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Chapter Two

A few weeks later Sabrina was sitting in the lab looking through a microscope of some blood cells that had been taken from the wraith that had attacked them. She was looking at the very claw that had taken her baby's life. She got flash backs of what had taken place. The dead wraith's body that was ripped apart. The surprise attack. Laying on her back on the ground. The feeling of the wraith's hand as it immediately moved to her stomach. The intense pain the sounds of yelling and shooting. The fear. Then she felt nothing until she woke up on the cold floor here. Unchecked tears slid down her cheeks and she pushed herself away from the microscope and walked over to the other side of the room.

"Damn why didn't I make sure." she whispered to her self as the doors to the lab opened and Dr. Beckett walked through.

"Hey Sabrina how are you doing?" he asked as he saw her. He knew she had been taken it hard since the attack.

"I'm good if I can ever forget that I made a mistake that cost my unborn child it's life." she said in bitter tone.

"I thought we already decided that it was not your fault." he said as he walked over to her. It hurt him to see this hurt in her. She was such a vibrant woman.

"No, you and John made that choice." she bit out" A little innocent life needed me to protect it and instead of make sure that it was safe I went to explore a place I knew the wraith could come to. In fact a part of me wanted to see one alive. I wanted to experiment on it to see what made it tick." she swiped at the tears that came out of her eyes." Well, look what happened. Some mother I was." she sighed heavily.

"We all make mistakes and what happened was not your fault. When you're ready you'll make a great mother.." Dr. Beckett told her trying to lift her mood to a better one.

"You know the first time I saw John I felt this instant pull. I knew he was going to be a big part of my life. I still feel that way. When I thought I was pregnant I wanted to tell him, but I wanted to wait until I was sure. If I thought for a second that I wouldn't be able to protect my child I would've told him sooner." she sighed deeply" Now all I feel is this emptiness of where the baby was. I just want to cry when I think of it." she confessed as tears formed in her eyes. It hurt her to think of the baby that she lost. Her and John would've made great parents. She quickly walked away from the spot she had been standing in as she tried to clear her head.

"It's going to be OK. It'll be hard right now because it's still fresh, but in time you'll learn to deal with your pain and be able to let it go." Dr. Beckett said trying to reassure her the best way he knew how.

"Yeah, I hope so because anything would be better than this empty feeling. I cry so much when I'm alone at night I swear I'm going to flood the place out again." she said as she looked at the cells under the microscope again.

"You won't flood this place out by crying. I'm not that far away if you need someone to talk to." he offered then on second thought he added" Neither is major Sheppard. I'm sure he'd listen and comfort you. He loves you." her head snapped up so hard that he heard it pop.

"He loves me?" the question passed through her lips before she could think of it." How do you... did he tell you?" she was shocked and surprised.

"Well, no, but I saw it in his eyes when you were brought in. It's clearly obvious." he pointed out a little amused at her expression.

She didn't say anything because her mind was racing everywhere. He couldn't love her. They barely knew each other. No way.

"Sabrina!" Dr. Beckett called out to her drawing her back to the present just in time for her to catch her almost fatal mistake of mixing two highly flammable liquids together.

"Oh shit!" she hissed as she quickly moved the liquids away from each other." I could've just killed us both. What the hell was I thinking!?" she exclaimed

"You need to rest you've been through a lot these past three weeks you haven't really slept good. Why don't you go take a nap if I need you I'll come get you." he suggested as he became worried about her.

"No, I'm good." she said softly as she went back to reading over the substances she was to mix together to create a cure of simple illnesses.

"OK I asked you nicely now I'm ordering you to go get some sleep." he said firmly

"Yes, Doctor Beckett anything you say Dr. Beckett." she smiled at him as she walked toward the door.

"I mean it get some sleep or else I'll stick you with some sedatives." he called to her as she walked out the doors.

She made her way to the outside to look into the ocean it was the middle of the day so the sun was shining brightly onto the ocean water. It looked like tiny diamonds sprinkled over it. She loved the ocean. She was so close to it she could reach out and touch it. In fact she was about to, but as she was leaning down a head with two eyes pop-ed up to the surface. She screamed and jumped back losing her balance in the process. The head had blond hair. The eyes were bright blue like the ocean itself. In fact it was human and it was starring right at her. Suddenly she heard foot steps and voices then the head disappeared beneath water. She was sitting on the ground just starring at the water when John, McKay, and Weir showed up.

"What happened?" John asked concerned.

"I I I." she couldn't form a complete sentence because she was in shock.

"You what?" McKay asked cautiously. She looked like she had seen a ghost of some kind.

"Sss saw." she couldn't say what she saw because it was hard to believe.

"What did you see?" Weir asked curiously

"A head." she said as the three people who were very concerned over her looked at her like she was crazy.

"A head?" John asked as he raised an eyebrow at her

"Yes, a head with blond hair and ocean blue eyes." she said as she stood up and walked to the edge where she was when the head pop-ed up.

"OK, so where is it?" McKay asked not believing her at all.

"It's in the water. It pop-ed up and scared me. It was human." she said as she turned to look back at them.

"Look, you've been up a lot lately so maybe you just thought you saw something." John said softly as he grew worried about her.

"I really saw it. It was real. I swear to you it was." she said as she turned back to look into the water, but she turned so fast she nearly fell into the water, but John grabbed her before she did.

"Come on we'll get you something to eat and I'll take you back to your room so you can rest." John said concerned for her. Maybe losing the baby was affecting her mind.

They helped her back inside where she kept insisting that she saw a head with blond hair and ocean blue eyes in the water. Of course everyone just humored her and let her think they believed her, but she knew they didn't. John walked her to her room.

"I swear to you I saw a man's head with blond shoulder length hair and ocean blue eyes. I'm not crazy I really saw it." she swore to him as they walked inside her room.

"I believe you think you did." he said as he sighed.

"Great this is just lovely everyone thinks I'm nuts." she sat on the edge of her bed with John." Maybe I am. I have been under a lot of stress lately." she laid back onto the bed and stared up at the ceiling. It's nice having him here next to me again even if he does think I'm nuts.

"You're not crazy you're just stressed out." he said as he laid down beside her." It happens to all of us." he rolled over to his side and reached out to touch her arm lightly. I could fall in love with her if I'm not careful.

"You know sometimes I think I've just been here way to long I've forgotten what reality is. Then you came along and everything started to change for me." she stopped and turned to her side facing him. Wow he truly does have beautiful eyes. I could see my future with him in their depths.

He didn't say anything he just leaned toward her and kissed her. It was soft and sweet then she moved to deepen it. His left hand rested on her hip as her hands went to his face pulling him closer to her as they kissed deeply. It was coming home all over again for both of them. Their hands were in familiar places once again. It was John who pulled away.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean for this to happen. I wanted to comfort you not take advantage of you." he said as he sat up. Great way to go Sheppard. She's just been through hell and back now you're taking advantage of her state of mind.

"John you got me drunk and took advantage of me." she said as she sat up too." This time you weren't taking advantage of me I wanted you to kiss me and I still do." she put her hand on his shoulder.

"Good, because I wanted to kiss you to." he said as he expelled a breath" I'd still like to kiss you, but when you've had some sleep." he kissed her forehead as he stood up to leave.

"Fine you go, but don't expect to get another chance like this again." she snapped at him as he left her alone in her room. She laid down and closed her eyes.

She dreamed of the human head with shoulder length blond hair and ocean blue eyes. In her dream it walked up to her and spoke something she couldn't understand. Then he was gone just like before and John was standing in front of her kissing her like before.