A/N: These are my poems - written about SGa characters yes, but still mine, hence copyrighted and no archiving anywhere else without my permission.
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Highly angsty Rodney PoV.
The Price
When did I stop feeling and start lying?
When did denial become the truth and the lies the norm?
When did I ignore the ache in my heart and say it will all go away if I just...
Did it work as well?
Did ignorance do its job?
Or did my conscience get in the way of that sweet bliss
The hit and miss of my method
Because I thought perhaps.
Maybe.
Someday I might believe
If only I could repeat it enough
If only I said it every day to my face
And I saw no doubt in the mirror;
That it could well be reality
When did I begin to feel again and start dying?
When did the tears begin to fall, despite my denying?
Because I never noticed it at all
Or so I say, so I say to everyone
And they don't know why it happens now
Why I can't keep quiet, why I can't stand by and watch her fall
Because I was always opinionated, couldn't stop myself from saying what was on my mind
Except that one belief, hidden even from me
And now all they see is a man on his knees
Begging to a god who he can't please
Praying in his own arrogant way
Forgetting convieninetly that he doesn't have faith in anyone
Only her, her spirit as it fades
Something that he wants to save
He couldn't rescue himself from himself
His torture his pain
But she's the last hope of his
The sanity in his craziness
Holding onto to her incase.
Incase...
They're on the floor
They're on the stage
An audience
The act over
But no applause
Waiting for the hero
Waiting for the miracle
Waiting for something to bring them back to life
Back to how things used to be, when nobody knew what was going on
Need to know and no one used to
Wasn't it better that way?
Wouldn't it be good if nothing ever changed.