Sorry its taken so long, life's been rough these last couple of months. But here it is.
Chapter Four:
Waking Dreams
By: TigressMoon
Kagome POV:
When she had bathed and changed into an appropriate gown for dinner with Sesshomaru and his surrogate daughter, Kagome realized that she did not want to be near him. He had made her feel like some silly child whose fears had been unwarranted.
But Sesshomaru had not been there, had not felt what she had felt, so how could he understand. But regardless of that, his words had hurt her more than anyone else's words might have. She had definitely been told to do worse in her life, and yet what he had asked had significantly shaken her.
**"Whether you like it or not it is what you are."**
Kagome knew that she was not an angel. As the daughter of the Goddess, Kagome is many things, but an angel was not one of them. Angels were the souls of the dead who had ascended to a state of purity and oneness with her mother. She was a minor goddess, an elemental, and a telepath as well as telekinetic.
But an angel she was not, and she did not wish to be. Something from deep inside her told Kagome, that should she ever become an angel, hell would be released. How she knew this she did not know, it was merely there. And she would listen to this inner knowledge, for she also knew not what would happen if she didn't.
Sighing she took one final look at herself in the mirror. She was now wearing a stunning twilight purple gown that glittered with stars like the night-sky itself. She wore amethyst drops in her ears and a ebony pendant at her neck. Her luxuriously long hair had been pulled high on top her head and wound into an elegant bun.
Satisfied with her reflection walked out of her door to find Camela waiting for her. "Good evening milady." She declared with a formal bow. "Good evening Camela how are you?" Kagome asked. "I am fine milady, I have been asked to escort you to the dining hall."
Kagome nodded and Camela walked away with Kagome close behind. As Kagome walked her mind again drifted to her thoughts. This time, they were of her mother's worries.
****Something is coming, something my immortal eyes cannot see. ***
But what could that possibly be, where her mother The Great Mother Goddess could not reach. This she worried about, whatever it was could be a threat to her throne. Oh how she longed to hear her mother's calming voice.
She was drawn away from her thoughts as Camela led her before another large oak door. She knocked and apparently heard a reply for she then opened the door and let Kagome in.
Sesshomaru sat at the end of semi-large table with Rin sitting one seat away from his right with a very annoyed looking Jaken scowling at her left. When Rin caught sight of her she laughed and ran towards her.
Three feet away she jumped into Kagome's arms. "Hi Kagome-sama." She squealed in delight. "Kagome-sama looks very pretty, does Kagome-sama think Rin-chan's dress is pretty?" She asked while momentarily letting go of Kagome.
"Yes you do dearling." Kagome told her while staring at the kimono. It was a rich hunter green with golden phoenixes stitched into the fabric. Her hair was pulled into a bun like hers and held in place by an elaborately carved ivory comb.
Rin laughed gleefully and clung to Kagome's leg until she noticed that something was missing. "Kagome-sama?" She said. Kagome stared down into her questioning eyes. "Yes little one."
"Where are your wings?" She asked while searching for them. At first Kagome new not what to say the picked up Rin and said. "They are resting little one, so that later I can take you flying."
Rin burst into an excited squeal and hugged Kagome. What she didn't realize what she squeezed Kagome's sensitive shoulder blades, Kagome winced but continued on nonetheless.
When she came to Sesshoumaru's side, she found his eyes on her. Hw wore his usual attire, but when one is as blessed as or dear Sesshoumaru, he looked like a king. He had noticed her wince but said nothing. But suspicion clung to his eyes as he studied her.
"Release her Rin, I have taught you more manners than that." The girl child quieted down and stood before Sesshoumaru. With her palms cupped behind her back she was the perfect picture of a chastised child.
"Now what do you say when a guest arrives?" Sesshomaru asked in a fatherly sort of way. Rin sighed then turned to Kagome.
"Good evening Lady Kagome, thank you for joining us for dinner." She said with a deep bow. "Please take your seat at either Lord Sesshomaru-sama's or Rin's side."
Kagome smiled in spite herself. The two were good for each other, she realized. She took the seat between them as was expected and sat up straight awaiting the arrival of their food. And she would not have to wait long.
Servants glided into the room with trays of food for her, Rin and Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru they served first, and placed three large plates before him. Sesshomaru examined them closely without lifting the lids of any of them.
He ordered that one be placed before me and the other before her, the other for Rin and then the last for himself. The top was removed to reveal a bowl of thick steaming soup. Rin's dish contained smoked salmon with white rice. Sesshomaru had a plate of pork chops, white rice, and steamed vegetables.
Kagome eyed the meat hungrily, the soup smelled delicious but compared to the tantalizing meat before her, she was not sure she could eat what she was given. Before she could clear her face, Sesshomaru caught the look in her eyes.
"I know not how well you can hold your food Kagome, when you've proved you can keep it down you will be allowed solids and meats." He told her. Kagome fought back a growl. She was not a baby; she could eat whatever she chose.
But she knew also that if she reached for that meat, she's lose that arm. Growling to herself, she took a sip of the soup and found it to be very good, and even better; there were chunks of warm chicken. She smiled to herself and savored it.
But then she saw Sesshomaru's underlying smug expression. Restraining another growl she regained her composure and tentatively sipped the broth. It seemed that Rin had caught the silent battle between them and asked.
"Is Kagome-sama and Sesshomaru-sama alright, Sesshomaru-sama looks like he knows something Kagome-sama does not. And Kagome-sama looks like she knows that Sesshomaru-sama knows something she does not, but she will not tell him what she knows he does not know she knows."
For a moment both of them could only stare at the young girl. And then unexpectedly, Kagome let loose a full hearted laugh. A laugh that echoed into the small room like a bell. Moments later Rin joined in, and for a second Kagome thought Sesshomaru would join in as well.
But all she could get from the demon lord was a well hidden smile, but it was a smile nonetheless. Calming herself Kagome stared down at a still giggling Rin.
"If you only knew how right you are little one." She said while tentatively stroking her hair.
But the moment Kagome touched the girl's forehead her vision suddenly went black. Her mind began to swim and she realized she was being pulled into a vision, and yet she could see nothing.
A spine-chilling scream cut through her mind and she stared around desperately trying to find the source. Another scream tore through her, this time that of a males. Kagome's breath came out fast as she struggled in vain to find out what was happening.
Then it was as if a crimson veil had been placed over her eyes and all she saw was red. She stood in a large courtyard, Romanesque in design with its massive columns and marble tiles.
It was when she looked down at the tiles that she herself let loose a scream. The floor was awash with dark red blood. She stared around her and saw a small body lying on its side only feet away from her. She recognized the small side pony tile.
"RIN!" She screamed and ran forward to the body. She turned the small child over in her arm and nearly screamed again. Rin's throat had been ripped out.
"Rin, Rin can you hear me?" She pleaded as she forced the girl child to look at her. But her once lively brown eyes were dead in the sockets and staring at oblivion. It was then she started crying.
"Who could have done this?" She demanded, her sobs making the words almost unintelligible.
"Do you not know?" A horse voice whispered from behind her.
There lying on his back lay the fallen Sesshoumaru, tentatively she lay down the broken body of young Rin and crawled to his side. Her throat was cut but not as bad as Rin's, no he was dying from the deep wounds in his side and what looked like a hole just big enough for a hand to go through.
"Sesshoumaru, who did this. Tell me please."
She went to take his head but he growled at her in warning. He stared at her, his dulling amber eyes alive with an unseen fire. His eyes shot daggers at her, there was a hatred there she could not understand.
"Do you not know witch?" She growled confusing Kagome even more.
"Look in the mirror of blood." He snarled trying to pull away from her, but his wounds preventing him from doing so.
Not knowing what else to do, Kagome went to look into the largest pool of blood, where both Rin's and Sesshoumaru's had combined. There within the blood she saw her own reflection.
And it was not she. Her hair had become a living mane, alive and writhing in some unseen wind. Her eyes were slanted and dilated, glowing with hunger, but for what she could not say. And her face...oh her face was contorted like that of a hissing cats.
She pulled away from the reflection and stared down at her hands. Hands that were not hands, instead bloody claws stared back at her. She realized then that it was there blood, and the scene played itself before her eyes.
A creature ripping out poor Rin's throat then turning on Sesshomaru. And even worse, she saw her mother. Her own mother had fallen before her hand.
"Do you not see..." Sesshoumaru said while forcing himself onto his feet.
"IT WAS YOU!"
"You with the power that no other creature should have, you the demon spawn of that wretched Goddess. You've killed even HER!"
The scream that escaped Kagome's lips was more like a roar than a scream. She shook her head in fierce defiance.
*NO! * Her mind screamed.
*It can't be true. *
It was then her mind was released from the spell. Her breathing was fast and labored as if she'd been running and yet she was in the same place where she began. Sitting at the table.
Rin was still there and so was Sesshomaru, both were alive and intact, and both there eyes were clouded with worry and curiosity. But Kagome could not be around them. She ripped herself away from them and ran.
Far faster than she'd even believed herself possible of. She ran so fast that not even Sesshomaru realized she was gone. Kagome knew not where she ran as the tears began to stream down her face. She fought down the overwhelming scream within her.
She was in shock she couldn't believe. And yet she knew it was true.
She was the evil her mother had seen. And there was nothing she could do to stop it.
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I don't believe I've ever taken the time to thank everyone whose reviewed me. And I think now is the time to do it.
Kfflare: I'm glad you like it, and I'm glad to have obliged.
Icedragon012990: Thank you and I hope I don't disappoint.
Shan: I'm working on it, thank you.
Genni Kag's and Sess's Child: Thank you very much for loving my story so much.
Ptbear: Here's the update, thank you for reading.
Megan Consoer: Here is the chapter you wanted, thanks.
Tsuku no Tennyo: I hope it wasn't that sad, although this one might be a little sadder. Thanks.
Bloodbunny: I finally updated, this story is going to be bittersweet btw.
Sunstar: Thanks for all your reviews.
Saria: Hope me sending you the chapters before helped. Here's more.
Cutiepie99: I've updated again, and thanks for putting me up so high.
SansCorpus: Cameli you know you're my girl, thanks for reading my stories.
Bruka-chan: If you're still interested in the proofer job, its yours. Thanks.
Mistress Fluffy: thanks for all your reviews.
Lord Sesshomaru: I hope its stayed interesting, tell me if its not and I'll work on it.
Kissy: Here's the update. Thanks for reading.
If I've missed anybody I'm sorry. But I would like to say thank you to everyone. Although I don't have the most reviews of anyone on fanfiction. I've never gotten a bad one yet. And I'm going for quality over quantity. So again, I'm thanking everyone. Goddess Bless.
Sincerely,
TigressMoon.
Chapter Four:
Waking Dreams
By: TigressMoon
Kagome POV:
When she had bathed and changed into an appropriate gown for dinner with Sesshomaru and his surrogate daughter, Kagome realized that she did not want to be near him. He had made her feel like some silly child whose fears had been unwarranted.
But Sesshomaru had not been there, had not felt what she had felt, so how could he understand. But regardless of that, his words had hurt her more than anyone else's words might have. She had definitely been told to do worse in her life, and yet what he had asked had significantly shaken her.
**"Whether you like it or not it is what you are."**
Kagome knew that she was not an angel. As the daughter of the Goddess, Kagome is many things, but an angel was not one of them. Angels were the souls of the dead who had ascended to a state of purity and oneness with her mother. She was a minor goddess, an elemental, and a telepath as well as telekinetic.
But an angel she was not, and she did not wish to be. Something from deep inside her told Kagome, that should she ever become an angel, hell would be released. How she knew this she did not know, it was merely there. And she would listen to this inner knowledge, for she also knew not what would happen if she didn't.
Sighing she took one final look at herself in the mirror. She was now wearing a stunning twilight purple gown that glittered with stars like the night-sky itself. She wore amethyst drops in her ears and a ebony pendant at her neck. Her luxuriously long hair had been pulled high on top her head and wound into an elegant bun.
Satisfied with her reflection walked out of her door to find Camela waiting for her. "Good evening milady." She declared with a formal bow. "Good evening Camela how are you?" Kagome asked. "I am fine milady, I have been asked to escort you to the dining hall."
Kagome nodded and Camela walked away with Kagome close behind. As Kagome walked her mind again drifted to her thoughts. This time, they were of her mother's worries.
****Something is coming, something my immortal eyes cannot see. ***
But what could that possibly be, where her mother The Great Mother Goddess could not reach. This she worried about, whatever it was could be a threat to her throne. Oh how she longed to hear her mother's calming voice.
She was drawn away from her thoughts as Camela led her before another large oak door. She knocked and apparently heard a reply for she then opened the door and let Kagome in.
Sesshomaru sat at the end of semi-large table with Rin sitting one seat away from his right with a very annoyed looking Jaken scowling at her left. When Rin caught sight of her she laughed and ran towards her.
Three feet away she jumped into Kagome's arms. "Hi Kagome-sama." She squealed in delight. "Kagome-sama looks very pretty, does Kagome-sama think Rin-chan's dress is pretty?" She asked while momentarily letting go of Kagome.
"Yes you do dearling." Kagome told her while staring at the kimono. It was a rich hunter green with golden phoenixes stitched into the fabric. Her hair was pulled into a bun like hers and held in place by an elaborately carved ivory comb.
Rin laughed gleefully and clung to Kagome's leg until she noticed that something was missing. "Kagome-sama?" She said. Kagome stared down into her questioning eyes. "Yes little one."
"Where are your wings?" She asked while searching for them. At first Kagome new not what to say the picked up Rin and said. "They are resting little one, so that later I can take you flying."
Rin burst into an excited squeal and hugged Kagome. What she didn't realize what she squeezed Kagome's sensitive shoulder blades, Kagome winced but continued on nonetheless.
When she came to Sesshoumaru's side, she found his eyes on her. Hw wore his usual attire, but when one is as blessed as or dear Sesshoumaru, he looked like a king. He had noticed her wince but said nothing. But suspicion clung to his eyes as he studied her.
"Release her Rin, I have taught you more manners than that." The girl child quieted down and stood before Sesshoumaru. With her palms cupped behind her back she was the perfect picture of a chastised child.
"Now what do you say when a guest arrives?" Sesshomaru asked in a fatherly sort of way. Rin sighed then turned to Kagome.
"Good evening Lady Kagome, thank you for joining us for dinner." She said with a deep bow. "Please take your seat at either Lord Sesshomaru-sama's or Rin's side."
Kagome smiled in spite herself. The two were good for each other, she realized. She took the seat between them as was expected and sat up straight awaiting the arrival of their food. And she would not have to wait long.
Servants glided into the room with trays of food for her, Rin and Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru they served first, and placed three large plates before him. Sesshomaru examined them closely without lifting the lids of any of them.
He ordered that one be placed before me and the other before her, the other for Rin and then the last for himself. The top was removed to reveal a bowl of thick steaming soup. Rin's dish contained smoked salmon with white rice. Sesshomaru had a plate of pork chops, white rice, and steamed vegetables.
Kagome eyed the meat hungrily, the soup smelled delicious but compared to the tantalizing meat before her, she was not sure she could eat what she was given. Before she could clear her face, Sesshomaru caught the look in her eyes.
"I know not how well you can hold your food Kagome, when you've proved you can keep it down you will be allowed solids and meats." He told her. Kagome fought back a growl. She was not a baby; she could eat whatever she chose.
But she knew also that if she reached for that meat, she's lose that arm. Growling to herself, she took a sip of the soup and found it to be very good, and even better; there were chunks of warm chicken. She smiled to herself and savored it.
But then she saw Sesshomaru's underlying smug expression. Restraining another growl she regained her composure and tentatively sipped the broth. It seemed that Rin had caught the silent battle between them and asked.
"Is Kagome-sama and Sesshomaru-sama alright, Sesshomaru-sama looks like he knows something Kagome-sama does not. And Kagome-sama looks like she knows that Sesshomaru-sama knows something she does not, but she will not tell him what she knows he does not know she knows."
For a moment both of them could only stare at the young girl. And then unexpectedly, Kagome let loose a full hearted laugh. A laugh that echoed into the small room like a bell. Moments later Rin joined in, and for a second Kagome thought Sesshomaru would join in as well.
But all she could get from the demon lord was a well hidden smile, but it was a smile nonetheless. Calming herself Kagome stared down at a still giggling Rin.
"If you only knew how right you are little one." She said while tentatively stroking her hair.
But the moment Kagome touched the girl's forehead her vision suddenly went black. Her mind began to swim and she realized she was being pulled into a vision, and yet she could see nothing.
A spine-chilling scream cut through her mind and she stared around desperately trying to find the source. Another scream tore through her, this time that of a males. Kagome's breath came out fast as she struggled in vain to find out what was happening.
Then it was as if a crimson veil had been placed over her eyes and all she saw was red. She stood in a large courtyard, Romanesque in design with its massive columns and marble tiles.
It was when she looked down at the tiles that she herself let loose a scream. The floor was awash with dark red blood. She stared around her and saw a small body lying on its side only feet away from her. She recognized the small side pony tile.
"RIN!" She screamed and ran forward to the body. She turned the small child over in her arm and nearly screamed again. Rin's throat had been ripped out.
"Rin, Rin can you hear me?" She pleaded as she forced the girl child to look at her. But her once lively brown eyes were dead in the sockets and staring at oblivion. It was then she started crying.
"Who could have done this?" She demanded, her sobs making the words almost unintelligible.
"Do you not know?" A horse voice whispered from behind her.
There lying on his back lay the fallen Sesshoumaru, tentatively she lay down the broken body of young Rin and crawled to his side. Her throat was cut but not as bad as Rin's, no he was dying from the deep wounds in his side and what looked like a hole just big enough for a hand to go through.
"Sesshoumaru, who did this. Tell me please."
She went to take his head but he growled at her in warning. He stared at her, his dulling amber eyes alive with an unseen fire. His eyes shot daggers at her, there was a hatred there she could not understand.
"Do you not know witch?" She growled confusing Kagome even more.
"Look in the mirror of blood." He snarled trying to pull away from her, but his wounds preventing him from doing so.
Not knowing what else to do, Kagome went to look into the largest pool of blood, where both Rin's and Sesshoumaru's had combined. There within the blood she saw her own reflection.
And it was not she. Her hair had become a living mane, alive and writhing in some unseen wind. Her eyes were slanted and dilated, glowing with hunger, but for what she could not say. And her face...oh her face was contorted like that of a hissing cats.
She pulled away from the reflection and stared down at her hands. Hands that were not hands, instead bloody claws stared back at her. She realized then that it was there blood, and the scene played itself before her eyes.
A creature ripping out poor Rin's throat then turning on Sesshomaru. And even worse, she saw her mother. Her own mother had fallen before her hand.
"Do you not see..." Sesshoumaru said while forcing himself onto his feet.
"IT WAS YOU!"
"You with the power that no other creature should have, you the demon spawn of that wretched Goddess. You've killed even HER!"
The scream that escaped Kagome's lips was more like a roar than a scream. She shook her head in fierce defiance.
*NO! * Her mind screamed.
*It can't be true. *
It was then her mind was released from the spell. Her breathing was fast and labored as if she'd been running and yet she was in the same place where she began. Sitting at the table.
Rin was still there and so was Sesshomaru, both were alive and intact, and both there eyes were clouded with worry and curiosity. But Kagome could not be around them. She ripped herself away from them and ran.
Far faster than she'd even believed herself possible of. She ran so fast that not even Sesshomaru realized she was gone. Kagome knew not where she ran as the tears began to stream down her face. She fought down the overwhelming scream within her.
She was in shock she couldn't believe. And yet she knew it was true.
She was the evil her mother had seen. And there was nothing she could do to stop it.
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I don't believe I've ever taken the time to thank everyone whose reviewed me. And I think now is the time to do it.
Kfflare: I'm glad you like it, and I'm glad to have obliged.
Icedragon012990: Thank you and I hope I don't disappoint.
Shan: I'm working on it, thank you.
Genni Kag's and Sess's Child: Thank you very much for loving my story so much.
Ptbear: Here's the update, thank you for reading.
Megan Consoer: Here is the chapter you wanted, thanks.
Tsuku no Tennyo: I hope it wasn't that sad, although this one might be a little sadder. Thanks.
Bloodbunny: I finally updated, this story is going to be bittersweet btw.
Sunstar: Thanks for all your reviews.
Saria: Hope me sending you the chapters before helped. Here's more.
Cutiepie99: I've updated again, and thanks for putting me up so high.
SansCorpus: Cameli you know you're my girl, thanks for reading my stories.
Bruka-chan: If you're still interested in the proofer job, its yours. Thanks.
Mistress Fluffy: thanks for all your reviews.
Lord Sesshomaru: I hope its stayed interesting, tell me if its not and I'll work on it.
Kissy: Here's the update. Thanks for reading.
If I've missed anybody I'm sorry. But I would like to say thank you to everyone. Although I don't have the most reviews of anyone on fanfiction. I've never gotten a bad one yet. And I'm going for quality over quantity. So again, I'm thanking everyone. Goddess Bless.
Sincerely,
TigressMoon.