Right Kind of Wrong

By: Chibi Shi-Chan

Author's Comments: Thank you, everyone, for your comments on this fic especially since it's a repost. I'm really touched at the comments from the ones who already read it, and the new people who want more. Hang in there, I'll catch up to where I was soon enough. I guess this chapter has a bit, just a bit, of Gaara and Naruto, mention of Gaara and Sasuke, and Sasuke and Sakura. But, it's really light, very light, and almost unnoticable since it's so light.

See how I try to save myself? Don't worry, this is still a Sasuke and Naruto fic.

/song lyrics/

But I can't help it

Naruto woke up the next day to the surprising smell of cigarette smoke. Coughing just a bit, Naruto sat up and looked around in confusion. He never woke up to cigarette smoke since Sasuke didn't smoke.

Sasuke... he felt a slight sting in his heart from the thought of Sasuke.

Baby blue eyes explored the room, looking more then a little surprised. If Sasuke's side of the room was dark this was completely pitch black. Even the windows had been covered, blocking out any type of light whatsoever. The only light seemed to be coming from the computer screen, where the owner of the computer was busy using aol instant messenger while smoking a cigarette.

That's when Naruto noticed where he was. For one, this room was a single, made for one person only. And for two... that shaggy red hair sure as hell didn't belong to Sasuke.

"Gaara?" Gaara glanced over at him and simply nodded before he went back to chatting to whomever he was chatting to. "How... did I get here?"

"Last night." Gaara hadn't even looked away from his computer screen. "You ran into me, literally, last night. You said something about a fight with Sasuke and I brought you here." Naruto lowered his head, looking away from Gaara even if Gaara wasn't paying him any attention. He never expected for Gaara to help him out, he expected something along the lines of, "I told you to stay away from him." But here he was, lying in Gaara's bed, smelling cigarettes and listening to Disturbed with him. The volume was really low, most likely because Naruto had been sleeping, but even so he could make out the lyrics to 'Down with the Sickness.'

It seemed to fit Gaara somehow.

"Sasuke... slept with Sakura..." Gaara didn't even stop typing, sipping on a cup of what was probably coffee. Coffee and cigarettes, again it seemed to fit him. "But... he told me that he did it to make me happy, because I could have him to myself."

"Hn. Seems like something he would do." Gaara finally looked at Naruto, his eyes were still lined with that mascara and now Naruto could make out black nail polish on his fingers. His clothes were dark, his pants had buckles all over the place, and the only thing of color on him was the green eyes and red hair. "And it bothers you."

"Of course it does! I didn't want him to hurt Sakura, she'll be crushed. She really likes Sasuke."

"Are you sure about that?" Gaara got up from his computer to sit on the bed with Naruto. Naruto could make out the away message on his computer, something along the lines of, 'I'm not here so leave me the hell alone.' "I mean, what does your Sakura friend know about Sasuke?"

"Well... nothing... really..." Was Gaara defending Sasuke? From class yesterday Naruto thought he would hate him. "But still, she's going to be hurt."

"Funny, you seem to care more about her pain then your own. You like Sasuke too, right?" And wasn't Gaara the one telling him to stay away from him? But here he was, pointing out that Naruto liked him. Well, he could just be pointing it out, it didn't necessarily mean he was taking any sides.

Gaara took another long drag of his cigarette, blowing the smoke up into the air as he laid back in the bed. Naruto looked down at him, his eyes looking a bit sad. "Well... yeah but... I didn't know he'd do something like that. And... and he made it sound like I just wanted to sleep with him when I want more than that." Gaara looked up at him, his eyes looking amused.

"More than that? From Sasuke?" Gaara actually laughed. It was the first time Naruto had heard him laugh but it was an almost creepy laugh. "You'd be better off taking the sex." Naruto blushed, then frowned at Gaara.

"I don't want just sex! There is more to him than that!"

"And you know this because...? Oh, right, forgive me, you're his roommate. That's not telling you shit about him, that's telling you that he's an art major with a thing for Linkin Park and Hot Topic." Gods, Gaara was straightforward. Then again, Sasuke was too. They seemed to have quite a bit in common...

What in the world happened to break them up? It had to do something with what Gaara was saying about not being able to get more from Sasuke. He seemed pretty bitter about it, then again at times he didn't because he seemed to be defending Sasuke.

Gaara was very complicated... hadn't that been what Sasuke said yesterday in class?

"It still tells me something..." Despite Gaara's words, Naruto wanted to still try. He wasn't the type to give up so easily. "... and I want to get to know more. I don't want to just sleep with him..."

"Too bad." Gaara shrugged his shoulders and put his cigarette out in the conveniently placed ashtray by his bed. "The sex is good." Naruto blushed again and Gaara only laughed, again, but at least this time it didn't sound creepy. "I thought so, you've never had sex before."

"How the hell do you know that!"

"You blush too much, even people who do it and are the innocent type don't blush as much as you." Naruto stuck his tongue out at Gaara then crossed his arms at his chest. Gaara just stared at him... what a childish act and yet... it was kind of cute on him.

No wonder why Sasuke had taken interest.

"Yeah well, I just haven't found the right one yet."

"Found the right one? Gods, you sound like a romance novel." Gaara sat up and surprisingly turned so he was facing Naruto, his eyes seeming to burn into him. Naruto tried not to stare, staring was pretty rude but he couldn't help it. It was something about Gaara that was kind of captivating, one of those people you couldn't help but look at for as long as you could. "You know..." Gaara leaned closer. "... I think I can understand why Sasuke wants you."

"Wants me? He doesn't want me..."

"... yes he does. He just doesn't want the same thing you want. And trust me, he never will." Naruto winced, that felt like a slap in the face. Never? "So what you should do, is just take what you can get." Gaara leaned even closer, so close that when Naruto backed away he ended up lying on his back in the bed, looking up at Gaara. Gaara smirked down at him before he leaned forward, brushing his lips against Naruto's and taking the other boy by surprise. "It's something I've been doing for a while now, and I've found it quite enjoyable."

"Um..." What the hell was happening to him? Just weeks ago he wasn't accepted in high school, and now in college he found himself falling for a hot roommate who would most likely want only sex, and being pinned down by said hot roommate's ex in his bed! "... I'll... remember that... I need to get to class..." Naruto moved from under Gaara and headed over to the door. "I'll... see you later..." Gaara simply nodded to him, just sitting there as if he had done nothing at all. Naruto left the room rather quickly, he had to grab his books from his room before he went to class and by now Sasuke would be gone.

And Gaara just laid back in his bed, pulling out another cigarette.

Naruto was quite interesting indeed.

Naruto sat at his computer, just staring at his screensaver scroll across his screen. He had been lying when he said he had to get to class, because frankly he wasn't going to any class but his writing one. He didn't feel like dealing with any of his other classes, and fortunately the art class he just had to have because of Sasuke wasn't meeting today.

Thankfully, Sasuke was gone, already starting his day. Sasuke would never miss class for anything, so Naruto knew the room would be his.

It felt so empty, it had never really felt empty before even when Sasuke was gone. Maybe it was because he knew that soon, Sasuke would return, and the two of them would fall into their pattern of talking about classes and eating college food. Naruto chuckled a bit, Sasuke was secretly addicted to easy mac.

Gaara was wrong, he did know things about Sasuke. They weren't very big things, but it was more then he knew about anyone else in his life.

Gaara... the boy was certainly an enigma. Naruto couldn't tell if he wanted Sasuke or hated Sasuke, and today... Naruto could still feel the boy's lips. Even from that small brush of lips he could tell that the boy tasted like cigarettes, coffee, and perhaps his own unique flavor because Naruto hated cigarettes and coffee but for some reason tasting it that time didn't bother him. Did Gaara want him? Naruto couldn't tell, from his attitude it could either be that he did want him, that he was just messing with his head, that he wanted to get back at Sasuke, or he wanted to show him the only thing Sasuke was willing to give.

Naruto sighed softly in frustration and moved his mouse around to make his screensaver disappear. This was all too much to take in! All he wanted to do was go to school and prove to everyone back at home that he wasn't worthless, that there was more to him then that stupid prankster they all made him out to be. But now...

... taking a deep breath Naruto clicked on his internet explorer icon and typed in the link to his live journal page.

It was time to vent.

Only one person had access to his live journal, which wasn't a surprise at all. Iruka was the one who suggested it to him, and for a long time it had been a page of ranting about what people thought about him and how he was going to prove them wrong.

For the first time, it would be more than that.

10:02 am - Confused

So I haven't really updated in a while, because I haven't really had any tales of anyone not giving me a chance here in college. In fact, things were going pretty well.

That's right, were.

I know I already told all of this to the only person who reads this page, but I feel like I need to get it all out to express how confused... and maybe a bit upset... I am. I came here and saw Sakura again, which was a surprise. She lives in the same building as me, and of course, we don't really talk. For some reason, it doesn't bug me anymore. Maybe that's because I have a roommate now, and not just any roommate. His name is Sasuke, and he's a cool person to be around...

... and a nice person to look at.

When Sakura saw him she agreed, to the point of saying she was one of my best friends (insert the little stick your tongue out at the screen icon here). For the most part, from what I could tell, Sasuke was ignoring her.

Now this is the part that Iruka doesn't know about, I haven't gotten a chance to tell him but I'm sure he'll read it here before I get back from class.

The other night Sasuke looked at my drawings and said they were pretty good, which is a major compliment since he is a major artist, and because well... he's Sasuke... you always like compliments from the ones you like. Of course at the time, I didn't know I liked him... but I knew I liked him. Does that make any sense? Anyhow, the next day I went to his art class with him. I met his professor, Kakashi, who has a thing for reading those um... well... the book he reads is called Make-Out Paradise. Even so, he's pretty cool, not as cool as Iruka of course (thumbs up to Iruka with a wide grin).

In class, this was yesterday by the way I should've mentioned that, I met Gaara. Gaara is Sasuke's ex-boyfriend from high school, and damn, he's very complicated. I'll get to that in a minute. But Sasuke, he just started messing with him by using me! It felt good, really good, but at the same time I didn't expect it but even so, I was thinking that maybe he liked me and wanted to, you know, be with me.

I was wrong.

I came home last night and he was in bed with Sakura. But here's the big plot twist. He told me he slept with her for me. FOR me! So she could be out the way because I want him. How cruel is that? But at the same time... I do want him, but not like that! I want to get to know him, really know him, but he doesn't seem to want the same. Especially according to Gaara.

Gaara, he basically said that Sasuke would never let a person get that close, and he told me that I should take what I can get. He says this then almost kisses me! I don't know what he wants in all of this. It all confuses me, Sasuke sleeping with Sakura, Gaara almost kissing me, Sasuke not caring that he slept with Sakura... gods Sasuke was so close to kissing me. Gods I wanted him to do it, but then I want more then that from him, but I want it from him at the same time. Like, I want to do that AFTER I get to know him, maybe even be with him. You know?

Argh, I'm missing class for this shit! So much for proving myself back at home if this keeps up. I am going to go to English tonight though. Professor Zabuza is giving us free writing time while Haku (his student teacher, my god he looks like a girl he's prettier then Sakura!) just walks around and helps us out. It should be fun. Professor Zabuza comes off as this big tough guy, but deep down I think he's a softy, especially for Haku (big goofy grin here).

current mood: confused as all hell

current music: that stupid fight music from FF7, it's addictive

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"But you can't help what?" Naruto jumped in surprise, looking up to see the kind smile of Haku. Gods, the boy was so pretty! He had to be their age, maybe a year older. His long black hair was currently up in a high ponytail, but it was still long enough to brush against his back. The first day of class everyone thought he was a girl with his fair skin, his pretty dark eyes and full lips. To the entire class' surprise, Haku was a boy, but neither he or Professor Zabuza seemed surprised at the mistake.

Zabuza was the complete opposite of Haku. He was a big man who looked like he could lift a car over his head. A teacher is the last thing he looked like he could be, but during the past couple of weeks everyone in the class learned that there was much more to him. In fact, he was an excellent teacher, but it was mostly Haku who got close to the students while the professor just gave them tips on writing and their assignments. It was probably because Haku was in the same age group, that and there was just a warmth around Haku that could make anyone feel at home. The students even saw it in Professor Zabuza's eyes, the hard exterior cracked anytime Haku smiled at him, talked to him, hell even looked at him.

There was the nice little rumor in the classroom that they had more then a working relationship, and anytime it was brought up Haku would just blush while Professor Zabuza would just tell the class to stop.

But Naruto would at times notice a light blush on the teacher's face as well.

"Help... what?" Naruto blinked and Haku just giggled, pointing to Naruto's notebook. "Oh... that... um I guess I spaced out. Um..."

/but i can't help it if i'm helpless/

"Helpless?" Haku sat down next to Naruto, frowning a bit. "Helpless against what?"

"Oh... um... I-I think my writing is getting kind of personal now..."

"It must be, you usually write about fighting, or demons, or mystical realms. This almost sounds like romance." Haku smiled knowingly at Naruto. Naruto's eyes widened and he quickly shut his notebook, pressing it against his chest.

"Come on, Haku, you know me. Romance?" Naruto made a face. "That's not my style."

"Perhaps... it is in your life currently then? We write what we're going through sometimes." Damn Haku for being so perceptive.

"Um... ye-yeah I guess you could say that." Naruto smiled a bit nervously. "In fact it has me kind of confused but, it's no big deal." Haku simply nodded, but that damn warmth Haku had seemed to seep into Naruto, pushing him to continue. "Actually it's kind of a big deal... um... it's kind of hard to explain..."

"Naruto, you don't have to tell me anything..."

"... I know I know but, I just... I guess I need someone to know who is here and not miles away. But... um... here." Naruto turned to a blank page of paper and wrote down the address to his live journal page, handing it to Haku. "It's all in there, but you don't have to read it... but please read it? I mean... you don't..."

"Naruto, calm down." Haku smiled at him, folding up the piece of paper and slipping it into his pocket. "I'll read it. I'm kind of curious to know what's the inspiration to this new work of yours. I have a feeling it'll be your best story yet." Haku actually winked at him, before he stood up and walked back around to talk to the students again. Naruto just stared at him for a moment, smiling just a bit. Haku just had that ability of cheering everyone up. If the rumor about Professor Zabuza and Haku was true... the professor was a lucky guy.

Instead of going back to his room, Naruto went to the computer lab after class was over. He wasn't quite ready to face Sasuke again, and he wasn't sure if he wanted to go to Gaara's room and bother him. So instead he sat in the lab, surfing the web for no other reason then to kill time. A normal activity he would usually do in his room, but Sasuke was in his room...

... he had to go back sometime, didn't he?

Naruto frowned at the computer screen before he decided to check his email. He'd do that then go back, besides, after checking email there was nothing else for him to do on the computer.

To his surprise, he had two messages in his mailbox, two responses to his live journal. He was use to getting at least one message that pertained to his journal, but not two. Then his eyes widened in realization, Haku had actually commented on what he wrote. With a tiny smile Naruto read both of his messages.

Re: Confused

It appears that you have quite the busy life up there at school. And here you were worried about having no friends, and now you have two guys wanting you (thumbs up, just kidding).

Naruto, I probably should've told you this before you left but, sometimes you get your best lessons outside the classroom. College isn't just about learning your subjects, but learning about people and life. Someone once told me, that if you go to college and leave as the same person you were when you came in, you have learned nothing. Remember that.

As for your situation, well, stick to what you want. You want to get to know this guy, then get to know him. Although from what you say he seems like an ass, but also, from what you said the Gaara kid told you it just seems like he doesn't open up to anyone very easily, if at all. I think you're making progress, even if it is a little. If you really like this boy you're probably going to have to work at it, but that's the case with the ones you want the most. Keep me updated on what's going on with your little hot roommate situation. You know I'm always here to talk.

Iruka

P.S. - I better not catch you talking about other professors you're starting to like, I'm the only one! (just kidding)

That is quite the story, Naruto, that you have going in your life. You might not know it, but fiction can resemble real life in many, many ways. I cannot wait to see how this story turns out, and I hope it, and you, have a happy ending.

Yeah, from what you say I think you do have your work cut out ahead of you with Sasuke. But you have to ask yourself if it's worth it. It won't be easy, nothing that's worth this much is ever easy. But trust me when I say, that if it really is worth it, then the struggles you go through is nothing compared to what you'll gain in the end.

Haku

P.S. - Did you think of what comes next in the words you wrote in your notebook?

Naruto smiled at the computer screen, making sure to keep the messages and not delete them. He wanted to respond to them, but later. Right now, he had something to do. Logging off the computer and throwing any books he had into his book bag, Naruto took off to go back to his room. It was pretty late at night since he stayed in the lab for a while. It was possible that Sasuke was asleep since Naruto remembered that he had early classes the next day, or he could be awake drawing something in his sketchpad like he always did before bed.

It didn't matter to him at the moment. He wasn't going to stay at the room for long anyway. He'd hate to bug Gaara again, but Naruto just had to do this to see... to know... if it was worth it or not.

Standing in front of the door Naruto took a deep breath and taped a piece of paper to the door. Then he knocked, knocked as loudly as he could just in case if Sasuke was asleep. He could hear Sasuke muttering a few curse words and death threats, and Naruto took that cue to leave.

Sasuke threw the door open angrily, obviously sleeping, then looked even more pissed off when he realized that no one was at the door. He barely noticed the piece of paper taped to the door since he was very close to just slamming it shut, but somehow his eyes spotted it before he closed his door.

"But I can't help it if I'm helpless..."

/every time that i'm where you are/

Sasuke blinked, then blinked again. What in the world was...

... Sasuke's eyes widened when he realized who's handwriting was on the paper. Naruto? Naruto wrote this? To him? Sasuke plopped down in his bed, reading over the simple sentences over again. Just two sentences, and yet he couldn't stop rereading them.

Helpless? Every time?

Sasuke folded up the piece of paper and set it on his desk, before curling back up in his bed to sleep. So, was that how Naruto felt?

Perhaps, it was time for Sasuke to admit his own feelings, and show them to Naruto.

And the song continues on.

TBC

Author's Comments: The funniest things to do in this chapter? Naruto's live journal, Professor Zabuza (that just sounds funny in my head) and Gaara's personality. Now I really hope I got him right since I haven't seen much of him at all. As for Zabuza and Haku, expect to see more of them. And Gaara too, because to be honest I don't know what the hell he wants in all of this. He's so complicated that the fic author is confused. Thanks, Gaara.