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Summary: Harry loves Seamus. Draco loves Harry. Harry loves Draco. Draco loves Seamus. Confused? Seamus is caught between two people in love with each other, neither wanting to admit it. So even thought HE LOVES THEM BOTH he gives them up so that they can be together, even though it breaks his heart...
The Shards of his Heart
Chapter One,
The pain was good, oh so good, it kept him real, it kept him alive. Lifting the knife he made another slit on the back of his forarm, sighing as the pain washed over him. When the rush had faded he took some toilet role and pressed it to the 2 cuts among many scabbed ones.
He was alone in the bathroom, trying to block out the sounds of Harry and Draco making out in the next room, trying and failing. They weren't exactly quiet at the best of times and he could hear every word they said to each other, every movement, every single sound.
"Draco..." a low moan
panting from both of them, bed sheets moving, a zip being pulled down
"Oh God Harry," a grunt, a gasp, a cry of pleasure "Harry!" heavier panting
Seamus closed his eyes and pressed his hands over his ears as pain seared through his cheast, oh how he couldn't wait for term to end.
"Oh Seamus it's so good to have to home!" Seamus's mother cried, holding her son close to her. Seamus smiled into her shoulder and then to his shock felt tears welling his eyes, why was he crying? "Seamus? Seamus pet why are you crying?"
"Nothing mother, nothing important. I'm so pleased to be home, are there any jobs open in town?" Seamus asked as he wiped his eyes quickly.
"Don't you want soomething to do with magic?" Bridgett Finnigan asked surprised.
"No, I want nothing to do with magic any more, I should never have even tried," Seamus said sadly. If he stayed away from magic he ultimatly stayed away from his true loves. Bridgett looked at his sad face and knew immediatly that something was greatly troubling her second son.
"Baby? Whats the matter? You know you can tell me," she put her hands on Seamus's cheeks, making him face her.
"No mother, I think I'll just go rest till Paddy and Father get home," and with that Seamus picked up his bags and made his way upstairs to his old room that he shared with Patrick, or rather Paddy.
When Paddy did get home from his work in the local shop he saw Seamus's shoes by the front door and took the steps two at a time up to his and Seamus's bedroom. He laughed happily when he found Seamus reading one of his old books he'd left behind to go to school.
"It's good to have you home again Sea," Paddy was 19, two years older than Seamus and muggle all the way.
"It's good to be home," Seamus said, a hint of sadness in his voice.
"Sea? Whasamatter?" Paddy asked, sitting next to him quickly.
"I fell in love at school," Seamus admitted quietly.
"But isn't that good?" Paddy was confused.
"No, I fell in love with two men, at the same time," Seamus muttured angrily.
"And you couldn't choose?" Seamus was surprised that Paddy didn't seem to care that he was gay.
"Oh no, they chose for me. They love each other so I..."
"Gave them both up. Typical of you Sea, why didn't you just tell them how you felt?" Paddy asked. Seamus just shook his head sadly. "Have you told mum?" Another shake of the blonde head. "You are terrible."
"I know, they're the reason that I want nothing to do with the magical world any more, it revolves around them and their families," Seamus admitted quietly. "Can we drop the subject now Paddy?"
"Sure, why don't you come down the local with me and I'll buy you a good Irish drink, not that stupid English stuff they have a nerve to call beer," Paddy decided he would bring up the subject again, once Seamus was pissed.
A/N There we are, chapter 2, the strange writing way will make a come-back in later chapters-I have plans! mwahahaha, ooh that scare me!