The last chapter, the last child of this story...

Chapter 4.

„...An End..."

A year passed away. During it everybody had to look after Neo, who was trying to commit suicide. First he cut his veins, but Kid found him just in time. Than he swallowed 30 pills of a strong medicine, but he woke up in the hospital. He was shot several times in the Matrix but never as seriously to cause death. And when he was trying to jump from Zion's highest floor, someone was always stopping and dragging him away from the balcony. Nobody knew what will he do next.

It was exactly 12 months after the Logos docked to Zion with Trinity's body on it's board. Neo was tired of his life. He didn't want anybody's help or compassion. Although a year passed, he couldn't rid off the feeling of love to her. He couldn't let go. He was once wondering is love only a chemistry, a dance of the hormons, or is it something deeper, something more serious? Now he knew the answer. Love is something above our knowledge. It's a pure beauty, a work of art. You can't describe it or understand it. You have to feel it by yourself. Love isn't about sex. It is about each others presence and warmth. It is about trust, honesty and responsibility. It is about two lonely souls, which create one perfect light. If one of them dies, the other will also die.

It was night already. Neo was lying on his bed. He was thinking about her. Every night he was thinking about her. He was trying to remember her smell, her voice and her touch. He was wondering how it would be like to marry her, have children, get old together and die in the same bed. He was also wondering, did she forget about him. Could she hear him now? „I love you Trinity..." he whispered. „I love you and I can't live without you...Please, help me die..."Than he sat down on the bed and started to stair at the darkness of his surrounding. A thought hit him „God, why haven't I thought about it earlier?" He stood up and opened the door. He walked out and locked them behind him as quietly as it was possible. Then he headed downstairs. He turned into a dark corridor. There was a large magazine of old guns at the end of it. It wasn't guarded by anyone. The war ended long ago and nobody needed to use it. He stepped in and looked around. The weapons were mainly electric and caused only deep burnings. He was looking for something different. Finally he found a small gun loaded on bullets. He picked up some ammunition and headed to one special place – the graveyard. He stood above Trinity's grave, this time without any tears or worries. „Soon, my love..." and he returned to his quarter.

He sat down by his desk, lighted a candle and pulled a peace of paper. But what was he supposed to write? A goodbye letter? A testament? After a moment of thinking he finally found the right words. He wrote down „Not everything has an end..." He needn't add anything else. He loaded the gun and rose it to his head. He closed his eyes and breathed deeply. Than he opened them again. A small smile appeared on his face. His black eyes brightened a little. His voice was calm. He whispered „Trinity..."He was happy again. He knew nobody could stop him now. Soon the pain would be gone and his heart would be healed. He whispered „Trinity..." once more, before his eyes closed...forever...

Morpheus was in bed, lying next to Niobe, holding her close to him. He was observing her sleeping form. And when he started to driff into a sleep too, he heard a loud, short sound. Than everything went silent. A fear covered his mind. Niobe woke up.

-„What was it Morpheus?"

-„I don't know. But I'm sure it's nothing good..."

Link was working on the computer in his room when he heard the sound of a shot, comming from one of the quarters. Zee ran to him as fast as she could. „Did you hear that?"- she asked.

-„What could that be? It's the middle of the night. Everybody is probably asleep."

-„It sounded like a shot."- Zee added.

-„Wait, people are sleeping, we live in peace with the machines..."- he stopped there and thought hard. „You said it was a shot?"

-„Yes, I'm sure of it..."

Link's eyes widened. He had a bad feeling.

Ghost couldn't sleep. Kid was keeping him company. They were walking near the quarters, when they heard the shot.

-„What was that?"- Ghost asked.

-„I'm not sure. It came from that door."

-„Kid, that's Trin...I mean Neo's room! Go for Mopheus!" And so Kid did.

Everybody knew that something wrong happened and they were sure it had a connexion with Neo.. But they didn't know it was too late. It was over. There was no need to hurry. At least that's what Neo would say right now. He made the choice. He decided to follow his heart...

He woke up and tried to open his eyes but the light was burning them again. He still felt uncomfortable and strangely. He still could feel the pain in his heart. Where was he? „Ow my God, not the hospital!.."- it was his first thought."No, please, no, no,no...I don't want to live! I don't want to come back!"

He could feel he wasn't lying on a bed. He was somewhere on the floor, cold and lonely. He started to talk to himself:

-„God...Why? Why me? Why are you doing this to me? I shot myself! I suppose to be dead...DEAD, NOT ALIVE! But, who cares...I'm the One...I'm the stupid, freakin', fuckin' ONE! But not without her...Without her I'm nobody, I'm nothing...So what now? Am I still ment to cry every night and try to commit suicide? No problem ! I will kill myself every hour, till I'll wake up, feeling her touch on my skin. I don't want enybody else! Not Morpheus! Not Link or Niobe! Only her...My little Angel...- tears started to roll down his face.- Leave me ! I don't want your help ! I don't want to live ! Can anybody hear me !" - He rolled on his left side. He didn't yell anymore, only whispered –„Let me die, ow please let me die..."- sobs started to come from his mouth, his breathing was getting faster. He folded his arms near his head and hid his eyes from the burning light.-„Trinity, where are you? Come and take me with you...Don't you love me anymore?...Did you let go?...Please don't leave me...Help me die, my darling...Help me die..."

He was lying on the cold floor without making any move. Why didn't anybody come to him? Was he in the Zion's hospital or somewhere else? There was too many questions and no answers. He curled. Quiet sobs of crying were leaving his gripped teeth. Now he really didn't know what to do. He couldn't die, he couldn't calm down himself. He could only whispered her name over and over again, just like a left child who is calling his mother. Only this time it was a calling from a grown man, a calling for help. He felt rejected, lonely, empty and meanless. Pain and love were dancing in his heart. He knew that love cannot exist without pain. He knew that true love is a feeling which cannot die. Somehow he was happy that he found his true love. „I found you and I lost you..." - That's why he was suffering.

He could still hear her voice. It was so soft and warm. He was the only person she would speak like this to. For the others she was hard, icy and distant. But not for him. Her words were playing in his ears. He wanted to lay like this for the rest of his life and listen to her voice. It was so clear, so...real. She was calling him, calling his name. It was like a cure for his soul. But than...„Neo !"It was so loud now that it scared him. He was almost terrified. „Neo!" God, so beautiful. But it hurt like hell.

„NEO !"

He opened his eyes and pulled up his torso with his arms. He turned his head right a little and lifted his face. Nothing...He was surrounded by nothing. The brightness was all around him. But the space was empty. Where was he? Was it another nightmare? He lowered his head and closed his eyes tightly.

„NEO !"

„No, it can't be. I don't want to see you. If I open my eyes, you will die, you will disappear. It's always like this. You're back and gone again. Please stop! Please..." he shook his head, trying to get rid off his thoughts.

-„Neo?..."

It was like a whisper, but it made him stand up. He didn't turn directly to the voice. His head was still lowered down. His eyes were still closed. He was too scared to open them.

-„Trinity?..."- he finally whispered but didn't dare to look.

-„Neo..."- came the answer.

He finally opened his eyes and slowly looked in the direction of the figure. It was her. She was standing there, in front of him, dressed in her Matrix coat, Trinity, his Trinity...

For a moment he stood in silence, sure and afraid that she will vanish like a dream. But she was still there, few meters away from him, but still too far. He shook his head a little, than turned and ran to her. She did the same. They fell into each other's arms. Neo burried his face in her shoulder and started to cry quietly. She hugged her forehead to his neck and let her tears fall down on his skin.

-„Please don't go, please don't go..."- he whispered.

They couldn't stand any longer. Their legs were getting weaker. Suddenly they both collapsed on their knees but still held each other. They didn't let go.

-„Tell me you're real...Tell me you will stay..."- she started to speak. It was almost like a prayer.

Finally they pulled back and looked into each other's eyes. She could see as his dead, cold, black eyes go away. Instead, warm and beautiful brown filled the emptiness. She met them with her own, blue ones, which were like an ocean during the storm, so deep and clear. He moved his face closer and half-closed his eyelids. Their breaths met. Their lips were millimeters away. She pulled closer, their mouths touched softly. First they made a fast, small kiss. But the next one was deeper. Neo finally depended the kiss, drinking her taste. She was so sweet and delicate. He didn't want to stop. His left hand moved to her cheek. Her hands held the back of his head and ran through his hair. Their lips were playing, tounges were dancing. They could taste their salty tears and growing desire. But they had to pull back, unable to hold their breath anymore. They connected their foreheads and looked at each other.

-„Why did you do that, Neo?"- she finally asked. Her tone was very sad, but soft and warm.

He knew she was asking about his suicide. He smiled, tickled her cheek with his fingers, trying to take her worried away and said the only words she needed to hear:

-„Because I love you..."