well damn. i am so sorry this is so slow to update...thank you all for the reviews! i will try to update more often. really really. -fireun
He was warm, he was comfortable, and there were lips on his.
And his and his and his and…
Hisoka blinked, shook his head in an attempt to make sense of the things bouncing around in his head, and the motion managed to break off the feedback loop in which he and Tsuzuki had been caught up. Well, he had most definately been kissing Tsuzuki, and Tsuzuki had apparently been kissing him...
Shame.
Tsuzuki.
The older man was currently trying to look anywhere but at Hisoka, which was quite the feat considering he was prone and Hisoka was more than mostly draped across his body. It was like catching the same part of a poorly written book over and over. Hisoka knew every nuance of this particular, peculiar, faucet of Tsuzuki's behavior, and while he was familiar with it, that didn't make it any better. Any second now, Tsuzuki would…yep, like clockwork, he shifted a bit, uncomfortably, still doing his best to deny the fact his eyes had ever managed to glance across the lithe form of Hisoka, patently ignoring the rather compromising fact that Hisoka was not in the least bit interested in moving.
"You realize, Tsuzuki, that not looking at me is not going to make me go away, right?" Hisoka felt Tsuzuki flinch, startled, at the sudden speech, and cuffed him lightly. "Hey, look at me!" Purple eyes grudgingly flicked to meet his own, holding steady for one wrenching moment of honesty before snapping back to a twitchy survey of the ceiling.
Hisoka turned onto his side, cradling himself against Tsuzuki's tense body, and turned his own attention to the ceiling. "Well, I must be considerably less attractive than I thought if you are favoring that view over me. Though, that one bit of mold in the corner does sort of look like 003. If you squint a bit."
"'Soka!" Tsuzuki squeaked, surprised, one arm curling around the smaller man defensively. "You are too attractive!"
"As are you. Glad we got that out of the way. If you move that arm I will kill you." Hisoka snapped the last, feeling Tsuzuki preparing to withdraw as he realized what exactly he had just done. "We are going to have a little conversation right now, Tsuzuki. I am going to sit up in a moment, and you are going to pay attention. First though…"
There were some things that just didn't work out if you thought about them; they would be come to awkward, or too formal. There was nothing formal about kissing, and there never should be. That and if he stopped to think about it, his better sense of reason would be screaming and demanding to know just what the merry hell he was doing. Hisoka leaned forward, planted a firm kiss on Tsuzuki's lips, and sat up, more than a little uncomfortable with the fact he was looming over the other man, but unwilling to take the time to do anything about it.
"I was afraid I had lost you, Tsuzuki." He managed in a quiet voice.
"I…"
"I was jealous when that girl was making eyes at you in the café."
"But…" Tsuzuki couldn't get a word in around Hisoka's determined speech, but he was determined to give it a try at least.
"I was embarrassed as all hell when you gave me that flower."
"Sor…"
"And damn it, I did not mind the fact that you kissed me. Or I kissed you. Or whatever was going on when we woke up." Hisoka leaned close, catching Tsuzuki's eyes and holding them. "I like being near you. I like being with you. I like you."
Tsuzuki looked like someone had punched him in the gut, his face was a blank study of abject surprise and his mouth hung open in a sort of idiotic gape.
"You are going to catch flies if you leave your mouth hanging open like that." Hisoka grumped, pulled away, slightly embarrassed. He hated…emoting really. Hated that hint of vulnerability that came with it.
But there were some things that were worth it.
Tsuzuki was worth it.
This time he most definitely thought about it for a moment, his face softening slightly as he leaned forward. Tsuzuki must have seen something in his eyes, for a silly sort of grin broke through surprise and anxiety, and he leaned up a bit, meeting Hisoka's lips just about halfway.