, okay," Kagome smiled and Shippo danced around and then jumped into Sango's arms

"Good night Kagome," Sango smiled

"Recover fast Kagome," Miroku nodded and left the hut

"Bye Kagome!" Shippo said and was carried out by Sango.

Kagome quickly peered out the window and watched as all three of them entered another hut. The sky had darkened drastically and Kagome turned to her backpack. A little to fast as her vision blurred and she stumbled a bit. Placing a hand on the ground to steady herself she sat and pulled the pack onto her lap.

Once her vision cleared she opened it and searched for her flashlight. Finding at the bottom of her bag she turned it on to test the batteries. Sighing to see that they worked Kagome slowly stood up and put on her shoes. Stumbling a bit and reaching for the walls, Kagome put a hand to her head and looked up. Slowly she untied the white bandages that covered her head and dropped them on the floor. Standing up straighter Kagome pushed open the bamboo and slowly walked past the hut where the rest of her friends were sleeping. Kagome stopped at the edge of the small village and thought of where she was going to start looking for him.

As if he was calling to her Kagome decided to look and the God Tree. Something told her to start there. Walking slowly and turning on the flashlight, Kagome walked to the God Tree and hoped he would be there.

Soon she found the God Tree and directed the light on the many branches. Twice she circled the tree but found nothing. Sighing angrily she heard a small noise from behind her. Whipping around she found nothing, but decided against her better judgement to see what it was. Following the direction she thought she heard it from she came upon a small cliff that dropped a fair bit into a small creek.

Why had she never noticed it before? And there! On the bank was Inuyasha! She dimmed the light and shone it above his face. He was asleep. However, he must be dreaming because he would move every now and then but his eyes would remain closed. As quietly as she could Kagome crept down the small hill and silently walked over to him. Sinking herself down beside him, she wondered what he was dreaming about.

Smoke filled the air. Fire raged and burned as they licked up every surface that wasn't already consumed by flames. Screams filled they cool night air. All of them were running. Well the ones who were alive anyway. They knew that he would eventually catch them, but still they ran on. He had even killed the Monk. Their one chance for protection and he had fatally wounded the demon slayer, what were they to do. One of them fell, there was no time to go back, and he had found the innocent and killed quickly wanting to move on.

The priestess was still with them, but not the fox. He perished first. The young miko was angry but she herded the survivors and told them to run. But they knew that even the mighty priestess was no match for him, and now her bloody arm was proof. He was gaining on them, they had no else to run, and they were all going to die. Then he appeared in front of them and starting killing from the front. One by one they fell blood filled his senses and he laughed. Claws stained with innocent blood, she stared at him. Tears fell. She bit back her crying as he slowly advanced to her. She backed up and ran in the other direction but he was there in front of her before she had time to blink. He charged her and secured a strong grasp of her neck.

She struggled to breathe and everything was turning black. Smoke continued to pour from the once proud village. No one was left alive. He made sure of that. It was just he and his woman now. He could feel her breathing become laboured; she wasn't going to live much longer. That was her punishment for leaving him, she was going to die then he would be happy. She beat again his strong arms but he never loosened his grasp. Damn. She wasn't dying fast enough. Using his free hand he plunged it into her chest. She gasped and blood poured from her mouth.

He dropped her and she fell to the ground, limp. He looked down and cried out. He was forced to watch the innocent killings his counter part had done. Everyone he held dear was dead. Rain fell form the blackened clouds and diminished the fire. Her blood filled his nose and golden eyes filled with tears. He dropped to his knees and picked up her head. Her pure white shirt was covered with dirt and blood. She would never move again, never breath, never laugh, sing or talk. He stared as he cradled her head in his arms and wept. He had done this. No...

"I'm so sorry Kagome..."

The scent of her blood was so real that Inuyasha bolted up and bit back a cry. Kagome was gone? He had killed her?

"No," he whispered "No." and his red eyes began to fade away. What was he going to do? He killed the woman he loved. It's over; she's dead by my own hand! He growled and the red eyes began to return.

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