Chapter 11
AN: Hope you like it...though I don't think I did. The song is from Faith Hill called 'If I'm not in love with you.'
Faith's POV
It's been a week since that bastard stabbed me in the gut. I'm not complaining now coz of the wound that disappeared, which is still a mystery to me. Spike was also surprised when he found me the next day walking without pain. That's the time when he kept on teasing me that I'm not human and all. Even now...he teases me.
I introduced him to my friends. They accepted him nicely. He seems to like them too. Xander even invited him to the wedding saying that I need an escort or something. I was one of the bridesmaids together with Tara and Buffy. Willow was the maid of honor and Angel was the best man.
Oh yeah. We also met his bride, Anya. Blonde...has the same height as me...that kind of girl. Kinda weird too. She's so...straight forward. She kept on tugging Xander's sleeve asking him if they could have sex. Me and Spike found it...amusing. A girl who's so horny for her guy...a guy named Xander. Kinda creepy. It'll take a matter of a week for them to have a baby.
Her mother died when she was a child...another one like me. Though at least she has a nice father. His name is Rupert Giles anyway. Kinda cool. Wanted to call him G-man but...I still have my manners and all. So I just call him Mr. Giles.
I had a busy week...fun, tiresome, weird...and a bit of a lonely and sad. Why am I feeling that way? I have only one person to blame for that...
Buffy...
Yeah I have fun with Spike and the gang...but while I was having fun with them...Buffy is out there with Angel...having a date. Surprised? I am. I mean, I thought when she's going to a date...she would bring me along. It was the day when my wound was gone that she started acting so...distant. Sure we would talk, but it's not like what we used to have. It's like she's avoiding me. Even when we're sleeping. She wouldn't snuggle with me anymore...she just slept on her side...I hate to admit it but...I miss her. I miss her snuggling at me at night...
I just...miss her...
I sighed as I sat at the chair near the window in Willow's and Tara's dorm. Spike was there too...flipping through some girly magazines. We were waiting for Xander to show up and have some fun because his wedding is tomorrow. So were throwing some kind of bachelor party for him. Yeah...three girls...going to a bachelor party. Kinda weird huh? It's coz we promised Anya to go with him. Buffy isn't with us because she has another date with Angel. I don't know why but...I think I am the reason why she's been so distant lately...
"If you're worrying that much about her...why not follow her instead?"
I turned to look at Willow as she stood beside me.
"What do you mean?"
"Faith...stop lying to yourself. Go to her."
I looked away from her. I don't know why...but I did. I heard Spike sigh.
"She's right you know...just follow your heart or whatever that saying is."
I didn't look at him too. I just continue to stare at the floor. I heard Willow sigh and was surprised when she grabbed my hand and dragged me outside the dorm. Tara and Spike were following us. I looked at her with my eyebrow raised.
"Where the hell are we going?"
She didn't look at me and just kept on walking with a frown in her face saying...
"We're going to look for her...so you can say to her what you're feeling..."
I tried to struggle to get myself loose out of her grip but Spike came to her rescue and grabbed my other arm also dragging me. I glared at him and he just grinned at me.
"Don't look at me like that luv. I also am tired of you mopping around feeling like you lost something valuable. But don't do anything to me now, like turning me into a frog of something...I know you're some kind of witch or something not human with magical powers..."
I just rolled my eyes and let them dragged me. We bumped into Xander on the way and I immediately asked him to help me. He just looked at us with a confused look.
"What the? I thought it's going to be my bachelor party...not Faith's!"
Willow glared at him and grabbed his arm too also dragging him.
"Sorry...but Faith needs to get this out of her system. Where is Angel and Buffy anyway?"
Buffy's POV
I'm in an Italian restaurant. Angel decided to take me there saying that the food is great there. I just smiled at him as he ordered for me. I looked around and noticed rich people eating in this restaurant. It's the first time I've been in this kind of restaurant. Usually I'm in fast food restaurant...
With Faith...
I sigh and looked out the window. It's a good thing Angel reserved a table near the window. It reminds me of Faith...
Always looking outside the window...
Always had this smile on her face...
Grins at me which makes me blush...
Makes me laugh...
Comforts me when I'm sad...
Holds me when I'm sleeping...
All of those are gone now. I only spend the time with Angel now. Though we see each other at night...but its different now. It's like there's a big rock between us that's hard to break.
I miss her...though...so much...
The only reason I go out with Angel is that I could somehow forget my feelings for her...because for her...I'm only her sister. I know it's unfair to Angel... I'm just using him. Makes me think I'm a bad angel and all. I wonder what the other angels might think...
I sighed and listened to Angel as he tells a story about him visiting this kind of restaurant for the first time.
He's nice...and very charming. If I wasn't feeling this feeling I have with Faith...I would definitely fall for him. But I I'm falling for Faith. I smiled at him trying to listen at his story although my mind was busy with a certain brunette.
My thoughts and Angel's voice stopped as we saw Willow and the others heading towards our table. Willow and Spike were holding Faith's arm, holding her captive. She looks scared...terrified. What would make her afraid? I frowned and stood up.
"What's going on?"
Spike grinned and yelled at the waiter to bring some chairs for them. They did and all of them sat down at our table. Angel looks confused looking at Xander.
"I thought you were going to have a bachelor party?"
Xander shrugged saying...
"Don't look at me. I was also dragged here not knowing what's going on."
I sat back down and looked at Faith who was looking at her lap. I looked at Willow who was frowning a little.
"Willow...what's going on?"
"Faith here wants to tell you something..."
I looked at Faith who looked back at the others avoiding my eyes.
"Yeah...I'm wicked hungry. Where's the food?"
I was surprised when all of them glared at her and said her name at the same time, scolding her. I saw her sigh and stood up still not looking at me.
"Fine. B...can we talk for a minute?"
She didn't wait for an answer as she walked away. I also stood up ignoring the looks that the others are giving. I excused myself and walked to her, curious as to what she's going to say...
Faith's POV
I led her to the hallway to the bathroom. I was scared stiff. I don't what I should tell her. It's the first time I've ever felt this way towards another person. All of this is new to me...and it scares me.
I stood there for awhile waiting for her. When she did come and stood beside me, I slowly turn my eyes to her. I smiled at her keeping myself calm and cool...though I wanted to run away from here...
"Nice restaurant he took you...fancy."
"Yeah...he's nice and...charming..."
"That's good..."
There's an awkward silence as we both waited for me to say something. I guess she was growing impatient as she was the first one to break the silence...
"Faith...what's wrong? Why did you come here?"
Why did she ask me that? Guess she doesn't want me to ruin her date. It broke my heart thinking she doesn't want me here...that she's not glad to see me. That's when the lying began...
"Buffy...I want you to know that...I want you to be happy. Try not to ask too many questions to Angel. Don't drink ...guys like women intoxicated so they could get their hands to them..."
She was about to speak but I didn't let her. I just continue talking...
"Be nice to him. Be obedient to him also...men likes it that way. And...try not to think of anything that might upset you when you're with him. Don't think of your family or anything else for that matter. Just enjoy each others company. Remember these things...and you'll end up with him. Good luck to you..."
I walked away from her as I finished my little speech. I slowly made my way towards Angel's table feeling pain in my heart. Everyone looked at me but I only looked at Angel...
Buffy's POV
I felt tears in my eyes as I watch her walk away. I didn't follow her...I went to the bathroom and splashed some water in my face trying to control so many emotions that were rushing through me.
'What happened? It feels like...she let go of me.'
I took a deep breath and decided to go back to the table where Faith and the others are. I was surprised when I only found Angel there...frowning. No Willow...Spike...Tara...Xander...or Faith around. I sat down to where I was seated and frowned looking around.
"Where are they? Where's Faith?"
"They...left. It's weird but...I think she gave me some pointers to follow in dating you..."
"What? What did she say?"
"The rules?"
I nodded and imagined Faith's voice as he talked...
"First...don't ask her about her family. It'll upset her. If you're in a fast food restaurant...order her some soda. She'll like it a lot. Third, don't let her drink something with alcohol. If you do...be prepare to take her home coz she'll passed out. When she's feeling down...hold her hand and say that everything will be alright. If she's upset, take her to the ice cream shop. She'll forget her problems easily. Don't let her wonder around in the mall too much. She might get lost. And lastly...if she asks questions...try to answer it truthfully."
The moment he finished what Faith told him...tears began to run down my face again. There was only one thing that I want to do. I want to find Faith...
He noticed me crying and quickly went beside me comforting me. I shook my head and looked at him.
"Angel...I'm sorry. I-I have to go."
"Okay...would you like me to accompany you?"
I shook my head and quickly stood up and ran towards the door...hoping to find Faith.
Faith's POV
We left the restaurant quickly and began to walk around. I apologized to Xander for ruining his bachelor party. I was surprised when he walked to me and gave me a hug. He told me that it's alright. I smiled to him and apologized to everyone else. They just gave me a smile which I'm thankful.
I began to walk around without any destination. I was surprised when I found myself in the park. The very spot where I found Buffy...where we promised each other to meet. I sat down the bench and looked up at the dark sky...
'Geeez...I'm a mess...'
Buffy's POV
I ran while I looked around. First I went to the bronze and asked Faith's boss. I was disappointed when I heard that he hadn't seen her. I nodded my thanks and quickly headed towards another location.
I kept on looking for her for about an hour. Even in the motel she wasn't there. I was beginning to loose hope and decided to go to the park.
I was surprised and glad when I saw her there...thinking looking up at the sky. I guess she noticed me and turned to look at me. When her eyes met mine I just couldn't help but smile at her. She raised her eyebrow.
"What are you doing here?"
I walked closer to her. I stopped when I was beside her. I haven't stopped smiling...seeing her...makes me smile. That's why I always want to be by her side...always.
"How about you...? What are you doing here?"
She looked away from me and focused her eyes on the ground. I don't know why but...I found it cute. Makes me smile more.
"I uh...I w-was feeling lost. Guess I kept my promise huh?"
I sighed and sat next to her looking up at the dark sky. As I look up I couldn't help but shake my head.
"Yes...I'm glad you kept the promise."
I whispered as I slowly turned to look at her. She had this smile on her face that was contagious. I smiled back at her...
"So...you didn't answer my question earlier."
"I left Angel. I was worried about you that I decided to check up on you."
The smile on her face was gone and was replaced by...sadness. She looked away from me and turned to look at the ground again.
"You didn't have to be worried about me. I'm fine. Just peachy..."
I frowned and laid my hand on top of hers. She can be such a lousy liar. It's easy to know what she's feeling through her eyes. She glanced at our hands and I just took hers to mine squeezing it.
"Faith...stop lying."
She's not the only one who's lying. I think I'm also saying that to myself. I wanted to tell her I didn't like her idea of me being her little sister...or the things she said back to me in the restaurant...how she just handed me to Angel without even knowing what I feel. I just squeezed and caressed her hand...looking at it.
"I missed you, you know..."
She turned to me.
"What?"
I sighed trying to gather up my courage. I look at her straight in the eye, smiling.
"I miss you...it's like we've grown apart for so long. I just want everything back to where it was. When we were hanging out...just the two of us...you know?"
It took her a moment to react to what I said. Her only reaction? She smiled and nodded. I guess she feels the same thing...maybe...just maybe...everything would be back to normal...or...it could turn into something more. I can only hope...
Faith's POV
We stayed in the park for an hour talking. She tells me about her time with Angel...and I told her about my times with the gang. I wanted to tell her how I really felt when I'm not with her. But again...I chickened out. I never really thought I was a wimp until now. If Cordelia were here she'd probably say to me 'You've found your match.' I bet she's right. I've been beaten by a girl. Me...one of the three kings...beaten by a girl. I wonder what the guys that I've beaten would say...
We headed towards the motel hand in hand. It felt nice to be holding her hand. Feels like I've been holding it for awhile. We stopped right in front of the door and I let go of her hand to fish for my keys. I was surprised when she grabbed my other hand and squeezed it. I turn to look at her and found her smiling. I smiled back and continue to fish my pocket with my left hand holding her right hand.
When I opened it, Buffy guided me inside, turned on the lights and turned to me looking at the floor. She looks so...nervous...and cute.
"What's wrong?"
She's still looking at the floor watching her feet kick air. I just couldn't help but smile at her.
"I um...well...you do know that tomorrow's Xander's wedding right?"
I nodded waiting for her to continue.
"...well and...I know in the wedding there'll be some dancing..."
Again I nodded still confuse on what she's saying.
"I just...um...I...I don't know how to...dance..."
I couldn't help but smirk. So that's what she's asking!
"B...are you asking me if I could teach you how to dance?"
It took her a few minutes to nod her head. I knew it. I grinned and just shrugged.
"Okay...I'll teach you."
That made her look at me with a widest smile I've seen in her since I've met her. I know that I'm going to blush so I turned to my stereo looking at some cd that I have. I know that I don't have some slow music. All I have was a bunch of rock music. I turned to her.
"I don't think I have that kind of music with me..."
She walked towards me and started looking for herself. I was surprised when she found a cd that wasn't rock. In fact...it wasn't mine. It was Willow's. I borrowed it a month ago curious as to what kind of music she likes. It was full of girly music. It's nice...but not for me.
She handed it to me smiling.
"Play number 12..."
I took the cd in her hand and was curious how she knew it was a slow music. The cover wasn't there. It was only a cd and a case. I just shook my thoughts and place it in my stereo and clicked 12. As I waited for the sound I walked beside Buffy who was standing. I nervously placed my hand on her waist as I pulled her to me.
"Wrap your arms around my neck..."
She didn't hesitate and just wrapped her hands to my neck. We stayed like that looking at each other until the music began. I guided her to how she would move her feet. It took her a minute to learn...soon we began to slowly dance listening to the music. She laid her cheek on mine as we followed the rhythm. I was surprised when the song was similar to what I was feeling...much too similar...
If I'm not in love with you
What is this I'm going through
Tonight
And if my heart is lying then
What should I believe in
Why do I go crazy
Every time I think about you, baby
Why else do I want you like I do
If I'm not in love with you
And if I don't need your touch
Why do I miss you so much
Tonight
If it's just infatuation then
Why is my heart aching
To hold you forever
Give a part of me I thought I'd never
Give again to someone I could lose
If I'm not in love with you
Why in every fantasy
Do I feel your arms embracing me
Lovers lost in sweet desire
Why in dreams do I surrender
Lying with you baby
Someone help explain this feeling
Someone tell me
If I'm not in love with you
What is this I'm going through
Tonight
And if my heart is lying then what should I believe in
Why do I go crazy
Every time I think about you baby
Why else do I want you like I do
If I'm not in love with you
When the song slowly came to an end...I slowly pulled away from her and just look at her. She looked back at me...and I saw so many emotions in her eyes. I guess she was also seeing those things in mine. We just stayed like that for a minute before I spoke...
"I...I think we should sleep now..."
She nodded and let go of me. I was cursing myself for ruining the moment. It was so perfect...but again I got scared. We took turns cleaning ourselves preparing to sleep. She was the first to enter the bathroom.
The moment I finished and got out of the bathroom...I saw her sitting at the edge of the bed looking at the window. I sighed and sat at the other edge when I remembered something.
"Oh yeah...I bought you something."
I stood up and headed to my drawer and retrieved a long slender box. I sat again at the edge of the bed and handed it to her. She raised her eyebrow looking at me.
"I bought that for you. I think it'll look good on you tomorrow..."
I watch her as she opened it and gasped when she saw it. It was the necklace that she had been looking at a jewelry store when we visited the mall. I bought it because...well...I thought I did something wrong to make her avoid me. It was like a peace offering but...I guess it's just a gift now.
She stared at it for awhile and she looked so cute with her mouth opened. I was surprised when she looked at me her eyes full of tears and tackled me causing me to fall off of the bed along with her.
I groaned as I felt the impact of that tackle on my back. I opened my eyes and her ion top of me! Her arms wrapped around my neck and her hand on the back of my head. I just looked up at her and she did the same. I don't know how many minutes or seconds passed when we stayed like that. It seems like we've been staring at each other...forever. And it also felt like eternity when I felt her lips on mine...