Chapter 3.
"...Has..."
Two weeks after Neo left the hospital a painful memory returned to the city. An unknown ship wanted to enter gate 4. The control tower tried to make a contact with it, but there was no response. After a while they recognized the ship and opened gate number 4. The Logos finally docked to Zion. It was home again.
Neo saw the ship. He trew his work aside and ran to it. Unfortunatelly he was stopped by three soldiers, who dragged him away from the Logos.
-„I'm sorry Sir. You can't enter this ship. It can be dangerous. We don't know what's inside."- one of the man tried to calm Neo down.
Than Morpheus came.
-„What's going on?"- he asked. He saw Neo, who was held by the three men. He ran to him and ordered to let him go. „Neo, do you know what's going on? You said the Logos crushed!"
-„Yes, it was badly damaged. I left it after...Ow my God...Trinity!"- Neo shouted. „I left her there. Maybe she's alive?" He said with a hope in his voice. At the same time he was mad at himself. How could he leave her there? Maybe she didn't die? Maybe the machines healed her, just like they healed his eyes?
Neo tried to enter the ship but Morpheus stopped him. He knew something wasn't right. It scared him. Instead a group of soldiers opened the Logos's door. Neo could only stand and call „Trinity!"
After a few minuted the soldiers came out from the ship. The last one was carrying something...someone. Short black hair, pale skin, thorn clothes and peaces of metal sticking from the body.
Neo stood in disbelief. He stepped back, his mouth opened. He felt himslef going weaker. Suddenly he fell to his knees. Tears started to fall from his eyes. It was Trinity's body, his Trinity... He started to sob quietly and repeat her name. Morpheus stood still and watched as her body was carried to the place where only dead belonged.
Neo could no longer stay like this. He stood up and ran after the soldiers. He followed them to a small room, where the bodies were being identified. When he entered, the soldiers were standing around a table, where she was lying. One man recognized Neo and the woman's body. He told the others to leave the room and close the door. When the room was empty, Neo stepped to Trinity's dead form, knelt by her side, took her hand in his and kissed it. Than he rose his head a little to look on her face. It was so calm and peaceful. It looked like if she was dreaming a beautiful dream. He wanted to join her dream. But now he could only watch his tears as they were falling on her body. The metal wires were still in her body. They have been shortened by the soldiers. But they didn't take them out. Her mouth was slightly opened, like if she had just kissed him. Her hair was in a mess. Her skin was still so delicate, but cold and lifeless. Neo's heart was broken, his mind was lost. His eyes became more black than before. He knew she will never come back to him. He will never be there for her again. No more lovely nights, no more friendly conversations, no more feelings, only death.
When Morpheus entered the room, he saw Neo by Trinity's side. He had seen them like this many times. When Trinity got hurt, Neo was blaming himself for her pain. He would always stand like this and guard her. Morpheus walked closer. The sight of her made him make a single sob. She was just like a daughter for him. But now she was gone. Her „father" was sad. Her trip was over. Her time was done. „The Logos flew here thanks to autopilot. Machines had fixed the ship."- he said before turning silent.
They didn't know how long were they standing above Trinity's body. The time wasn't important for them right now. They didn't care at all.
Every Zionist came for the funeral. Everybody where crying over her body. She was a hero for these people. She helped The One end the war. She made a sacrifize. Only Neo wasn't at her funeral. He couldn't go there. It was too much for him. He could only lie on the bed, toss from side to side, trying to comfort his heart „Everything that has a beggining, has an end, huh Oracle? Does it means I can't love her anymore? Did my love die?". His eyes were red, his skin almost white. He wanted to be by her site, hold her, listen to the beating of her heart, watch her breathing. She was the only sense of his life. Without her he was a shadow of a human, a lonely, poor and cold guy. Without her, he ment nothing.
Neo could hear the prayers. He could hear the cries. They were painful. He no longer wanted to listen to them. He closed his eyes and tried to remind himself the most gorgeus moments spent with her. The meeting in the club, her breath on his neck, her love confession to him and her kiss, which brought him back to life. There was still so many memories. He could hear her saying these three wonderful words „I love you". She rarely liked to show her true feelings. But it was different when she was next to him. He knew her like nobody else. She wasn't afraid to cry or laugh in his presence. She would always make him feel better, more important and loved. But never again...
The days flew away. Zion was growing in strenght. With the help of machines it was soon rebuilt. New families where created, new children were born. Morpheus became the captain of a new ship, named "Quetzalcoatlus". And Neo...
After Trinity's funeral he changed. He became cold, closed and mysterious. You could say he didn't have any feelings. Or at least he didn't show them. He didn't feel compassion or joy. He didn't speak to anyone. And everybody were scared of his sight - the look of his empty black eyes.
Only at night, when nobody could see or hear him, he could let go his pain. He cried like a little child, wishing his Angel was here. He could cry for the whole night. He was afraid of the dreams, of the darkness and of of Zion's cold, metal walls.
He was also hiding one secret. Sometimes, when his heart was hurting, he was spitting with blood. But he never took his medicine. The bleedings were getting more and more often. Sometimes it happened during the meal. He had to walk hurry to the bathroom, so nobody would see him, and clean the blood from his mouth. Sometimes the soreness of his heart was so big, that he fainted. He was found once or twice on the floor, unconscious, in a small pool of blood. But no matter what people were saying, he never listened to them and never took his medicine.
He didn't want to eat, but he was forced to. He didn't eat a lot, only small rations so the doctors were sure he won't die from starving. Sometimes he hid his food. But when THEY discovered that he haven't eaten his food, it was given to him with an injection. The needle was placed in his body even when he was struggling and tugging. He could fight and kick their medical asses, but the solution of the goof was always sent inside of him.
He didn't visit Trinity's grave often. He was there 5 or 6 times. And it was because of his reaction on this place. He started to bleed and faint. That's why he was always in a company of at least two people, who would drag him out of the cemetery.
The Matrix wasn't as dangerous as once, although the agents where still there, ready to attack those, who entered it. They were only afraid of Neo. The One could stop them using only his mind. He didn't have to dodge the bullets or even fight. But sometimes he fought to free his agression and hate. Morpheus had to look after him. He was afraid that one day Neo will start to attack innocent people in his anger. He also knew that some day Neo won't use his abilities and try to kill himself.
There was once a fight between 4 agents and Neo. The agents wanted to run away but The One was stopping them. And when one of the agents took out his gun, Neo stood in front of him on the shot line. He took off his sunglasses, lowered his arms and waited for the bullet. But when the agent finally started to shoot, Morpheus run up to Neo and pushed him away from the fire. The agents used the situation and vanished.
-„What the hell were you doing Neo !"- Morpheus shouted. „You think death will solve your problems!"
-„Non of your buisness, Morpheus. You've got Niobe. Value that..." – and Neo walked away, calling Link for an exit.