Chapter twelve: Goodbye

This is the final chapter of this story I hope you have liked my first Fanfiction please read and review thank you.

Footsteps walked across her mind, as she refocused her thoughts. Where am I? What's happened? She tried to open her eyes, but nothing happened she slowly regained her memory. All her thoughts and what had happened flooded back. That all so familiar annoying beep, beep, beep returned. She tried again to open her eyes, this time fluttering them light blasted in front of them as she squinted. Two blurry figures clouded her vision as it slowly came in to focus her mother and father's faces appeared. As she came to the realization that she had failed, for she was still alive. Everything came into focus as she fluttered her eyes.

"Ruthie?" She heard her mom sigh. Ruthie saw her mothers eyes glisten as she saw her daughter waken. But Ruthie was crushed.

"Hey?" Eric said. Ruthie glared at them without a word, she sighed. Annie saw her daughters face and her smile disappeared. An awkward silence stung the air, what do you say to your daughter who has just tried and failed to commit suicide? Finally Annie broke the silence.

"Why?" She asked Ruthie, her daughter averted her eyes, not saying anything. The doctor came in, seeing Ruthie awake he gave a half smile and asked her parents to please step outside to talk to him for a moment. Ruthie was left alone; she stared around the room looking at all the wires in her arm. I don't want to live! I don't! Ruthie felt her face get warm and tears begin to fall. She took in a deep breath and sighed. She didn't understand why all this was happening.

White rooms dance around my eyes
I scream for help and start to cry
Pain cuts to deep for me too feel
I can't cry anymore
I have nothing left inside
So I am left with suicide

Ruthie was released from the hospital; she had no clue what was going to happen with her parents or what they were going to do. She didn't care; she knew she would try again. Ruthie sat on her bed thinking about what to do, she wished Alex had just shot her. Ruthie felt empty and cold inside, but most of all confused. She got up and went into the bathroom she looked at the mirror and stared at her face she wanted to punch it. She watched as tears streamed down her face her brown curly hair seemed dull and lifeless unlike before. Her sparkling green eyes had dulled, and were empty. This wasn't her it was someone else; the phone rang Ruthie went to pick it up.

"Hello?" A familiar voice said.

"Paige?" Ruthie whispered.

"Ruthie, um I heard about what happened" Paige said. "I am sorry I didn't do anything to help…" She trailed off silently.

"It's not your fault" Ruthie sighed, downstairs she heard the doorbell ring; she rolled her eyes ignoring it.

"I know but I didn't help. I just froze" She heard her sniffle. Ruthie started crying. Someone knocked on her door, as it slowly opened. Ruthie dropped the phone, and jumped up. She hugged Paige tightly crying on her shoulder.

"I'm sorry," They both cried. Ruthie felt a sense of relief overcome her, as she felt all her pain subside for the moment as she attached herself to Paige.

My tears flow down my face
All pain disappears without a trace
You save me from myself
My cries for help cease
As you calm me

Ruthie and Paige sat for hours together in silence. Just comforting one another with each other. Finally Ruthie broke the silence.

"Paige…" She gulped. "I should have told you before but at that party we went to last week. I was raped, and I didn't tell anyone because I was afraid" By now she was in tears again. "I told Sean and now he's dead because he was trying to protect me and—"

"It's not your fault," Paige sighed. "Sean loved you that's why he died for you"

"Yeah your right…" She sighed she didn't know if she agreed but she said it anyway. They sat there thinking of Sean crying silently.

Black veil across my face
Tears begin to fall
I watch you sink underground
Never to make another sound
I cry to myself inside
Just like when I watched you die

Ruthie stood silently listening at Sean's funeral, tears glistened in her eyes. She sighed as sobs echoed around her. None of these people really knew him, she caught sight of his mothers face. As it ended she walked outside looking at Sean's grave, She felt a hand on her shoulder. She turned to see Sean's mother.

"Ruthie" She cried.

"I'm sorry about Sean" She managed to whisper, as she gave her a hug.

"Are you okay?" His mother cried. "I heard about everything" Ruthie nodded her head. Receiving another huge hug luckily Paige came over and saved her saying how she was very sorry about Sean. Ruthie bent down again at Sean's grave, remembering him. She had gone to clear out Sean's stuff earlier with his family; She thought back to earlier. How she had sifted through his belongings taking the pictures of the two of them his school things a few other possessions. The one thing that meant the most to her was a picture he had framed of him hugging her it was supposed to be for valentines day. He had had it engraved with I love you. Ruthie had put that up in her room beside the chain she had bought for him. Ruthie closed her eyes and placed the rose on the ground underneath his headstone.

Sean Cameron
October 14th 1988-
February13th 2003
Loved by many

Ruthie got up blowing a kiss towards his grave; She knew he was gone now she had to admit it.

"I'll miss you forever and always" She sighed through tears. "I love you Sean, goodbye"