River, an ASOUE fanfiction by Dash.
Oh I wish I had a river I could skate away on Sometimes I lie in bed, and I can't take it anymore. Being in Count Olaf's troupe isn't as great as I thought it would be. Should I have run away from my old home, and left my family behind? Should I have started this fantasy life, where my old one was shattered. And then I cry every night, my sombre feelings matching the surroundings surrounding me.And I look at my life before me: sleeping every night in an old tattered hammock, the sounds of glazing snoring all around where the rest of the troupe are captured away in a deep slumber. This is my life: running from fires and authorities trying to capture me. I feel myself tumbling, reducing myself to tears as I think it through all again.
And why am I doing this? To please one man, a man with greed and selfishness, with no care for his troupe or his welfare.
Oh I wish I had a river so long,
I could teach my feet to fly.
Oh I wish I had a river,
I could skate away on.
But the money, the essence of adventure, the adrenalin of it all. It was an exciting life, and I can't live without excitement. But I can't life with hurt and pain, and loneliness. I guess it seems a strange thing to say, when the room I'm in means there's barely any space for me to fit.
But I hate these people. I hate my life.
I want to run away, back to Widdershins, and my dear Fiona. And I never want to watch another fire, and feel the heat of the flames on my skin, or smell fresh smoke in the air. I want to escape the flames, the troupe, and Olaf.
I despise that coward.
Killing him could be the best thing I've ever done in life.
But for now, I'll just. There's nothing I can do, but to cry myself to sleep in a world of smoke and tears. Tomorrow's another day's work, and another day full of hurt.
But it's okay: I'll cope.
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on.