DISCLAIMER: I don't own Inuyasha you all should know that by now. .

Hi, I'm in love with this song, I don't know its name or who made it, I just like it! So peaceful yet deathful. Is there such a word? 'Deathful' there should be, here it is in a dictionary:

(Vrb) deathful (adj.) 1: the act of liking and expressing death and related topics. The boy was deathfulling at the meeting. 2: (adj.) to be deathful in ur being. The deathful girl spread her ideas of hate around the school.

Forget it… it was worthless information. You shouldn't have read it. I shouldn't have written it. But I had good intentions…I promise.

Enjoy!

Ch.3 'poison'

Meanwhile, Ryonsa takes a drink from his teacup on the table.

"So what's with that girl, you know the older one. You told me about Rin already. So why is that older girl here?"

"She baby-sits Rin at times, she's not that important."

"She smells of Inuyasha, why is that?"

"She's his wench."

"Oh I see. So why do you let her live?"

"I don't see any real reason to kill her, she gets along well with Rin and if I did kill her Rin would be upset."

"Yes, but isn't she an ally to Inuyasha, isn't that reason enough to destroy her?"

"I want to kill Inuyasha, why would I care if she lived or not. If she gets in my way I'll cut her down, if she stays back what do I care if she walks the earth?"

"But if you murdered her it would be a terrible blow to his pride."

"So, I do not care for his pride."

"Sesshoumaru, you're hard to figure out."

"…"

"You know she is not bad for a mortal, I'm sure you have noticed that."

"Perhaps…she is a reincarnation from what I understand though."

"How do you know that?"

"Inuyasha loved another mortal before her, after she died she was brought back to life with a body of clay, as the rumors say. The essence of that priestess he loved and that woman is very similar. Although they are not the same."

"Wow, how close attention you have been paying to them."

Sesshoumaru glares at him coldly.

"Just kidding! But seriously why do you let her follow you around?"

" Why do I care where she goes, its her choice to come along as it is her choice to leave .how is Yumi copping?"

"Huh?"

"With her mother being gone?"

"Oh, she's not as talkative as she used to be, but I think Rin being here is helping her warm up to being with out her mother."

"Hm…"

The guys go down stairs to have dinner, later the three girls run in together, accompanying them. After dinner, Kagome goes in her room and gets dressed for bed.

'I wonder if Inuyasha has noticed that I'm not there. How can I keep thinking of that! While I'm here why cant I think about something else? Why is he always on my mind!' she lays down in her bed and turns off the light. Tossing and turning in her bed, Kagome turns to one side looking out the balcony window. Silver stars glow on the dark blue background; Kagome gets out of her bed and walks over to the window touching the glass with her hands.

She shivers at the sudden coldness of the glass but opens it and walks out leaning on the railing staring out into space. ' The moon its so…thin. That's the thinnest crescent moon I think I've ever seen, it's so beautiful.' Breathing in the cool night air she turns her head to see Sesshoumaru on his balcony looking out at the stars.

'Sesshoumaru…and he has his shirt off…what's he doing out here? You know he doesn't look all that scary when he's no trying to kill some one. And he doesn't look half-bad there, standing in the moonlight…AHH! WHAT AM I THINKING? STOP IT! STOP IT! NO! NO! STOP THINKING THAT! He's ugly! He's ugly! Stop thinking things like that! God!' Kagome suddenly notices he was staring at her for a little while.

She blushes a little bit and tries to look away hoping he turns around and goes back inside, because she's afraid if she tries to go back that she'll trip over herself. He turns around facing his door, given her last quick glance before he goes inside. She sinks to the ground, leaning up against the balcony railings.

"Why did I do that?"

' I could've said something. Now I feel just stupid. Oh well even if I did say something to him he'd probably just say something mean back or better yet cut off my head. What is wrong with me? I'm thinking all wrong I should just stop and go home right now.' Kagome walks into her room plopping down on her bed.

"Maybe I should just go home. What would it make a difference, if I was here anyway?"

The thought lingers in her mind until she drifts off into sleep. The next morning Kagome feels a push at her shoulder; she opens her eyes to a maid looking down on her.

"Miss, it is time to wake up. Breakfast is already ready and it would be a shame if you were to be late."

"Umm… OK. I'm up."

Kagome falls out off her bed and stumbles to get dressed. After she finishes getting dressed she goes down stair to eat. Sitting down at the table there is a heavy silence as they wait for the two girls to come. After eating the three decide to leave for home. Yumi and Ryonsa watch them leave, waving good bye.

"Daddy?"

"Yes."

"May I go with Rin and Sesshoumaru and stay with them for a while?"

"If you can catch up to them."

" Thanks! I love you! Bye! I'll be back!"

Rin waits for Yumi as she races for her. Sesshoumaru waits for the two from a distance away with Kagome slightly in front of him. As they walk back Yumi and Rin take the rear Jaken and Ah Un are in the middle as Kagome follows Sesshoumaru slightly behind him.

'That's nice that Yumi's coming along, but I think when we get near the village I want to go back. I don't want to be gone for too long, Inuyasha will get suspicious and besides it's already been three days and maybe five by the time we get back there. I don't feel right around him, it feels wrong…when I'm standing next to Sesshoumaru even though I know its only because I am following him. I feel as if I'm not being true to Inuyasha. What if he saw me walking around with them? What would he say? I know what he'd say and do. He'd get in a fight with Sesshoumaru although for now reason and not let me here the end with it, even though its no big deal. But I have to admit, I do feel a bit…safe…well as safe as safe gets around Sesshoumaru that is. I'm only worried about him turning around and killing me (that's why I'm being quit.) but I cant say I'm really worried about sleeping when he's awake at night and getting attacked by a demon. Does he even sleep? I haven't seen him, I wonder if he has to sleep…maybe he doesn't have to sleep as much as other people. And I wonder where he got those marks on his face. I mean Inuyasha doesn't have them, so it makes me wonder what Sesshoumaru's mother must have looked like. I wonder if she was as collected and cold as he is.'

"Why do you stay with Inuyasha?" Sesshoumaru says, breaking the silence.

"Huh! Umm…I…"

"You don't have to answer if you don't want to."

"…OK…"

'I couldn't even say anything to him! How pathetic can I get! I can curse him out when were on the battlefield! Why can't I say anything to him now? Every time I try to talk to him, I chock. I cant talk, I can't breath I feel like someone's strangling me, like he's strangling me.'

They walk along a river, the two little girls skipping rocks in the water as they walk. After a while they camp at a cave behind a waterfall. Sesshoumaru looks off into the distant sky. ' That girl, I wonder what's on her mind. She seems so care free at times but once in a while she looks like she's suffering inside. As if, something is eating away at her soul. I can't stop but think if it has anything to do with Inuyasha and her position with him. I never thought about it before but maybe she doubts herself. May be she doubts her life.' Rin and Yumi splash around in the water, trying to catch fish.

Kagome sits with her knees pulled up to her chest, hugging them in a daze. Sesshoumaru sits on the opposite side of the cave leaning up against the wall, looking out at the land beyond. The wind blows quietly threw the cave causing Kagome's hair to flow to one side. She lies down beside the fire on a small blanket and closes her eyes. 'Right now, I think I'm perfectly happy, I'm not cold, I'm not in danger (unless I give Sesshoumaru a reason for killing me!), I'm relaxed and I don't think I could be anymore happier in this world even if Inuyasha was here instead of his brother. Maybe …if I could some how be able to…I could stay home for a little while longer than usual … and get a nice long break from this life of travel…but I don't think Inuyasha would let me…no I know he wouldn't. I wish I could be a little kid again, that way I didn't have to do all this and worry about everything. But then if I were wouldn't I have to grow back up again? And if I did, then I wonder if my memories would be different. Would I forget times before and only remember the new? This is crazy, why am I thinking this? There's no use in trying… to… forget…' Kagome drifts off into a pleasant sleep just as the sun sets across the sky.

A gently ray of sunshine beats down on Kagome's face, making her eyes flutter open before she can be waked by the girls. She smells the air that carries the scent of burnt wood, which was in the spot in front of her. Rin holds out her hand, smiling as she helps her up. Sesshoumaru is already out of the cave Jaken running after him with Ah Un. The three girls rush to catch up as well, Yumi tripping over her kimono on the way. This time the girls walk together, occasionally throwing flowers and leaves at each other and chasing one another around until one gets tired and has to stop.

The wind blows some leaves off the trees, making a leaf fall on Kagome's head. She combs threw her hair, pulling out the leaf and holding it in her hand. Suddenly they reach the top of the hill and look below, at the breath taking view. The wind, blowing the leaves around the small river and through the bamboo surrounding it. They continue to walk on, almost too soon it is sun down, but since they are so close to home Sesshoumaru decides to keep walking until they get there. Passing the village Kagome suddenly stops, looking through the trees to the tiny gathering of houses beyond.

"I think…I should go now…"

Everyone turns around, some looking rather surprise than others. Rin runs over to her followed by Yumi.

"But you can't leave!"

"I…"

Sesshoumaru stands behind them calmly, then speaks as a hush spreads over the land.

"Rin I think that's enough, its her choice if she would rather leave. You can't make her stay."

"But you can!"

"…Rin…"

End of chapter three. The title didn't go with the chapter. But who ever said it had to? I'd like to meet them, along with the person who created grammar. Cause grammar has never been on my side, its out to destroy me. I swear. Please review, it makes me smile.

C ya!

.-saquin