Chapter 16

Faith's POV

I couldn't sleep. I just looked at her in my arms as she sleeps. I don't know why…but her confession yesterday…keeps bothering me. It just won't go away no matter how hard I try.

I sighed and turned to look at the clock on the wall. It's seven in the morning now…and still I couldn't find sleep.

I slowly get out of bed and slowly walked downstairs. I raised my eyebrow as I smell something in the kitchen. I walked towards there and found Mr. Giles cooking.

"Good morning…did you sleep well?"

He said as he continues cooking without turning to me. I grumbled a 'morning' to him and just took a seat on the counter looking at him.

"That doesn't sound like you had a good morning…"

"I couldn't sleep…"

"And why is that?"

"I dunno…"

He turned to me and smiled slightly.

"Perhaps you have a lot in your mind…"

I shrugged and he turned back to cooking. I sighed and played with the spoon and fork that was on the table.

"If you found the only person in your life that would make you happy…and you told her what you felt…and she felt the same thing…then the next day you found out that she's an angel…that have been keeping an eye on you since birth…and just found out on your first official date…would you just sleep on it and forget it?"

He turned off what he's doing and placed it on the plate. He then turned to me and placed the plate in front of me.

"If I had known that my girlfriend is an angel…I would be honored and happy that she feels the same way. But that really isn't what you had in mind that would make you not sleep…is it?"

I frowned.

"What makes you think that?"

"Because…it seems that you are not the type of person that would be…what the kids nowadays would say…. 'freaked out' by the idea. Plus…it is useless to think about it…"

I couldn't help but grin at him as he said 'freaked out.' It's like you're talking to an exchange student when he said that. But nonetheless…what he said was true. I wasn't freaked out with the idea of B being an angel. What I'm freaked out about…is whether or not she's going back up there…

Buffy's POV

It was almost 9 in the morning when I felt the rays of the sun on my face. I slowly open my eyes and tried to find the warmth of Faith's body. I was disappointed when she wasn't there. Waking up with no one beside you can be…sad. It's like you're alone. I guess that's what I felt when Faith wasn't there.

I slowly stood up and stretch my sleepy body awake. I also stretch my wings which was sore for laying on it. That was a mistake I guess…I mean stretching my wings…because I knocked out some vase and lamp.

'Well…I guess everyone's awake now because of me…'

I sighed and tidied up the mess I made. I couldn't help but turn towards the door when it suddenly opened. There I found Faith out of breath and looking around the room with a concerned face.

"Wh-what happened? Are you alright?"

I smiled slightly and nodded my head. I pointed towards the mess and turned to her embarrassed…

"Um…I knocked out the lamp and the vase…I guess I shouldn't stretch my wings here…"

Once I was done telling her what happened, her concerned face slowly turned into a warm smile. She walked towards me…

"Hey it's okay…we'll clean this up…later…"

I smiled back at her feeling warm at what she said. She's the only one that can make me feel like this…feeling my heart skip a beat with just her simple words…making me melt with just her smile. Everything about her…just makes me happy.

I nodded and surprised her as I walked to her and gave her a quick kiss in the lips. I didn't let go of her and just held her by her neck as I felt her arms hold my waist.

"What was that for?"

"Just a small thank you…for being here with me…"

"You don't have to thank me. But…if you're going to thank me like that…then thank me as long as you want. I'll gladly accept it."

She grinned at me and pulled me closer to her. We stayed like that for awhile until we decided to clean the mess and head downstairs for some breakfast.

Faith's POV

I decided to make her breakfast as she sat down the counter. I can tell that she's looking at me…which makes me smile. We just stayed like that for a couple of minutes until I finished with cooking a slice of ham and an egg. I'm not much of a cook but…I'm pretty much confident with cooking breakfast.

She beamed at me as I placed the plate in front of her.

"I didn't know you can cook…"

I smiled.

"I guess you weren't doing your job well…"

"I guess I was busy admiring you…"

She smiled which made me smile more. I sat opposite to her and just watched her as she eat what I prepared. She had this smile whenever she's putting something in her mouth. I found it…cute.

I continue to stare at her again thinking of the conversation I had earlier with Mr. Giles. I couldn't help but feel uneasy…like I'm keeping her here…below…not even knowing if she wants to go up there…where she belongs. I sighed and looked at the table where my hand is. I felt her hand on mine and I looked up at her. She looks worried…

"What's wrong?"

Could I possibly tell her? Tell her that…she can go back in heaven if she wants to…and risk my feelings just to make her happy?

I couldn't…not yet. So I did what I would normally do when I want to hide something…

I lied…

"It's nothing…I was just wondering if my cooking's okay…"

She squeezed my hand and smiled again.

"It's delicious…you should cook more often…"

I smiled back hiding the lie. I nodded.

"Then I'll cook something else for you more often…"

She nodded and continues to eat; finishing what was on her plate. I was again debating with my head with what to do that I didn't realize that Spike was standing by the door, grinning.

"Well, well, well…if it isn't the angel and the…devil…the perfect match…"

I turn to look at him and rolled my eyes. Again he's gonna tease me for awhile. I sighed and got up.

"Sit down…I'm gonna cook you something…"

I heard him sit down and I just started the stove again.

"Alright! It's been awhile since I've tasted your cooking. Let's see if you improved…"

I shrugged and just continue to cook as Spike and Buffy started talking. It only took a matter of minutes for Cordelia to make her appearance too. I glanced at her and saw her disoriented yawning and quickly sat down the chair. Her eyes were still half closed…

"Cook me bacon and ham with a couple of toasts…and some fresh juice…"

I turned to her and frowned.

"What the hell am I?! You're servant?!"

"Well…as long as you're standing there…you might as well be…"

I glared at her as Buffy stood up and walked towards me.

"I'll help…"

I sighed and all plan to kill Cordelia vanished in my mind. That's what she does to me…she makes me melt with just a look…I just hope that 'that' look would last forever…

Buffy's POV

I'm left here in the big house, sitting at the couch watching TV. Faith said she have to go somewhere and promised to be back soon. I know something's bothering her…so I just let her go thinking that she might need space…though I do miss her now.

I sighed as I continue to flip channels…bored. Cordelia left too saying that she have to get her stuff from the hotel. That left me with Tara, Willow and Spike. Well…actually it just left me with Spike because Tara and Willow are outside the garden…probably talking.

I frowned and looked at Spike also frowning watching TV.

"Aren't you bored?"

He turns to look at me and raised his eyebrow.

"And what if I am?"

I smiled at him.

"Let's go outside…it's boring here…"

"You can't go outside with your wings sticking out of your back…people might…freak out or something…"

I grinned at him and started wiggling my eyebrows…Faith style.

"They won't…"

Faith's POV

I don't know where I'm heading…I'm just walking in circles thinking. I just…couldn't stop thinking of Buffy. I just told her that I'd do something coz I want to be alone for awhile…to think of what I should do.

I sighed and stopped walking when I noticed something on my right. I turn to look at my side and saw a church. I stared at it for awhile and decided to go inside…

Buffy's POV

"Faith's gonna bloody kill me for doing this…"

"No she won't…you're exaggerating…"

I said as I continue to pull his arms towards the street. I borrowed his trench coat which seems to cover most of my wings. Though if you look at my back…it is big…but nonetheless…it still covers my wings…or some of it. We didn't tell Tara and Willow where we're going because they might not let me go. I even begged for Spike to let me out…and after so much begging…he finally agreed but he said that he'll come too. I agreed and walked out the house. It only took us 10 minutes of walking until he started saying that this wasn't a good idea and that we should get back. That was also when I started pulling him…

Spike turned to me and frowned.

"I'm not! It seems that you don't really know your girlfriend huh?"

I couldn't help but roll my eyes and continue to pull him.

"I know her. I've been watching her since she was born remember…? I know everything about her. I can read her like a book. Like now…I know she's thinking about something…and that she wants to be alone for awhile…"

He stooped and raised his eyebrow at me.

"Why didn't you stop her?"

"How can I? When…she won't tell me what's bothering her…"

Spike laid his hand on my shoulder and smiled slightly.

"She will eventually…don't worry about it…"

I nodded and smiled slightly. Spike is nice even when Faith was with her years ago. He acted as her brother and even now…that hasn't changed. Knowing that he would do anything for her…it makes me happy that Faith has found real friends that would protect and make her happy.

We stood like that for awhile until I pulled him again forward. He groaned but didn't fight anymore and just followed my lead. We continue walking ahead when I saw a lady and her child…a girl walking ahead of her. She was holding a brown bag while her child was holding a ball.

"Rose…don't play by the street. Just stay at the side walk…"

The woman said as she walked behind her child who was dribbling a ball. The woman was carrying a brown bag that seems to be having the hard time because it looks heavy. The little girl…who was about I think 4 years old…didn't seem to hear her and just continue to dribble the ball.

I watch the child for awhile and couldn't help but smile as I remember Faith when she was a child. I was happy watching over her…but that couldn't compare to what I'm feeling now that I'm beside her and that she's beside me. But…could it really last?

I sighed and continue to walk when I stopped and heard the loud sirens. That's when I saw a car being chased by the police heading fast at the street. I frowned and glanced at the child who was still dribbling the ball. I watch her dribbling while the loud sirens were echoing the street. The ball hit her feet which made it travel on the middle of the road.

I watch as the events happened fast. Like a slow motion…I watch Spike yelled as he saw the child going to the ball with the two cars moving towards her. The mother also yelling and dropped her bag as she watch was happening.

I quickly ran towards the girl who was now on the middle of the road picking up the ball. When I reached her, I quickly hugged her and shielded her from the two cars that were inches from us.

The only words that I kept chanting on my head were…

'God…help me…'

Faith's POV

I slowly entered the holy place and looked around. It's been awhile since I've been in a place like this. When I was a child…I used to sleep here and some of the priests would give me food. But I'd run away in the morning. I just continue to run away…

I sighed and sat down at the seats at the far end. I stared at the altar for awhile and closed my eyes silently asking my prayer that was on my head…

'God…if you really are up there…watching every one of us…guiding us…would it be so much to ask you if Buffy could stay here…with me? I…I know I don't have much…faith in you…coz I hardly ever come here…but…I'd gladly do anything if you just…let Buffy stay here. I love her…and I don't want to lose another love one. She and mom…are the only one's who love me…and if I loose her…I…I don't know what I'd do…'

I sighed and opened my eyes, frowning.

"Geeez…I feel stupid…"

I said softly looking at the floor. It's the first time in a long time since I've prayed again…

I sighed and looked at the altar again.

"Why do you feel stupid?"

I heard someone say behind me. I frowned and turn behind me to see an old man smiling.

"Excuse me?"

"I asked…why do you feel stupid?"

Slowly he moved towards me and sat beside me looking ahead with a mysterious smile on his face. I didn't answer him as I continue to stare at him. He turns to me still smiling.

"Since you won't answer my question…I'll make a guess."

Still I didn't talk still wondering why the old man is here talking to me.

"You are feeling stupid because…you are talking to the one person whom you ignored so many years…which you didn't know was watching over you, always…and now that you finally here…talking to him and asking him to do something that might change your life forever…that's asking a lot if you ask me…"

I stared at the old man surprised that somehow…he knew what I felt.

"Did I get it right?"

His mysterious smile seems to be indicating me that somehow…he's not an ordinary old man. I frowned again.

"Who are you…?"

Again his smile didn't fade as he looked at me in the eye.

"I am that person you are talking to…the person whom you ignored for so many years…the person who completely has faith in you but you don't have faith with...the person who brought Buffy here. Now, it is your turn to make a guess who I am…"

My eyes went wide with realization as to who he was…

"Y-you're…God…?"

Buffy's POV

I continue to hold her tight with my eyes closed. The sirens were slowly fading and the only person that I'm hearing were Spike and another woman yelling. Slowly, I opened my eyes and was surprised to see the cars were gone now and was far away from us, still chasing each other. I slowly pulled away from the girl I'm holding to see her looking at me crying.

"Buffy! Are you alright?!"

I let go of the child and stood up facing Spike.

"I-I'm fine…"

He let out s sigh and smiled slightly. I turn to the girl who was now being held by her mother who was also crying. I frowned and turn to Spike, confused.

"What happened?"

"You didn't know?"

I shook my head. He scratched his hair looking where the car was.

"The two cars…passed through you as if you were…a ghost or something. It's pretty cool…and terrifying at the same time. Don't ever do that again or Faith will kill me!!"

He sounded angry and worried at the same time. I smiled and told him again that Faith will not kill him trying to calm him down. He just frowned at me mumbling something.

I ignored it and turned to the mother and child who were still hugging each other. The child saw me which made the mother look too. She slowly stood up and removed her tears using her hanky. She turns to me and gasped.

I looked at her confused as to why she looks like she'd seen a ghost…which probably she did. It took her awhile to shake her head and frowned at me looking bewildered.

"Anne? I-Is that…you? But…it can't be…but…you look like her…"

"I…I'm sorry…but you must've mistaken me from someone else…"

I said to her but still she stared at me looking at me, studying my face. She shook her head again and smiled slightly.

"You're right…you can't be her. Anyway…my name is Dawn…Dawn Summers…"

Her name…somehow…deep inside me…it feels familiar. I shook that thought away and told her my name and Spikes. She nodded and took my hand.

"Thank you for saving my daughter. Would you like to come to my house and have some tea? Please? It's near here…"

I looked at Spike silently asking him what to do. He just shrugged. I sighed and nodded my head. She looks so happy at my reply that she jumped a little. I couldn't help but smile at her…but somehow…again I felt like I know her…from somewhere…

AN: Sorry…another bad cliffy.