Chapter ten: Slipped away
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Ruthie lay with puffy red eyes upon her bed; her mind was like a volcano exploding with thoughts, of Sean. Her mind drifted back to yesterday. Her parents had run in grabbing her, as to assure them selves she was alive.
"Are you okay?" Her mother had asked through teary eyes. Ruthie had just sat there silent her shirt was still soaked in his blood, but over time had dried. Her parents gave up on her speaking and walked over talking with the other adults. She heard sobs but wasn't really paying attention; she was trying to accept that Sean was dead. She looked at her mother and father they looked worried but she couldn't care, at that moment she had hated everyone.
"Who?" Eric had asked.
"Alex Martine," Mr. Radditch had said.
"Oh no," Annie had said.
"I told you," Ruthie has whispered to herself. She didn't want to argue she just wanted Sean back.
Your arms slip away
I try to grasp your hands
Desperate in my loving way
I bring myself to stand
You lay there on the ground
Covered in your blood
I scream and yell to wake you up
But you don't make a sound
Ruthie pulled herself back to reality, and tears rolled down her cheek as she thought of him. How could he leave? Why had he left? But she knew she couldn't blame him. Ruthie felt alone she had nobody now, whom else could she trust. She had told him and now he was gone so what would she do without him? Ruthie closed her eyes but all she could see was that gun pointed at her, and Sean's dead body lying on the floor. There was a knock on the door she couldn't bring herself to speak. The door opened.
"Ruthie can I come in?" Her mother asked. Ruthie just sighed. "Ruthie, Sean's brother and parents have been notified of his death" Ruthie bit her lip hard holding back tears as she heard her mother utter the words Ruthie hadn't dared say yet. It's not true. "They are coming in to arrange his funeral, and collect his stuff. They invited you to choose some of his belongings" Ruthie tuned o her stomach as to hide her tears from her mother. Her mother sighed and sat down next to Ruthie. "Ruthie please say something" Ruthie shook her head.
"Well are you going to go?" Annie asked. Ruthie nodded. Annie sighed and got up, she was obviously not going to get a word out of her daughter. She placed her hand on her daughter's shoulder, who shrugged it off. Annie left shutting the door behind her. Ruthie closed her eyes and tried to drift off to sleep hoping it would save her from this painful reality.
Ruthie opened her eyes, she found herself at school. She saw Sean standing at his locker, she ran over to him.
"Sean" she screamed. He turned around, and smiled at her. "Sean we have to get out of here"
"Why?" He asked. Ruthie looked around terrified. She knew what was going on, but she hoped that if she saved him in her dream it would break reality. She would try anything to get him back. "Just trust me…" She drifted off seeing Alex staring at her. Alex smiled slowly pulling the gun up.
"What's wrong?" Sean asked, slowly turning around.
"No!" She screeched, the gun went off and Sean fell to the floor. Ruthie jolted upright drenched in sweat. "No" she repeated in a whisper. She laid her head in her hands in defeat crying. No matter what she did she couldn't save him. Yet another knock on the door rang through her room.
"What!" She cried annoyed. Great just what I wanted now that I've said something they'll expect me talk. The door opened it was Lucy to her surprise.
"So you speak," Lucy said trying to make light of a serious situation. Ruthie shrugged her shoulders. "So how are you?" For some reason Ruthie felt comfortable speaking with Lucy not necessarily in a good way though.
"How do you think the person I loved the most is…" She stopped. No I won't admit he's gone. I cant.
"Ruthie?" Lucy said. Ruthie looked at her sister painfully and sighed she wanted to tell her so badly, but she couldn't bring herself to do it. Ruthie just turned around silently. "Ruthie ignoring us won't help you! What is wrong? Something else is wrong you know I'm not blind I've noticed how you've been acting" Lucy waited for a response. The only thing responding to Lucy was silence. She gave up and left.
Ruthie broke out into hysterical sobs once the door closed behind her. Lucy stood there listening, it pained her to hear her sister in so much pain but what else could she do?
My heart beats fast time seems to stop
In an instance you are gone
Your life crashes to a halt
One bullet took your life
But your memory lives on
Forever in my heart you'll stay
I turn to God to pray
My hope lies within you
Forever now you lay
It was late in the night Ruthie sat in the kitchen staring at a bottle she sniffled holding back tears. She closed her eyes; Sean's face stared back at her; slowly blood started to pour down his face Ruthie's eyes opened and tears streaked down. Ruthie bolted up and ran out of the house it was pouring but Ruthie didn't care she ran as fast as she could remembering the night she had told Sean about the rape. The rape flashed in her mind, she stopped. Sean's face with blood dripping down it flashed again, Ruthie screamed. She ran as fast as she could trying to escape her mind, Ruthie tripped crashing to the ground her knees hit the ground. She placed her fingers on them blood rushed against them. She flashed in her mind her hands covered in Sean's blood. Ruthie tried to pull herself up but her knees wobbled and stung from the rain. It was at that moment Ruthie wished her life would just end.