Chapter 6
The room was once again, for maybe the 4th time in the hour alone, engulfed in silence. Soon however, the silence was broken; however, it was broken with the most painful sound: the sound of little Nathan quietly crying. Alex looked down in momentary shock while her mind registered that her little son was crying in her lap. Then, in a swift movement, grabbed little Nathan and held him up to her chest, rocking and soothing him.
"Shh…shh…come on Nathan…don't cry on me here…" Alex soothingly whispered into his ear. Little Nathan then looked up into his mother's deep, mesmerizing blue eyes.
"I'm…I'm sorry mommy…" Nathan gulped out in small breaths between his sobbing.
"Shh…Nathan…you don't have to be sorry for anything, you hear me?"
"But…it's 'cause of me that…"
"Don't say a word, you hear me!" Alex exclaimed, shocking the little boy. "It is NOT your fault, for anything! It's all his fault, not yours…you hear?"
"But…"
"But nothing Nathan. It was never, and I mean NEVER your fault…for anything; ok?"
"…ok mommy…"
"Um…sorry to interrupt here Alex…but what's going on?" Marissa asked in a gentle tone.
"God, Marissa, I'm so sorry…now you're involved and I didn't want anyone involved and now….oh god…Nathan…what am I gonna do what am I gonna say…god this…Marissa I…"
"Alex! You're rambling!" Marissa shouted while grabbing Alex's shoulders to steady her. "You can trust me Alex…I'll never leave you….never…"
Alex stared at Marissa with large, unflinching eyes. Eyes Marissa realized were full of emotions Marissa had never seen in the girl before. Fear, vulnerability, confusion; these emotions had never crossed Alex's blue eyes before. The fact alone that she saw all of these emotions at once in her eyes scared Marissa. She wasn't sure what would happen; would it be good? Would it be bad? What she found out today would change her life…forever.