Some Characters and Ideas borrowed but the Storyline is Mine. NO COPYING!

Chapter Twelve - Full Moon

In Two days, it would be a full moon. Clay told me that all newly turned Lycans Changed that night for the first time and then if they were strong enough, they could change any time they wanted to. I was not looking forward to it.

Lucian had tried to apologise to me many times but I went to great lengths to avoid him. He thought that if I saw the worst thing he could do, I would no longer be afraid of him. He couldn't be more wrong; now I feared him even more.

Clay spent most of the time messing around and getting to know each other. And no, I wasn't ready for intercourse just yet. I had spent so much of my life alone and I had to get used to him going where I went and being around me practically all of the time. He even slept in the same bed as me. Sometimes we slept in his room and sometimes in mine; but wherever we slept, we were together.

The two days passed too quickly and then it was the night where Clay said I would have to change. During the day, two guests had arrived and when the sun went down, a third soon showed up. They were called Micah, Rafael and Jean Claude. I think the third was French.

Rafael was the Rodere of the Dark Crown Clan and he was a Were-Rat. Micah Callahan was the Nimir-Raj of the Blood Drinkers Clan and he was a Were-Leopard. Jean Claude was the man I recognised from St. Louis and it turned out that he was a Vampire.

Jean Claude kept looking at me whenever I entered the same room as him, but I ignored him along with Rafael, Micah and Lucian. I stayed away from all of them because I still didn't like the idea of there being other species except from Furion. That included Lycans.

As the night went on, I started to become more and more restless, as well as getting colder and colder. I grew less and less able to hide it and Clay started to notice it. He gathered me up in his arms and carried me into the forest. He took me to a large clearing that had a large rock chair/throne thing at one end. Lucian was sitting on it.

By the time we got there, the backs of my arms and legs were itching badly and I was starting to shiver. Clay explained that it was almost time for me to change he made me take all of my clothes off and sit in the centre of the clearing. He did the same and sat next to me. Micah, Rafael, Jean Claude, Raze and Alcide came so I was sitting naked in front total strangers and people I wasn't comfortable about being naked around. It was so embarrassing!

I was also terrified so I curled up into a ball like shape against Clay, as the itching grew more and more unbearable. He kept saying thinks like 'you'll be fine' and 'it will be ok' as he stroked my hair and back. My head ached so much that I was sure it was going to explode and my skin itched so much that it almost burned, yet I was still freezing inside.

I refused to change. I stayed curled up in a ball with tears streaming down my face and strangers staring at my naked body, expecting me to change. I could also feel my body willing me to give in, pleading for release, but no – I would not change!

The pain was so extreme as I denied my body the change that I collapsed to the floor, unconscious. Keeping the change had taken its toll on me and had used up all of my energy so I had none left.

I awoke the next day with Clay, Raze, Lucian and Alcide fussing over me. I was weighed down with heavy blankets but I was still freezing cold. Clay and Lucian were arguing over something but they noticed that I had woken up and walked over to me. I tried to sit up but I didn't have enough energy for it. I felt so weak.

'How do you feel?' Lucian asked in an anxious voice.

'What happened?' I croaked, instead of replying.

'You didn't change. I don't know how you did it, but somehow, you just… didn't change. No newly turned Lycan has been able to resist their first change when it is full moon.'

'Why am I so cold?'

'It is probably because you are a Fire Type Furion and you use the fire's warmth to keep your body temperature up. When Furions change, they lose control of their power during the time they are in wolf form and then it returns when they change back to human form. However, you didn't change, so until you do change, you won't be able to control your power to keep your body temperature up.'

'It was strange…' Clay said. 'I could feel the change begin but then it stopped and collapsed against me. I was worried.' He picked me up to hold me against him and as he looked into my eyes, he asked 'Why wouldn't you change?'

I broke eye contact and looked down. 'I'm scared.' I whimpered as I buried my head into the curve of his shoulder and breathed his comforting scent in. Clay hugged me tightly and Lucian walked towards us.

'You don't have to be afraid; none of us here will hurt you. I know what I did may be hard to accept but you must embrace what you are; not run from it. I am sorry if I have hurt your feelings and confused you so for that I am truly sorry.' He knelt on the bed and put his hand on my shoulder, which to my surprise didn't make me tense up.

I didn't know what to do, so I nodded my head into Clay's shoulder - still not looking at Lucian. I was too worn out to fight. Lucian carefully extracted me from Clay's grasp and pulled me slowly - still naked - into his own lap. At this moment I did tense; but only slightly. As I made no move to move away he tenderly hugged me against him.

He was warm and smelled like some sort of musk. It was comforting to be held by him and I sighed as I closed my eyes. I felt the bed move as Alcide, Raze and Clay climbed on and started to crawl towards us. Lucian lay back with me in his arms and the others arranged themselves so they curled around us and started to stroke my arms and hair.

I felt safe with them surrounding me and a few tears trickled down my cheeks. Clay licked them off gently and his tongue was warm and wet, but I felt no reason to object. It felt right, normal.

I felt safe with them around me and I started to drift off to sleep, knowing that I had truly found my family and it was where I belonged. I understood that they would take care of me, and would be there for me, no matter what I did. I fell asleep with a smile on my face.