Note

The lyrics of "Something of Value" are not mine they belong to yellowcard. Just as if i were to put any other song lyrics those lyrics belong to the artist unless i post otherwise.

Excerpt from Something of Value-Yellowcard

"All that I needed to hear from you

something of value but something untrue

all that I wished that I'd find within you

See how what she wanted and she needed

tore it all down in the end

some how like a sickness she infects me

She's simple but deadly my friend

All that I needed to hear from you

something of value but something untrue

all that I wished that I'd find within you

stings when I see all the ways that you

took me for granted and told me its through

picked from my pockets and smiled

empty is nothing and nothing is you

I think I'll just sit for awhile

for awhile....."

P.S. Thanks for the reviews I've gotten so far. I'll try better on my grammer and I'm trying to make this chapter longer, for the first chapter I just wanted something to start with. Thanks you guys!

Chapter 2-Something of Value

Well this morning same routine over again. We went to the parking lot and started to plot drill. Our captain Lashay was counting off my spot when all of a sudden

"MO JO JOJO!" Our Drum Major Jennifer said.

"Oh my god!" I laugh "Mo jo jojo" I repeated "that is hilarious. While me and my friend Katie cracked up laughing at the mishap of our drum major we missed the Attention call, but luckily J (Mr. Johnson) did hear us. We quickly got up and went to attention.

"Does it really take this long to plot drill people???" He yelled, "Could we please hurry up a bit or are we going to have to have practice till 8:00 tonight?" Grumbles erupted "exactly, speed it up please!"

My morning continued like that until lunch. For lunch I decided to walk with Parker, Nicole, Angelica and Diane. I mostly stayed behind them with Diane, I really didn't want to be there but it felt so good to be near Parker again. I hadn't even talked to him in so long. I was in heaven for most of lunch just thinking about him. We started back and realized we only had 10 minutes left until lunch was over! We ran and made it back with two minutes to spare

"Ok, I know this is going to be a disaster but let's try to play and march what we have plotted, color guard just march your spots." J said.

All of a sudden you start to hear a mixture of tubas, saxophones, trumpets and drums playing.

Jennifer started to conduct, "Tup tup tup tup tup tup" you heard the opening notes and then you saw J stop us.

"Ok let's just march for now." He said

"Well it's a start" I said to myself "now I can't wait to get my flag."

About 20 minutes later you heard J say "5-minute break now, MOVE!"

I went and sat on the sidewalk and drank my water. Then I felt someone come sit down beside me. It was Parker.

"Hey" he said

I replied with a simple "Hi"

"What's up?"

"Nothing, just being tired and hot." Which was the truth, I just left some things out.

"I haven't talked to you in a while, I might try and call you tonight, I'd like to talk to you."

"That's cool" I said "I must sound stupid" I said to myself.

Parker got up and left, and the whole rest of the day we said nothing to each other. I saw him as I was leaving, but I also saw something that made my heartbreak. I saw him kiss her. It killed me inside, but I guess I should have expected it. I just got in my car and stared out the window. I turned on my CD player and Yellowcard lyrics leaked into my ears.

"I'm finding my own words, my own little stage My own epic drama, my own scripted page I'll send you the rough draft, I'll seal it with tears Maybe you'll read it and I'll reappear From the start it was shaky and the characters rash, A nice setting for heartache where emotions come last All I have deep inside, to overcome this desire Are friendly intentions and fair-weather smiles"

I sat on my bed for the longest time, pretending to read a book. I just sat there and thought about him again. "I need my best friend." My best friend is Lisa Wolfe. She moved away to Florida about a month ago. She knew everything about me and she was the one who completely understood me. I missed her so much. It's sometimes to think about my life without her being there everyday, she was the first to know about everything. I hate the Army sometimes. I told her my mom would adopt her, but as you can see that didn't work. I miss her though and sometimes it's just so hard not to have her there. I laid in bed thinking about two most important people to me, Lisa and Parker, neither of them I have anymore.

Today we got off, because it was supposed to reach temperatures of 110 degrees. I slept in until I heard the phone ring and someone answered it. I listened intensely hoping it was Parker, he never called. I was disappointed again. I got up and took a shower and brushed my teeth. Then I went and watched Spiderman. I finally got bored out of my mind and went to practice my routine. I smacked myself a good 10 times when I finally got dizzy and called it a day on routine.

I went into my room and pulled out my box of letters. I read everyone with such concentration; I could remember the first time I read each it. They made me cry. There were letters from Parker and a lot of them talked about him never wanting to lose me and how much he loved me. I couldn't help but to cry. I remember all the time when he told me he couldn't break up with me and how he never liked anybody but me. I knew it was all lies now. When he wrote them they weren't but now they are. He hurt me so bad. I just closed my box and hide them away. All I could do was cry myself to sleep.