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Tell her chapter 4: Nightmare and trust.

Duo walked down the hall. They taken Heero to the office of Sally, wich was quickly formed into a made shift hospital room. The equiptment was already there, Sally still needed to function as docter now and then, despite her protest. She didn't protest however when they brought an unconsious Heero into her office. Somehow Heero blacked out in Relena's arms, the only one who he seemed to trust. Duo quickly shook his head, no he trusted them to (meaning the fellow pilots) he just didn't show it. Princess just had a special effect on him, but then again she had that effect on anyone, she just had that gift. Duo chuckled, remembering when he practically forced Wufei to go and talk to her. He had a feeling he did, for he and Sally were together for two months now.

His look turned serious and he sighed as he remembered the look in Heero´s eyes when he rushed out of the room. It had been the same look he, and the other pilot´s saw each time they looked in the mirror at night. Absolute terror. Heero was haunted by what he was, did and felt. At least his eyes hadn´t been empty like they usually were, that had to count for something. Duo shuddered, he didn´t know if he liked the look in his eyes period. The sadness that he had seen when he stormed out, or the empty look they usually were. They weren´t natural. He hoped they were still on time to save the guy. From himself...

He opened the door and stepped into Sally's office, now hospital room. He was slightly surprised to find all the pilots, plus Sally and Relena in the room.

"Were's the crowd for?"he asked.

They all looked, glared, or smirked at him. Heero was unconcious, lying still in his bed in the corner of the room.

"Sorry I asked"he mumbled, taken aback.

He noticed Relena, and frowned confused. He knew the princess cared for his buddy, but wasn't there some meeting she should go to? She had her duties afteral, the world coudn't stop spinning just because his buddy went mad...right? Apparently Quatre wondered the same.

"Not that I mind, but why are you here, Relena?"Quatre asked, earning the attention from almost everyone in the room, "don't the people need you?" Relena blushed and slightly bowed her head.

"She can't leave this room, or his side for that mattter"Sally answered. Duo blinked confused, but the other's hardly showed emtion, beside Quatre who blinked along with

"Well, why not?"Duo asked.

Sally sighed and looked at Relena.

"Why don't you show them?"

Relena frowned.

"B-but…well okay then"

Slowely she got up, and walked away, looking over her shoulder hesitant to leave. Heero´s neutral expression dissapeared as he frowned. She walked past Duo and looked over her shoulder again, it was as if some unseen force pulled her back to him, she didn't want to leave. Heero's frown had deapened, and he was starting to sweat, as if he was having a nightmare. Relena closed her eyes en opened the door. Heero made a sound in discomfort. Slowely she stepped outside and closed the door. Heero's frown turned into a expression of terror as the sounds got louder. Finally the sounds formed to words.

"No....no...I don't want to...don't make me"he mumbled, and tossed in his sleep. The other ex-pilot's looked with an neutral expression, or with a worried look. Heero's movements got quicker, more desperate as his heartspeed increased. "No"he mumbled again, "no...I don't want... to be... the perfect soldier"

Duo blinked. He didn't? Of course he didn't...who would?

Sally sighed. "Obviously he is traumatised"she spoke clearly, sadness taining her voice. The other's nodded.

"We're all screwed up"Duo mumbled. Sally looked at him.
"Yes, but you all have someone to comfort you don't you?" They were silent, it was true.
"He seemed to be the strongest of us, I always thought he could handle it"Quearte confessed, guilt clearly in his voice. Duo nodded.

"So did I somethimes, Q-man. I guess we all made that mistake, but he doesn't let anyone in either"

"NO"Heero suddenly yelled, clearly distressed, ending their conservation, "No, I don't want to...don't make me...I want somebody to hold me....why do you make me like this? Why do you make me into this monster?"

They blinked. Heero thought he was a monster?

"No, I don't want to be an ice cold dead body, I don't want to kill...I don't want to be perfect...I'm not disgusting...I.."Heero continued, to deep into his dreams to notice anything else, "don't force me....don't hurt me...stop hurting me...." Now even Trowa and Wufei seemed worried.

"What did they do to him?"Quarte whispered. They didn't want to know.

"Alone...all alone"Heero mumbled, and shook his head his breathing became forced, almost hyperventilating. He kept trashing around and almost hit Sally when she grabbed the vase by his bedstand before he broke it.

"All alone...don't want to....need...to.....pain....so much pain..."he mumbled, and suddenly started screaming, "NO, leave me alone! I don't want to kill, don't make me kill. STOP HURTING ME. NO, there is got to be another way not to get hurt withoug being perfect. STOP HURTING ME!!" They shuddered. The tone in Heero's voice was so desperate, heart broken, as if he saw his mother dying before his very eyes. His hoarse voice would haunt them for weeks.

Sally looked at the pilots, they saw enough now. "RELENA"she yelled, knowing it would be a while before Heero would allow himself to call her name, even though he was asleep. Relena inmedeatly rushed in. She ignored everyone else in the room and sat down beside him on the bed.

"Heero I'm here"she told him, and touched his shoulder.

"Everyone....hurt....so...much...pain"he mumbled.

"Heero"she whispered.

"Can't....get...anyone....close....hurt...so much pain"he mumbled again, his face as disstressed as his voice was.

"I won't hurt you Heero"she assured him. Heero frowned, but stayed silent. "Heero"she whispered again, and softly carresed his cheek. "Nobody's going to hurt you Heero"

Heero suddenly got up and grabbed her in a crushing hold. Relena brought his arms around him, and started to softly stroke his back. Apperantly it was to much for Heero to bare. He needed her, he needed all his friends, he just didn't show it.

"It's alright I'm here Heero"she told him gently, rocking him as a child. Heero made a noise wich sounded like a whimper but they weren't sure, and burried his head in her neck.

"I'm a monster"he murmled. Relena shook her head.

"No, your not Heero"she responded, her voice as gentle as it could be. She stroked his back with one hand, while the other found it's way to his hair. Rocking him like a child, she continued to softly talk to him. She felt him slowely relaxing against her, and his crushing hold on her slightly relaxed.

"I'm not going anywhere Heero"she whispered.

Now his hold relaxed enough to breathe properbly.

"I'm not going to leave you, relax"she told him again. His response was to do as she ordered.

"I'm sorry"he murmled.

Slowely his hands fell to her sides, and the only thing that was holding him up to her were her own arms. Gently she put him down, and covered him in the sheets. He was still frowning, so she carresed his face untill it was once again in it's neutral way. He never opened his eyes.

She sighed. No, Heero Yuy perfect soldier would never look peacefull. She finally looked to the others. They all looked worried.

"I never seen Heero this desperate"Quatre whispered, shocked. Duo shook his head, and Trowa placed his hand on the shoulder of his friend, a silent support.

"Not only is his mind troubled"Sally finally spoke up, returning to her doctor mode, "but his body suffered as well. He wasn't taking care for himself and hardly slept. If he keeps this up, he willt collaps again, and maybe even slip into comathose.He needs to get some rest. From the state his body is in, I'm thinking he never got a moment of rest ever since the war" Wufei stood beside her, as comforting as he could be.

"Heero won't slow down"Trowa suddenly spoke. Quatre blinked but then nodded.

"No he won't. Nobody can force him, the only way to get him to rest is to convince him to"Quatre agreed. Duo got a dissturbing smirk and Relena, who knew that smirk, quickly bowed her head and foccussed her attention on Heero.

"You know..."Duo started, and Relena tenced, "Heero only relaxes when he knows for sure the princess is safe" The other's immedeatly focussed her attention on Relena.

"She argues on a daily basis, everybody knows she's good at convincing people"Wufei added. Now they were all wearing disturbing smirks.

"And we want him to relax, don't we?"Duo spoke, o so 'innencent'.

"Yes, my diagnose would be for him to stay close to the one's he trust, and love And one who cares enough for him to take him into her home."Sally said, and she winked at Relena. Relena gulped and forced herself to wear her political mask.

"What are you suggesting?"she managed to get out withoud stuttering.

Well that's it for now. I hope you enjoyed it.

Have a nice day

Gasha Aisu