Fallen

Heaven bend to take my hand

And lead me through the fire

Be the long awaited answer

Heero stumbled into the safehouse and sunk to his knees. He couldn't believe it…

To a long and painful fight

He refused to believe it.

Truth be told I tried my best

But somewhere along the way

I got caught up in all there was to offer

The mission had been completed

And the cost was so much more than I could bear

But for the first time in his life, he didn't care

And I've fallen

I have sunk so low

And he wished with all his heart that things had turned out differently

I messed up

Better I should know

They were dead. All of them dead…except him. The only people he'd trusted. The only people he'd called friends.

So don't come round here

And tell me I told you so

The closest thing to a family he'd ever had

We all begin with good intent

When love was raw and young

And though he hated to admit it, he would miss them all so much.

We believe that we can change ourselves

The past can be undone

He would miss Duo's energy and his optimism that never failed to brighten anyone. They had all needed that.

But we carry on our back the burden

He would miss Trowa's companionable silence and the way he never judged people. But he had also owed Trowa his life.

Time always reveals

In the lonely light of morning

He would miss Quatre's innocence and his care for every living creature no matter how small. An angel even on the battlefield.

In the wound that would not heal

He would miss Wufei's determination and the way he held on to the ideals of his late wife. He had also been intelligent.

It's the bitter taste of losing everything

That I've held so dear

All taken away from him

And I've fallen

I have sunk so low

Now Heero sat in his gundam. He couldn't fight for the colonies alone.

I messed up, better I should know.

He knew Doctor J could send him reinforcements. But he couldn't fight with anyone else.

So don't come round here

And tell me I told you so

And right before he pressed the button…

Heaven bend to take my hand

He allowed one single tear to fall

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