Chapter five: Freak
Ok, I forgot last time that the other characters like Paige and Sean aren't mine they're based on Degrassi Characters.
The weekend had been hard; one nightmare after another haunted her dreams. They felt like reality, a reality that trapped her in pain. Finally the sun slowly rose from above the horizon, Ruthie stared at the wall watching light change as the sun rose and time passed. Finally the alarm clock pulled her out of her gaze, and she shut it off. She sat up and was unsure why she had waited all weekend for this day when it would be just like the past two. Only, now she couldn't go in her room and hide.
Ruthie got out of bed and got dressed, she couldn't find anything to wear seeing how everything made her uncomfortable; she finally put on some black jeans, a light blue long sleeved shirt, and a red hoodey. She skipped all makeup, and packed up her homework, which was strewn all over the floor. She knew if she didn't head down her mother would call up to her and she didn't want to face her in conflict. So she went downstairs with her stuff.
"Good morning Ruthie" The boys said.
"Morning boys" Ruthie said tersely.
"Today is show and tell," David explained ignoring Ruthie's tone. Ruthie sighed; she didn't want a conversation with her brothers. They were oblivious and would only draw attention to her attitude. Glancing at Sam, when he saw her face he was hesitant about speaking. So David went on. "We wanted to bring in Happy, but he would eat the bunny, right Sam?"
"Yeah… So we are just going to bring in some cars," He said looking at Ruthie who was trying to patiently look interested. Luckily for her Martin came downstairs, and Ruthie could make her escape with a valid excuse.
"Morning" Martin said he looked ready to go.
"Martin, you'll drive me right?" Ruthie asked.
"Only if you want to leave now I have to talk to a teacher before school," Martin said taking an apple.
"Yeah… its fine I wanted to go to the computer room anyway," Ruthie said nearly cutting Martin off.
"Don't you want breakfast?" Annie asked with apprehension.
"Not hungry, did you make my lunch," she asked her eyes averting her moms.
"Oh yes here" she handed her a paper bag. Ruthie took the bag and left. "Ok then have a good day"
"Bye" she called.
"Bye Mrs. Camden" Martin said. He left the house. Sam looked at David who started talking about show and tell again. He didn't even shrug it off he just ignored it all. Sam couldn't understand, he knew Ruthie never acted like this. The look she gave him scared him though, he felt like she was wishing they were both gone. Being five he couldn't really understand. But his mother had seen it too; there was a look of pure hatred in her daughter's eyes, pure disdain and for who was what she couldn't grasp. The fire in Ruthie's eyes scared her and she had never seen it before Ruthie's eyes showed all of this but had this blank look in them, which was most puzzling.
At school, Ruthie hid in the computer room until just before advisory started and then left. When she got there she signed in with enough time to not be late and avoid having to talk to Paige. Then it was first period, they had Math again, which meant she would probably get away without having to talk to Paige, and Sean. As soon as she sat down though she was stuck.
"Hey, wasn't that party great?" Paige squealed.
"Uh huh" Ruthie said trying not to have to answer much.
"You were there when I got to church on Sunday and gone by the time I got out… you didn't answer any of my calls Saturday either?" Paige said.
"Homework" She said.
"Ok, what's up with you?" She said annoyed. Then Sean rushed in. Mr. Lyons glared at him and he sat down.
"Hey" Sean said. Sean leaned in and kissed Ruthie on the cheek. She flashed in her mind that night. When her mouth was smothered in kisses to keep her quiet. She got real nervous, and started to breathe harder. "You ok?"
"I'm fine," She said shushing him. He sighed.
"Oh please what is your—"Paige started. While they were chatting they didn't notice the principal walk in.
"Ms. Michalchuk. Why are you talking?" Mr. Radditch said.
"Sorry" She said. Ruthie was actually glad to see Mr. Radditch for once, because he had shut Paige up. So Paige refrained from talking during math.
The bell rang and it was time for their next class, they had French. Ruthie and Paige split from Sean since he had Spanish.
"Adios" Sean said. Once gone Paige was off she wanted to know what was up.
"Ok, he's gone so what's your problem" Paige persisted.
"My problem is…" Ruthie started. "We're going to be late for French" Ruthie hurried her pace so she could get into French without another word.
"Excuse me but that is so lame" Paige said.
"Hurry up girls class is starting" Ms. Steinglein said.
"Is not," she argued. "So shush we are watching a movie" Paige sighed she had gotten away yet again. They had humanities next so Paige was screwed, Ms. Lawrence would be all over them if they were talking.
So French ended, and they left for Humanities, but Ruthie had to explain to ms. Steinglein why she had no homework, which had its ups and downs. Paige had to leave she couldn't wait.
"So why didn't you do it?" Ms. Steinglein said.
"I don't know I guess I just forgot" Ruthie shrugged.
"Really you started it though, you had two days to work on it," She said.
"I know, I'm sorry" Ruthie sighed.
"I want it tomorrow half credit," Ms Steinglein warned.
"Fine its only flash cards though." She mumbled leaving. Once she got downstairs she sat down, next to Paige, and Sean across from her.
"Please take out your homework and start reading Siddhartha" Ms. Lawrence announced. "Sophie will go around and check," Ruthie took out her homework it was crumpled it was the only thing she really did. She took out the book and started reading, but Paige kept poking her.
"Quit it" she whispered. "We'll get in to trouble"
"Ruthie come on," Paige said. "Tell me. I'm dying"
"Uh, homework girls?" Sophie asked. They showed her and Sophie motioned from them to quiet down.
"Oh please tell me?" Paige begged.
"Tell you what?" Ruthie said annoyed.
"You guy are going to be in trouble," Sean warned them.
"What is up something is up…"She said waiting for an answer. With no reply, she continued to pester Ruthie. "Ruthie, is it something with you and Sean? Something at the Party?"
"Hey, you guys…" Sean said trying to intervene. Paige rolled her eyes and continued.
"Is it something with martin? Ms. Steinglein?"
"Paige, SHUT UP" Ruthie yelled, a little louder then she meant to. Everyone was staring at her.
"Paige please switch seats with Alex, Sean please switch with Chris," Ms. Lawrence said. "And no more talking." They got up and moved reluctantly. Ruthie didn't care then she realized Alex was sitting next to her. He smiled at her and continued reading. She sighed.
"Ok please talk with your partner about the book, do you like it? How do you feel about it? Etc." Ms. Lawrence said. Alex put down the book now he could talk to her, without getting in trouble.
"So do you like it?" Ruthie said.
"It's ok" Alex said. He was looking at her creepy,
"Don't look at me like that," she said.
"Oh I'm sorry, your just so pretty" he said.
"Alex, boyfriend. Not you!" She said disgusted.
"Yeah a real prince, he's an ass," He said sourly.
"Yeah well you're acreepy stalker. He's my boyfriend, and better then you," She said. He put his hand on hers, and sighed.
"I like you, why can't we be friends" Alex smiled. He was creepy, but that night flashed in her mind and she jumped up at his touch.
"Don't touch me, you freak!" she cried. Now everyone was totally focused on her. The teacher was about to yell at her for her rude outburst, when she stormed out of the room. She locked herself in the bathroom, crying, she buried her head in her hands to muffle her cries. The teacher was shocked; Alex sat there looking stunned. Everyone started laughing, the teacher quieted them down. Ruthie finally returned and was sat in a different seat. She was held late into lunch, listening to her teacher go on, and on. Finally she let her go, Paige was waiting for her with Sean. She sat down.
"So you want to talk?" Paige said.
"You know what Paige just shut the fuck up if you had left me alone in the first place I wouldn't have gotten in trouble. I wouldn't have had to sit with Alex and…" She stopped.
"What's your big problem with Alex he isn't that creepy," Paige said.
"Paige, Just leave me alone" Ruthie started getting pissed.
"What's your problem—"Paige said.
"You are!" Ruthie cried. She got up and left, Paige was her best friend and right now her enemy. She was to obsessed with getting Ruthie to spit it out, and "Ouch" Ruthie walked right into Alex.
"Oh Ruthie, I'm sorry" Alex said.
"What are you like a fucking Stalker or something?" Ruthie Screamed.
"No…Um" Alex Mumbled.
"Just quit following me your so annoying" Ruthie screamed. Paige and Sean had followed her out. Sean Ran up to her.
"Dude what's your problem?" Sean shouted. When Alex saw Sean he got angry he was not deserving of Ruthie.
"Nothing!" he said with an attitude.
"You going to give me attitude, Alex I'd watch yourself" Sean said, shoving him against the lockers. Alex tried to push Sean off of him. Sean punched him in the face. "Leave Ruthie alone!"
"Sean don't" Ruthie started to cry as she watched him, Beat up Alex. Finally a teacher came, to break up the fight. The three of them were taken to the office. Ruthie sat there crying when Sean tried to comfort her she moved away. She was crying extremely hard, especially hard for someone only in a little trouble, she was shaking.
The principal called them into their office, and Ruthie tried to calm herself down.
"Ok" They had given Alex an Ice pack. Ruthie wasn't really listening, she was zoned out, she really only heard. "Sean your suspended for a day, Alex so are you," She snapped out when she heard this.
"That's not fair," She protested!
"You want to be suspended?" The principal asked.
"No, Sean was just helping me…" Ruthie said.
"Well you didn't feel like sharing your side of the story please do tell," He said sarcastically.
"Oh please you don't give a fuck," She said standing up.
"Ms. Camden sit down," Mr. Radditch yelled. She sat down, and said nothing more ignoring the rest of this insane conversation. She was silent, waiting for her mother who had been called to come and pick her up. To yell at her the entire trip home. Ruthie wasn't going to say anything; she couldn't make sense of her own thoughts anyway.