Title: Unknown
Author: Midori Snape
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Pairings: Either SS/HP or DM/HP (Tell me which you want)
Warnings: Slash (deffinitly) and maybe.. MPRG Spoilers?... dunno.. maybe...
Disclamer: (I"m only doing this once so pay attention)
THEY ARE NOT MINE!
I have so many secrets
I want to tell them
About the abuse
About the hurt
But I can't
I run and hide
They ask me why
But I just tell them lies
That's the story of my life. I wish I could tell everyone... anyone. Just so one person could know and the weight wouldn't be so heavy.
They say I deserve it. That i'm a freak. And I should have never lived. Maybe it's true. For my life is costing many others their own. The first person I ever cared for more than a friend! So many would live if I were dead!
The abuse... Maybe I should... Maybe they would be better off. If I don't tell anyone... I could die... they could kill me... and everyone would be happy.
I'm sure Ron and Hermione would be able to breath. Now that they don't have to worry about being main targets to Voldemort. They wouldn't be.. if I were dead.
And Malfoy... He and I... we put a bit of our fighting behind us.. on the train... my uncle was late.. as was Malfoy's father. That was supriseing to say the least. But we... talked... I guess. And... I shook his hand. Not sure what I was thinking... but Malfoy said to always count on him to banter me. I thanked him. I think I might be on drugs.
Oh and Snape... Professor Severus Snape. The man I respect greatly and look up to. He hates me. Because I look like my father. I don't know if I act like him, but Professor Snape says I do. So I must be realy horrible. He would rejoyce... He would party... when i'm dead. He will celebrate.
But I can't die till I kill Voldemort. Once I do, then i'll leave them in peace.
Now you're probly thinking why do I respect Professor Snape if he hates me? Because... he does hate me. He doesn't treat me like some celebrity. He treats me like everyone else... well sort of... at least he treats me closly like another Gryffindor. He keeps me grounded. With his insults. With his hurting words that sting so badly.
But he's not here. The abuse, however, is here... it keeps me grounded... well sort of. The brusies. In places where noone can see. The pain when I touch them... it feels like his words. The abuse... and he.. they keep me grounded...
Harold Jamison Potter
Please R&R! Thanks!
Midori Snape