RockMan Zero
Makenai Ai ga Kitto Aru
Saiko Ninja
It's taken some time, but I've finally had the time complete the third chapter of "Makenai Ai ga Kitto Aru". I'm sorry for those who've been waiting for the upcoming chapters, but I've been busy. I hope that you still will keep coming back however to keep checking if there are any other updates. Anyways, I'll cut it short at that and I'll leave you to reading.
Note: I suppose that you probably are wondering what the title translates to. The title "Makenai Ai ga Kitto Aru" literally translates to "Unbeatable Love, Surely I have". One more thing, I might be branching a bit off now from the main story, as I just needed somewhere to start for my fanfiction. You might already notice some similarities in the previous chapters what with the awakening of Zero, etc.
Disclaimer: "…" You know the drill. Anyways, refer to the previous chapter if you want to be specific with disclaimers and what not. I do however just want to say that I own my character "Souta". That's all. Enjoy…!
Makenai Ai ga Kitto Aru
Chapter: Illusion
"Ngghh… No… I'm sorry… I…"
Zero lay in bed tossing and turning, as he couldn't seem to find solace even in slumber. His breathing was increased in pace, and his body was even perspiring slightly. Before he woke up, an image of Iris lying in his arms dying and stained with blood appeared. It was a sickening sight that almost gave Zero the urge to throw up. However, as he shut his eyes for a moment, when he reopened them again, he found that it wasn't Iris in his arms…
As he tried to collect his thoughts and make out who was the person in his arms, he began to realize that it was none other than Ciel. This time around however, Ciel wasn't smiling, she wasn't even frowning either, rather, she was dying in his arms with the same injury he dealt to Iris.
"No… Ciel…" Zero whispered.
After a short pause trying to take in the image of her dying, he began to shout without abandon. His heart practically twisted with depression and leaped near the edge of chaos.
"CIEL…!"
As soon the dream ended, Zero awoke sitting upright quite quickly. His body was perspiring with cold sweat as his dirty blonde bangs fell over his emerald green eyes. He seemed to be in a state of daze, almost confusion. All the things he saw in his dream, they were so… So real…
"What… Was that…?" Zero asked himself.
Gazing about the small room, Zero heard the nearby music alarm on his radio go off. An all too familiar song began to play; though it was already halfway finished. The song he recalled was something that he and Iris used to listen to a lot. He closed his eyes exhaling slowly letting the slow song play. In a sense, it helped calm him down as he began to sort out his thoughts letting the lyrics resonate through the small room.
What small light that entered the room from the early morning sky, it bathed Zero in it giving him somewhat of a midnight hue across his body. Exhaling once more, he took in the words of the song like it was air. He smiled faintly as he gazed to the side seeing a faint image of Iris beside him, leaning her head on his shoulder. He wanted to hold her, it, close, but he couldn't, as it was just a figment of his imagination.
(Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by)
(As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me)
(You're just an illusion...)
"An illusion…" Zero whispered along with the song.
(When I'm awaken, my tears have dried in the sand of sleep)
(I'm a rose blooming in the desert)
"Zero…" a quiet voice came from the other side of the door.
"…Hm?" Zero responded slightly dazed.
"It's me… Ciel… Are you okay…? Can I come in…?"
"Yeah… Sure…" Zero responded quietly.
Ciel waited for the mechanical doors to slide open and then she stepped in letting the doors close behind her. She seemed a bit tired still, but smiling faintly towards Zero none-the-less. He didn't know how to react so he maintained his dazed expression while listening to the song.
"Are you okay Zero…? I heard you shout so I came to check up on you."
The expression on her face couldn't really be made out with the faint lighting in the room. He gazed to her anyways; his emerald green tinted eyes affixed on her.
"I'm… Fine… I'm alright Ciel…"
(Endless rain… Fall on my heart… kokoro no kizu ni…)
(Let me forget… All of the hate, all of the sorrow…)
Ciel frowned slightly. She knew that there was something wrong. She could read Zero's expression like an open book. Just as Zero was about to gaze at the ground, Ciel cupped his chin gently in her hand and then lifted his face gently to lock gazes. She promised that she would help Zero out in anyway she could and that she would help him regain his memory.
Looking at the way things were now however, that plan would have to be thrown out the window. Even though she told him she could hear him shout, she didn't tell him that she heard him calling out the name "Iris" in his sleep. She didn't know who Iris was exactly, but it might have been someone very important to him…
"You were mumbling someone's name in your sleep Zero, if I can remember well enough, it sounded like 'Iris'". Ciel started.
Zero broke away gently from her gaze and finally got the chance to gaze at the ground. He didn't really know much else about Iris except for her name. He already came to the fact that he already knew this Iris in the past, but he just couldn't seem to grasp the memory of her as a whole. Zero sighed slightly as he listened to the guitar solo of the song…
A momentary pause in their quiet conversation…
"I… She…" Zero started.
"Yes…?" Ciel seemed to look rather eager to listen.
"I only know her name, and I have dreams about her sometimes. That I…" Zero paused.
"That you… That you what, Zero…?"
"I… Killed her…"
(I awake from my dream…)
(I… Can't find my way… Without you…)
Ciel sat there as her expression was as clear as day. She was shocked; she was… The young girl couldn't even speak for a moment or two. Zero began to gaze back up slowly looking to Ciel. He shook his head slightly as his blonde bangs fell over his face for a moment hiding his expression.
"It was a long time ago, I don't really think I want to recall it, nor would you want to hear about it. Things that happened in the past should stay in the past. What matters now is that I'm here in the present. I don't really know what I can do here to help you out, but I'm going to do what I can with everything I have…"
"Zero…" Ciel exclaimed somewhat awestruck.
"Thank you, Zero…" she continued.
The crimson armored warrior ran a hand through his hair as he gazed outside the window in his room. The skies were a midnight hue and the rising sun hidden amongst all the clutter of clouds.
(Endless rain… Let me stay… Ever more in your heart…)
(Let my heart… Take in your tears… Take in your memories…)
(Endless rain… Fall on my heart… kokoro no kizu ni…)
(Let me forget… All of the hate, all of the sorrow…)
The song faded to a hazy finish, the alarm suddenly going off after it had been on for a while. Zero stood up slowly and then stretched for a moment to get his body warmed up. Ciel smiled slightly as she watched him. She was glad that Zero was here. This meant that there was hope yet for the resistance base to pull through escaping the tyranny of Copy X…
Ciel nodded a bit and then began to stand up slowly as she felt a little woozy from sitting down too long. Before she fell back on the mattress, she felt someone catch her into a gentle, friendly embrace. Without even having to think who it was, her face turned a light shade of pink as she looked to see Zero smiling affectionately at her.
"You look like you need something to drink."
She got up slowly and then seemed to express some embarrassment.
"S-Sorry Zero."
"Nothing to worry about." Zero replied, smiling faintly.
"Zero… I don't want to pry back again into your past… But… This girl, Iris… Did you… Ever have feelings that were more than a friend towards her…?"
Zero stood there a moment as he found solace leaning back against the cold wall. He exhaled slowly and then began to gaze to Ciel with a sad, yet sincere expression. Folding his arms across his chest, he found himself eventually looking at the ceiling…
"I did… But… It was all in the past… You might think it awkward, but she still is somewhere in my heart. Just… There… I don't know how to explain it, but she's still there. I suppose I just can't let go of her memory. I feel that it was my fault that it ever happened. That I had to… Well… You know…"
"Yeah…" Ciel sighed.
(So he didlove her…) Ciel thought.
Zero averted his gaze from the ceiling only to find a downcast looking Ciel. He seemed to understand how she felt; a little bit of embarrassment for asking and a little bit of hurt hearing that he had feelings for Iris still.
"It was all in the past, remember that Ciel."
Slowly, he got off from leaning back against the wall and then walked let the doors slide open. He gazed to the side, looking at her from the corner of his emerald green tinted eyes. Smiling slightly, he gave her a thumbs-up sign. It was time that this was all put to rest and that they move on…
"Come on… Let's go and get a drink… I'm sure you'll feel better." Zero suggested.
Looking up to him slowly, Ciel's eyes seemed to water a bit. She was smiling, but a few tears seemed to escape from her lavender tinted eyes. She knew in her heart that Zero could never drop something like that. It was all a façade, a very noticeable one at that. Nodding slightly to Zero, she got up from the bed and then walked ahead of Zero looking back to him with a sincere smile…
"Remember Zero, I'm here for you…!"
Ciel winked cheerfully at the crimson warrior and walked off to get herself a drink in the lounge area. Zero watched her walk off, a gentle smile playing upon his expression. For that brief moment as he watched her walk off, he could have sworn that he saw an after image of Iris form in place of Ciel's.
"And remember Ciel… I'm here for you…"
With that, Zero took his crimson helmet and adorned it on his head. He exhaled slightly to try and release some of the burden that was in his heart. It helped slightly, but it would be a long time before he could actually let go of his past.
End Chapter: Illusion
Hn, pardon the rather corny ending to this chapter (at least I thought so, so don't worry about telling me that it was corny, go right on ahead.. haha)... Anyways, I hope that you've enjoyed reading this chapter and that you'll keep looking forward to the next chapter. I'm not sure how long this will story will keep going, but as long as you're here ready to read the next chapters, then I'll be working just as hard to post up the next chapters.
Apparently, this was one of the chapters I've recently touched-up on and spell-checked. If there are any other things that you've noticed, please don't hesitate to tell me by E-MaiL or AiM. Thank you again for reading and please come again!
Ja matta, minna.
"Memories are nice, but that's all they are…"