Hey guys, I'm sorry I messed up somewhere. In Ch. 4 I stated that our 1st competition would be in three months, well it actually should be two. I'm sorry. Thanks for the comments red hawk, I'll work on it. Sorry it took awhile to update I have been busy settling some stuff with an "acquaintance" lol. COMMENT GUYS! PLEASE!

Ch.8-The Rumors are Unmasked

It was such a rush to march onto the field for the 1st time. I was so nervous though. We marched around our track outside the football field and marched up the bleachers to our cadence. The guard went up to the very top. At the bottom was the drumline. The announcer started to introduce the game. He introduced the football team.

"Please give a round of applause, for our Knoxville High School Marching Tigers!!" He said.

We all started cheering, and so did the crowd. We were a legend in our town. We had won 4 Grand Champions last year and we were the best marching band around. If the people in the stands were not there for the football team, they were there for us. We won Grand Champions 4 times last year. Our first competition in 2months, we were going to be defending that title.

The game went by fast, and before I knew it the Guard was going down to the track to get ready for the show. We had five minutes to go, and the guard went to the part of the field that we started on. The buzzer rang, and the football team ran off. The guard ran on and plotted our stuff and then we ran behind the band. The announcer once again introduced us and we ran on to the field.

Jennifer started, "Tup, tup tup tup tup tup."

The opening sounds of Grease started. We went through two songs in 8 minutes. We then ran off the field and J told us we did a good job for a first show. All of the sections go together to congratulate each other. The guard got together and we started saying what we did wrong. All in all we didn't do bad at all. We got third quarter off, and I spent it with Parker. I decided not to ask him about the Angelica situation. We had a good third quarter; I was kind of tired though. We went back to the stands at fourth quarter and played some more. After the game J called us all down to the bottom of the bleachers.

"You all did great tonight," he said "I was very proud."

We walked back to the band room and relaxed for a little bit. Then Parker took me home. He walked me to my door, and kissed me goodnight. I walked in and told my mom about my first football game.

"It was great," I said "I can't wait until next week, our first away game." I smiled.

I took a shower and then went online. I posted on my online journal, and then read some of my friend's journals. I came across Brittany's journal again.

Brittany's Journal entry

August 20, 2004

Today was our first game. We rocked. I watched Parker all night, he is so handsome! I love him. I think he likes me too! After the game though I started crying because I saw Parker and Maria holding hands in the band room. It broke my heart. I don't think they will last much longer though, Parker kissed Angelica. I know it happened, I'm just waiting for her to break up with him. I hope I have a chance with him. Well I have to go. Good bye.

"I don't like her," I thought to myself.

After that I went to bed, the next day Parker was supposed to come over. I planned on talking to him then. I fell asleep thinking about what I would say to him. I was so confused about the whole situation. I wanted to know if the rumors were true, but at the same time I didn't.

Igot up and cleaned my room again. Parker came over about three o'clock. We sat in my room for awhile just watching T.V. and talking about nothing. I then decided I should talk to him.

"Parker," I said "did something happen between you and Angelica?"

"I was waiting on you to ask me that." He said.

"Well..." I said.

"I did kiss her, but it was only once. I am so sorry Maria I didn't want to!"

"Then why did you?" I said as I turned my head away.

"I don't know, It just sort of happened. I feel so bad Maria, and I promise I would never want to hurt you."

I started crying and couldn't look at him.

"Maria I love you, I really do, I didn't mean to hurt you."

"If you didn't want to hurt me Parker," I looked at him "you would have never kissed her."

"I know, but I never wanted to hurt you"

"I know, but you did. Now you have to deal with it. I'm not breaking up with you. I just think you should go for now."

"All right, I understand. I do love you Maria, honestly." He got up and called his mom. Five minutes later he was gone.

I laid in bed all night crying, and trying to think of what to do. I don't want to break up with him, but can I really trust he will never do it again? I listened to Yellowcard, they were consolers. I just sang along with the words to there song Empty Apartment.

"Waking up from this nightmare

How's your life? What's it like there?

Is it all what you want it to be?

Does it hurt when you think about me?

And how broken my heart is..."

I feel asleep to my music that night. I woke up about nine o'clock the next morning. I ate cereal and watched T.V. I really didn't feel like doing anything else. All I thought about all day was what I should do about Parker. It rained also, so it suited my mood perfectly. I went to bed that night still thinking. I still couldn't make up my mind.

Parker still took me to school the next morning, we rode in silence. I didn't talk to him at all that day. He didn't even look me in the eye. I guess he really did feel bad. He walked me to my locker at the end of the day. He hugged me and said, "I love you." I said it back.

"I do love him, and I don't want to leave him. But he hurt me so bad." I thought to myself as I walked to the bus. The guard didn't have practice today. I had finally made my decision. I would tell him tomorrow at school. I feel asleep that night feeling good about my decision. I felt more content than I had in several days.

Parker took me to school and again the ride was quite. The day went by fast. Parker and me walked to practice and put down our stuff. We still had 20 minutes before practice started.

"Parker, let's take a walk. We need to talk." I said.

He followed me out the door and asked, "do you hate me?"

"I could never hate you Parker, but I am still very upset about this whole thing."

"Oh, well you know I am very sorry."

"I know, but I have made my decision."