I know guys, I'm horrible! I should've updated sooner...it's just that the school musical (How to Succeed in Business Without Really Trying) is this weekend and the weeks leading up to this point have been hell, so I haven't been much in the writing mood
This is possibly the last chapter of this (I want it to be, but if you don't like my ending make sure to read my end note), so I hope you enjoy it...savor it, even. And don't forget to read my other HP/SS stories if you're a fan of this one. Thanks!
Warning!: To cover my own butt, I will give you a warning that there is mild sexual content in this chapter. It is not bad enough to be R, in my honest opinion, so this rating still remains PG-13. If you believe it deserves to be R, please kindly inform me in a review. You can't say I didn't warn you about the scene
As he steps inside, I lead him to the chair and couch next to the fireplace. I place myself in my chair, and he silently takes the couch
We sit there merely staring at each other for a few minutes before he speaks up, "Severus...I don't understand..."
"I don't either..." I admit, "If you sent it three years ago, then why didn't I receive it that night?"
"I sent you a lot of letters that night, if you recall, so maybe you just...forgot about it?"
"I read every single letter that arrived onto my desk that night...I don't know how I missed it"
"Did you push it off the desk somehow? How'd you even find it today?"
"Albus ordered a house elf to clean my rooms, and it found it and gave it...to...oooh," I trail off, the piece's fitting together finally
"'Oooh' what? You did push it off, didn't you?"
"I must have. I'm sorry, Harry"
He smiles at that, and my stomach does a flip
"Would you have responded...if you had found it that night?" He asks, nervous once more
"I...I'm not sure...I probably would have, telling you something like 'You're too young to know what love is, but if, after being out in the world for five years, you still have feelings for me, come back and we'll have dinner or something'"
"But I've been out in the world for three years now...I know what it's like, and I know it'd be a lot easier to handle everything if you were by my side. I know I'm putting a lot at stake here, but I don't want to pretend that those words don't still stand true"
"You still feel that way?"
"Yes...God help me, but I do"
I look away from him, to the floor, and don't respond to his statement. I know I have feelings for him...I've known for a while...but is it love? It eerily feels like it...or what I think it should feel like
"Harry, I'm not exactly sure how I feel about you. I know I care immensely for you, but I'm not quite certain that it's love," I admit, telling him the truth while looking him in the eye
He nods slightly, "I don't want to rush you into anything, and if you don't know, that's perfectly fine. However, that doesn't stop my feelings, so if you would prefer that we take things slow until you figure out how you really feel, I can do that"
"I would like that very much," I say sincerely, my stomach flipping again as I witness life come back to the boys' eyes
"So you really...this is really...wow," he stutters, and I can't help but smile (I do know how, contrary to popular belief)
He notices the smile, his eyes transfixed on my mouth. I become self-conscious and close my lips over my teeth once more, and I notice him lick his lips. Suddenly mine are dry as well (why does that always happen?) and so I lick mine as well, quicker than he licked his, though
After I do that, I don't know how long it takes him to get over to me, but here he is, straddling my legs as I sit in my chair. I find myself looking up into his eyes, and it is an odd change for me, so I grab his hips and lower him so he's sitting on my legs instead of hovering above them, so I can now look almost directly into them. His arms go about my neck as I watch his eyes slowly come closer to mine
When our lips connect, I feel something deep within me that I've never felt from merely kissing someone before. It doesn't take long for the kiss to become deeper, our bodies pulled closer together by the heat of it. I feel as though I'm burning his hips where I hold them with my hands because they are so warm...but perhaps it is him burning me
When we break for air, I feel his panting breath on my left ear as he nuzzles my cheek, and I hear him whisper, "So long...waited so long..."
I tighten my grip on him at that, my arms wrapping around his waist instead of holding his hips. I feel his hardness press into my own and I hear him gasp shakily into my ear before pulling back, "It's just..." he looks embarrassed, "I waited so long for that...oh god...please don't be disgusted with me," he pleads
"Shh, Harry," I bring my right hand up to his cheek gently, and he leans into the touch, making me smile, "I'm hardly disgusted with you for that. Especially when I'm much in the same state as you," I say as I put pressure on his lower back to keep him in place as I raise my hips, causing us both to moan
"We don't have to...we can stop..." he breathes out heavily, eyes half lidded from that one movement
I shake my head with eyes closed, "No...you're not the only one who's waited a long time...so long I've wondered what it'd be like to have your body under mine, writhing as I mapped out your body"
Harry whimpers, pressing his body closer to mine, his arms tightening around my neck as he rubs against me while nuzzling my left cheek again
An agreement is made through grunts, moans and sighs that it's ok to be animalistic right now, for we will have plenty of time to take things slower. We continue to rub against each other, and all though I feel like a teenager with high hormones again, I can't help but lose control around him
Neither of us lasts long at all, rubbing and moaning. It's his mewl and soft call of my name as he climaxes that pushes me over the edge, both of us coming in our pants...disgusting, really
As we sit there panting, I mutter the cleansing charm to dry us both off before pulling him closer, savoring the feel of the younger man in my arms at last
"Don't let him throw you off, Dear. I think, deep down, he really likes you"
The words are said in a mimicking voice out of no where...or at least no where that I can see
"What?" I ask, pushing Harry back a little to look at his face
"Minerva...it's what she said to me in the hall earlier"
It takes me a moment to remember the incident, but I finally get it, "That's what was so humorous?" Doesn't sound funny to me
He smiles broadly, "It was funny 'cause I was thinking the same thing...plus we weren't really laughing, per say...it was more of a shared knowledge thing"
"I see..." I say, though I really don't, "Well thanks for telling me"
"Of course...I said I would"
There's silence for a couple minutes, though it's not as awkward as one would think. Harry's head is resting on my left shoulder, and my own head is resting on his head
"Tell me this'll last," He practically begs quietly into my ear
I pull him closer, "As long as you want it to, it will"
"What if I want you forever?" He asks, pulling back
I'm shocked by the question, and he seems to be scared of my answer, "Why you would want me that long is beyond me. However, as much as I would love to be with you forever, I think it would be wise for us to take things a day at a time...that way there's no pressure to stay together if one wants out"
His face falls, his brow creasing, "I won't ever want out...didn't you feel what happened when we kissed? Severus...let me perform a spell on us"
I look at him skeptically, "What kind of spell?"
"A soul mate spell. I found it in a dark arts book. After finding it, I read up on soul mates and I know the signs...will you let me check?"
The prospect of us being soul mates frightens me...but the chance that we may not be scares me even more. I nod my head anyway, giving my permission
He pulls his wand out of his back pocket and mumbles a spell, but nothing happens at first except for him glowing a soft green
"If you start to glow white, and mine changes from green to white, we will know that we're soul mates. It takes only about a minute for it to search the person out"
Waiting the torturous minute is incredibly hard to do. My heart is pounding forcefully inside my ribcage as I simply sit here
A warm feeling flows through me, and I look down at myself to see a white glow radiating off me. I look at Harry, still glowing green, and my heart physically hurts
He sees this and says quietly, "Wait, Severus"
I do, and I watch as about ten seconds later he begins to glow white, my heart lifting at the sight, "See, that wasn't so bad was it? At least we're sure now," Harry smiles, releasing a breath I didn't know he'd been holding
"Because we're soul mates, that means we're meant to be together...and that we love each other...and always will...and you'll never leave?" I'm uncertain about the whole thing, sure
"Yes, Severus...I will never leave you, nor will I ever stop loving you"
I smile and lean up to capture his lips again in a possessive kiss. I know I love him, and I can admit that now...I love The Boy Who Lived, and he loves me, and that's all that possibly matters in the world right now
The kiss ends, same as the spell, and we're simply left in our position of him sitting on my legs. His face is in the crook of my neck...a place that feels completely natural to be filled by his head, and I can feel his lips softly brush against the sensitive skin
"I love you, Severus"
"I love you too, Harry"
"Are you sure you're ok with all this?" He pulls back, looking into my eyes
I smile gently, "Yes. In fact, I think I could get quite used to this"
He returns my smile before burrowing back into my neck. I think he'll be spending quite a large amount of time there, so I do hope it's comfortable. We have forever to simply stay in this position if we really want to. For now, though, I'm content with simply thinking about now, taking it minute by incredible minute. I have all my life to prove to him how much I love him...maybe one day I'll even send a letter...
Do you want that to be the end? Cuz I was thinking it would be...it works. If you DO NOT WANT ME TO STOP HERE you will need to give me some ideas for what you want to happen...cuz I'm blanking on anything. Not to mention I have about...three other stories that need to be worked on at the same time, which is another reason I wanted to just end this one, lol
Please tell me what you thought, and leave any suggestions for a continuation if you really want one cuz you're so unhappy with my ending
Sorry again for the long wait! I'm horrible :hangs head in shame: