Opening Notes: Warning, very sad chapter. Alot of stuff about both Beastboy and Terra is reveled. Please dont cry on your keyboard like I did while writing this...

Disclaimer: I dont own the Teen Titans. Sue the munchkins, not me!

Terra lay down on her bed, only half dressed in her bright yellow tanktop and white thong. It was extremely late... er... early and she still couldnt sleep. The way she felt about him, trusted him... she had to tell him. But, it was her deepest secret. Terra sqeezed her eyes shut, trying to get his face out of her mind and put sleep in it instead. Without success, she rolled out of bed and stood in front of her mirror.

When she had come back, everything was just as she left it. They had been true to their word and hadnt said anything about the night. She sighed deeply, hating the face that stared back at her through the glass, the one that had betrayed them all.

'Stop kidding yourself Terra, you gotta tell him. If you dont, he wont ever understand why you did what you did.'

'No, if you tell him, he might take advatage of it, just like Slade had done.'

She argued with herself. "Maybe I should talk to him..." she thought out loud. She turned to leave but noticed the clock on her nightstand. It shone 3:46am in bright yellow. She couldnt see him now, she'd have to wait till later.

Terra laid herself back in her bed, trying to sleep once again. She was unsuccessful yet again, and decided to just check on him. 'Just to see if he's alright...' she thought. As she rolled off her bed a second time, a knock came to her door.

"Terra?" It was whispered and she couldnt tell who it was.

"Yeah?" She whispered back, moving closer to the door, trying to figure out who it was.

Slowly, she opened her door. Beastboy stood there, looking like a lost puppy.

"Hey... um... I kinda couldnt sleep and was wondering if... if... if..." Beastboy's eyes widened. He seemed to have lost his voice after the last word.

Terra looked down, curious at what he was staring at.

"Uh...Be right back!" she slammed the door suddenly, and winced with embarresment. Quickly, she looked around her room for something to wear. She spotted some shorts draped over a chair and snatched them up. They were really short, but better than the thong. She put them on and hurried over to the door again.

She bit her lip, looking back at BeastBoy who still seemed at loss with words. He shook his head and smiled. "Er... anyways..." he regained his voice. "You wanna talk or something? I cant excatly sleep, ya know all the excitement and stuff with you back and..." he trailed off, looking at his feet as if he had never seen them before.

"Sure, lets go to the roof. I love it up there." she said smiling faintly at him.

Soon, they were on the roof, staring out into the dark sea. Slowly, a bright light peaked out from out beyond the ocean.

"Terra, you know i only make jokes cause I want people to like me? I dont know why I want them too but, I dont like being alone..." he said quickly, trying to hide his fear of what she would think of him. Again, he looked at his feet in embarrasment.

"Why?" she asked puzzled.

BeastBoy sighed, ready for his biggest secret to spill out of his mouth. "I...I was adopted." He felt tears coming to his eyes. "My real parents didnt want me. Paul and Kelly are my adopted parents. Before...when I was normal...I thought they did want me... but they only sent me to work, doing chores and stuff..." Here he paused, taking in the painful memorys. He squeezed his eyes shut and opened them before he went on. "Then, they made me get a job at this factory..." his eyes glistened with tears. "And I got caught in this machine. Paul had a choice, to let me die or give me animal DNA... Paul didnt want to lose his servant so he sent for the DNA..." He turned his head away from Terra, trying like mad not to cry. Shivering in the early morning air, he continued. "When I started to turn green... they felt embarresed to even call me their servant. So they turned me out, to the T-Tower, hoping they would take me in as a pet or something. Ive lived here for... about 5 years now. Its the only place ive ever felt the least bit wanted...But then...

Terra knew were this was going, and she didnt want to think about it. So she just closed her eyes and listened.

But Beastboy stopped there, not wanting to go on. He knew she knew what happened next. The night he felt even more unwanted. The night she betrayed him. After a few minutes Terra realized he wasnt going to say anymore and spoke up.

"Why are you telling me this?" she asked, looking at him.

This seemed to be a question Beastboy was prepared for. "Because, that is my deepest secret. None of the other Titans know about it. Which means you... you owe me a secret." he whispered the last words.

Terra bit her lip. This was her chance, she knew it. He had told her his secret, it was time for hers. She sighed deeply.

"I dont like your story...Especially my part." She wrapped her arms around her legs and looked into the ocean as if asking it for the words that were forming in her mouth. "But your right, i do owe you a secret. So heres mine: I grew up with my father and my twin brother. Ill never know how me and him got our powers but we had them and we hid them from my father. We never had a mother, nor did we ever ask where our original one went. My father abused us, me mostly. He first hit my brother when we were three. I remember the day perfectly because it was our birthday. Slowly, as the years went by, he decided to abuse us much worse." She paused and took a breath. "One night... he took the abuse too far. My brother died that night from a bat to his skull. I saw everything. My father was extremely drunk, and he started to hit my brother for no reason. He kept hitting him and finally got out his old Little Leauge baseball bat. I watched him do it, I watched the blood drip down my brothers body. He had been my life, my only friend, and there he lay, dead." Terra's voice quivered and she swallowed.

Beastboy looked at her, eyes wide with shock. "But..." he tried.

"Let me finish." she interupted. "Im not done." She took another deep breath and looked at the sky for a moment. "Then, my father seen me. He realized what he had done and I had such a big mouth back then. I tried to run but he caught me and threw me against a boulder." She paused again, painfully swallowing the night air. A tear leaked down her cheek but she ignored it. "Then... he raped me." Beastboy gasped, but Terra just looked away, more tears flowing out of her eyes now. "After, he tried to kill me, but i saved myself by throwing the boulder at him and knocking him out. I didnt have the heart to kill him so i just fled. I could never control my powers after that... Then... you all found me. But, I guess I thought that not all fathers were like that, so I went to Slade. But he of course, knew all about me and took advantage of me..." Now she stopped and buried her head in her knees, sobbing furiously.

Closing Notes: I know, its very sad. But this is how my mind told me to write it. Im very sorry. Btw, for the reveiwers, id like to know if i should focus more on other characters or just stay on Terra and Bb?

Reveiws: Wow! I finally got a couple reveiws! Im happy!

AlbinoRaven666- Haha, my first flame is my first review! Its too bad tho, cause I only change my story when its to improve my writing not what people think of the couplings.

Voltor- Thanks! I know, i really do gotta update more... Ill try harder!

Next Chapter: Might do a lemon (Is that what you call em?), but not entirely sure yet. Find out when i update and dont 4get to reveiw!