Hey guys! The chap 9 of Lifeblood is now up! I've got lots of reviews saying 'the cliffhanger is bad'. Hehe. I'll try not to use cliffhangers any more. Sorry to have kept you guys wait for more than a week at the cliffhanger. But now is like the busiest days of my life.... School work and college tests are just taking lots of my time. Ah... I have to start studying for the next college exam soon. Bugger. Oh BTW, I updated the new chap of my other fic, "My Private Tutor", a couple days ago. Please check thatfic too!!

Angel saw his boy ran out of the club wiping his eyes with his hands. Shit, he was fucked.

Angel jumped up from his sat to follow the blond teen. But he was grabbed on his arm by the petite blond girl.

"Where are you going?" Buffy asked with a confused frown on her face, also standing up from her seat.

"Let me go, Buffy." The brunette stated strongly in an angry voice, turning his head to look at his ex-girlfriend. He did not have time to mess around with her right now. He needed to follow Spike and explain about what he saw to him.

"What? Did I do anything wrong?" the blond asked demandingly not wanting the brunette to go. The grip became even stronger and tighter.

"Yeah, you fucking did! So just get the fuck off me!!" Angel growled loudly giving the blond a furious glare. He did not even care if he was acting too harsh to her. He just did not give a damn about anything other than his beautiful boy right now.

Buffy let go her hold on Angel's arm in shock and fear. She had never seen Angel acting like that before. Even when he had broken her heart in public, he had not been so cruel and harsh. He had never given her a murderous glare or growl.

Angel dashed out of the club leaving the stunned blond alone. He did not see the sight of his blond boy around the club. He had no idea where Spike might have gone but he did not care. His mind was screaming to find the boy.

Spike was waking down a street with tears rolling out of his eyes. The more tears he wiped away, the more filled his eyes. He could not get the picture of Angel kissing the blond girl out of his mind. His heart arched every time he thought about Angel. He had known him for a couple of days, but the brunette had become the world to him.

After about 10 minutes of walking, he began to feel uneasy. He looked around the surroundings but did not recognize anything. "Bloody marvelous. Now I'm sodding lost." He mumbled to himself. He had no idea where he was but he could guess he was not in the best part of the city from the look of the buildings around him. He suddenly felt so alone and frightened. He missed the strong arms and body around him. He hugged himself tightly trying to comfort himself. More tears rolled down his cheeks.

He kept walking not knowing where to go. He needed to find out where exactly he was and how to get back to his cousin's place. He suddenly felt terribly tired and did not think he could walk any longer. Then he found a small park and decided to sit down and have a short rest. He was not sure if he could go back to his cousin's place at all.

He walked into the park and found no one there. He sat down on an empty bench near a drinking fountain in the middle of the park. He was now feeling sick from crying so hard. He wondered if he would ever run out of tears. No matter how much he cried, the tears never seemed to stop.

He was scared and frightened, being alone in a huge city like LA. His soul was desperately calling for Angel, for him to hold him closely and tell him that everything would be ok. He was not sure when he grew so vulnerable and dependent to Angel. He gave a sarcastic chuckle. 'This is all his bloody fault in the first place. If he hadn't kissed that bitch, I wouldn't be even here now. He has to be still making out with the bitch and not even caring that I'm gone.' The thought made him even more sad and miserable.

'Oh hell, Angel. It hurts, my heart hurts. I can't make it go away. Why did you hurt me like that? What was I to you? Was I just an annoying ignorant kid? A stupid little blond to fuck around with? I thought you were everything to me. I didn't want anything if I had you. But I guess you never wanted me like I wanted you. Oh god, Angel. I think I love you.'

He sobbed even harder and hysterically till he fell asleep from exhaustion.

Angel was now running around the city looking for Spike. He first went to Wesley's place since that was where the blond now lived and Angel thought he would most likely be there. He waited there for the blond teen to return for a half hour. But he saw now sign of him coming back home and grew incredibly worried and distressed. He could not help thinking something bad had happened to Spike. This late hour in LA was quite dangerous and Spike had absolutely no sense of direction around here.

The brunette swore under his breath and dialed his friend's number.

"Wes. You guys all still at the Caritas?" He asked when he heard the other end of the line picked the phone up.

"Angel? Where are you now? You just left with out telling us anything. What happened?" Wesley shouted worriedly.

"I'll explain later but now just listen. Spike's gone and he's not at your place. I think he hasn't been back from the Caritas and he can be in trouble. I'm gonna look for him in the city but I don't think I can look everywhere by myself." Angel said as calmly as he could since he did not want to upset his friend. But there was an obvious tension and impatience in his voice.

"Good God. We'll go look for him too." the English guy said hastily.

"Call me when you find him, alright?" the chocolate-eyed brunette said strongly.

"OK. Angel."

Angel hung up the phone as soon as he heard that and started running out of the porch of Wesley's house.

Angel had been to everywhere he thought Spike might have been. He asked the kids wandering around the city if they had seen a peroxide blond teen but the answers were no. He was not sure how long he had been running around the city and he did not care. What mattered to him right now was the blond boy's welfare and nothing else. He prayed every holy beings that Spike was safe and not in any troubles or accidents.

'Oh god. Spike... Please be safe. I don't think I can go on if something happened to you. I just can't lose you...'

As time went by, Angel could not help feeling desperate. Some gruesome mental images came to his mind. The one with Spike being alone and scared to death. The one with Spike being beaten to a bloody pulp by some attackers. The one with spike crying hard in pain when a brutal man... He shook his head roughly to get rid of those stupid images. He needed to believe that Spike was ok and safe, so he told himself.

Angel now could see the dawn was near. His whole body ached from running around all night. But he dared not stop. He needed to find his boy before those images came true. The images again popped up in his head. He really had to get those images off his mind.

He thought it was good idea to splash some cold water on his face to forget those bad images and focus on finding him. So he walked into a nearby park to look for a drinking fountain.

There.

He finally found him.

His beautiful boy was there lying down on a bench and curling into a ball. The boy was trying to be as small as possible by holding his arms around his legs tightly. He seemed to be asleep and there were clear tear streaks on his cheeks.

Angel's eyes were soon filled with tears in joy and could not help dashing to the blond boy. He gathered the small body in his arms and hugged him tightly not wanting him to go away ever again. "I'm sorry, Spike. I'm so sorry." Angel mumbled softly stroking the boy's blond head tenderly.

"Angel?" a soft unsure voice asked.

The older brunette looked down and saw Spike now staring up at him in the eyes. The blond teen's eyes were so red and bloodshot from crying so hard the previous night. Some tears were formed in Spike's eyes again.

"Yes. Baby, I'm here. Oh god. I'm so sorry. I don't know how to apologize you enough. Hell. I'm such a helpless stupid jerk. I promised you I wouldn't hurt you but I did. Baby, I'm so sorry." Angel apologized with tears rolling down his face. His heart ached just looking at the boy being so broken and hurt. And what caused the boy so much pain was him. He hurt the boy so badly. He hurt someone he never wanted to harm in any way.

"Angel... You came! You came looking for me!" Spike said trying to keep back his tears and threw his arms around the brunette's neck and hugged him closely. He burst into tears when he felt Angel held him tighter. "I was alone and so scared. I ran out of the club but got lost and didn't know how to get back home. God. I was so frightened."

"Shh. Baby, it's ok. I'm here. I'm here with you. You're not alone any more. I'm now here to take care of you, baby. Shh" Angel soothed the boy using comforting words and voice. He petted Spike's back lovingly and placed a soft gentle kiss on his forehead.

"I thought you wouldn't come. Thought you didn't care about me." the blond teen said sobbing uncontrollably, grasping the back of Angel's shirt tightly.

"God, I do care bout you, baby. I really do." The older guy stated honestly. He desperately wanted the boy to understand that he really cared about him. That he was the most important person in his life.

"Then, how could you? How could you hurt me like that?" Spike asked raising his head from the brunette's shoulder and staring at his chocolate orbs wretchedly. His blue eyes were filled with pain and despair.

Angel's heart was shattered by looking at the young boy's eyes. His usual crystal sky blue orbs were not there. They were dark and clouded with anguish and emptiness. "Jesus. I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you, sweetling." The brunette said caressing the boy's cheeks gently.

"But you kissed her." Spike said in a soft whisper. The memory brought him to tears again. He just wanted to erase the memory from his mind forever.

"No, I didn't. She kissed me. I pushed her away as soon as I got what was going on." Angel stated strongly, gazing at the boy's eyes intently. He did not know what to do to make the boy understand. What all he could do now was to explain what really happened.

"Are you telling the truth? You really didn't kiss her back?" the blond teen asked with a slight hope on his feature.

"I'm telling the truth, Spike. And I didn't kiss her back. I swear! It happened so suddenly and I couldn't do anything." Angel almost shouted at the boy. He was getting so emotional and intense that it was hard for him not to lose control over himself. When he saw the blond tense from his reaction, he came to himself. He used all his might to get a grip and calm down. "Oh, God. Baby, I didn't mean to snap at you. It's just... I..." He paused for a moment, and then said hesitantly, "I love you so much that I don't wanna lose you. I don't think I can go on without you, baby. I need you."

Spike stared at the brunette in shock and asked in a faint murmur, "You... love me?"

"Yes. I love you. I love you so much, Spike. I know we've met only a couple of days ago but I know I love you. Hell, I think I've loved you since I first saw you sing at the Caritas. At first, I didn't know what this feeling was coz it was all new to me. I've never loved anyone half as much as I now love you. I understand if you don't love me coz you've known me for so short time. Even if you hated me for what I've done, I can't blame you. But please believe me when I say I love you." the older brunette said firmly, fixing his eyes at the teen's blue ones and gently petting his blond hair.

"God, Angel. I love you too! I love you so much that my heart hurts when you're not with me. Please never leave me alone again." Spike said with pleading eyes on his face. Now they were shining happily and hopefully. He had just heard the words he desperately wanted to hear from Angel. He doubted he would ever be happier than he was now.

"I'll never leave you, baby. I'll always be there with you." Angel said reassuringly.

The older guy leaned in and captured the boy's full lips softly and gently. Spike parted his lips wanting the brunette's tongue in his mouth. Angel was happy to oblige. He thrust his tongue into the blonde's waiting mouth and their tongues met and twined hungrily. Spike's arms were around the older brunette's neck closely. Angel's hands traveled up and down Spike's clothes-clad back.

Their lips parted when the need for oxygen became a great problem. They panted heavily till they fully recovered from the passionate intense kiss.

"I love you, Spike." Angel said with a sweet smile on his face. He placed a soft peck on Spike's forehead lovingly.

"I love you more, Angel." Spike said grinning hugely.

Thanks for reading this chap too! I kinda wanted to write some fluffy moment between them. Did you like it?? Please review me and tell me if you had a good idea, opinion, suggestion etc! Reviews from you guys make me really happy and motivated! You guys are so cool and great! Thanks so much!

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