Chapter nine: Mistakes

It was Friday once again, it had only been a week since it happened but it felt much longer. Ruthie woke up to that same dream; the dream was worse then her other dreams because in this one she lost everyone. She felt like she was losing them in real life as well. Ruthie got out of bed and took a shower. She put on a light blue short-sleeved shirt with mini mouse on it, and black jeans. She grabbed her bag and went downstairs. She felt herself being pulled into routine like before except with the happiness. Now it was just an emotionless routine. She got downstairs to find know one there. She picked up a note on the fridge.

'Had to take the boys to school early they had a field trip, I'm sure martin will drive you. Mom'

"Whatever" Ruthie rolled her eyes below that note was another.

'Had to go to work early. Dad' "Okay" Ruthie crumpled the note.

"Martin?" She yelled. She went upstairs martin was gone. "Great he left early" Ruthie grabbed her stuff and left, what a rip off. She thought how is everyone gone. She walked to school quietly, thinking about how she was normal this same time last week.

"Normal" she laughed. "That's a rip off" she sped up as she arrived at school she went inside and went to homeroom. Like yesterday she had math first, Guess who was here today. When she walked in she saw Sean Standing over Alex's desk talking to him fiercely. Alex's eyes shifted up at her; there was no longer a sweet innocent look in his eyes. She started to walk over, but Sean turned around.

"Ruthie, come on let's get away from this loser," He said leading her away from him.

"What were you saying to him?" She asked.

"Nothing" Sean said. They sat down next to Paige.

"What's going on?" she asked. She was answered because Mr. Lyons started talking, and class began. All through class she felt this tension in the air, besides the normal tension and suspicion she'd had since the rape. She kept glancing over to see Alex staring at her in a threatening way, only to look away when Sean looked over. Whenever she looked at Sean though he ignored, she was on the brink of killing someone if she didn't find out what was going on soon enough.

Soon enough class ended Ruthie, Paige and Sean left to go to their lockers. They were standing in front of Ruthie and Paige's locker.

"So what's your Problem?" Ruthie asked.

"Nothing" Sean said.

"Really what were you saying to Alex before I came in?" she asked annoyed.

"Nothing"

"That's not true!" She yelled.

"Yes it is—" Sean started.

"I don't trust you because you're a liar. Right now you're lying to me!" She said hurt.

"Ruthie, please let's just get to our next class" Sean said insistently.

"Your really worrying me—"Ruthie began.

"Really" Ruthie turned around to see Alex.

"Alex what do you…"She trailed off as she looked down at his hand, because in his hand was a gun. "Let's go" Ruthie started breathing heavy.

"DON'T RUN AWAY," He shouted.

"Alex don't—" Paige cried. Kids were running away screaming.

"Shut-up Paige" Alex Pointed the gun at Ruthie she froze. "I liked you, but you had to be such a bitch" Alex trembled as he slowly walked closer.

"No…"Ruthie started crying. Alex pointed the gun at Sean.

"You had to rub it in my face that she was yours!" He yelled.

"NO!" Ruthie shrieked.

"Your going to pay, just as I warned you" Alex shouted as he walked closer.

"What?" Ruthie said. "He was the hang up's, why didn't you tell me"

"I wanted to protect you" Sean said.

"Yeah you did a great job of that" Alex retorted. He pointed the gun at Ruthie again, she whimpered. "You, you think you're all high and mighty, that everyone should love you"

"No…" she sobbed.

"Stop it" Sean shouted.

"No! You think your so perfect cause your life is so perfect!" he said.

"No it isn't," She cried.

"Your not so perfect anymore" He yelled. Sean moved closer and grabbed Alex's arm. They wrestled over the gun. Sean used his other hand to punch him.

"Omg" Paige cried.

"Sean!" Ruthie shrieked Sean slammed Alex against the lockers the gun went off, and Sean stumbled back. Alex slumped down on the floor unconscious, and Sean fell to the ground. Ruthie ran over to him her hand over his stomach; her hand was covered in blood. "NO!" She cried. Paige stood screaming.

"…"Sean coughed. Ruthie stared into his eyes, why was he being taken from her?

"NO!" Ruthie screeched. "I need you"

"Ruthie…"He whispered. "I love you"

"I love you too," She sobbed hysterically. "You can't leave me, you can't leave me!" She cried over and over. She felt Sean leave her as he closed his eyes; she sat there covered in his blood.

"NOOOOO!" She screeched. "Sean!" She said over and over, as she hovered over him and his pool of blood. Her shirt became soaked in his blood but she didn't care, the police came running in and arrested Alex.

"Excuse Me," They said pulling Ruthie off of Sean.

"NO!" She shrieked kicking and screaming. They held her back and she collapsed to the floor crying. The medics rushed in, the police took pictures of the scene once Alex was gone. It was all a blur to Ruthie the sounds slurred and vision wavered, she wanted Sean back. She was taken to the office with Paige where she Mr. Radditch and someone else, she couldn't tell she didn't care, asked her questions. 'What happened?' 'Why did he do this?' 'Did Sean do something to him?" When this was asked. Ruthie listened.

"The two did get in a fight," Mr. Radditch interjected.

"HE DID NOTHING!" Ruthie screamed. "He did nothing," she repeated in a whisper.

"Then what happened?" the guy asked.

"I don't know why he did this," She said.

"Ruthie any idea?" He asked. She was silent Paige stared at her.

"He was psychotic, Alex!" She said. "Sean was the good guy, don't you make him out any other way!" Ruthie figured he was a cop or reporter. She smiled at Paige through her tearful eyes, how could Sean be gone? How? Alex deserved to be the one dead! Its not fair! Why? What had she done wrong? What mistake did she make? Maybe this is all unfolding because of the rape! Maybe it was her fault! Maybe it all was!