Chapter Five
Missing
As she opened the door and walked into her DADA classroom she saw Professor Lupin sitting behind a large pile of paper's, grading.
"Yes Ms. Granger?" he said.
"Uh, Professor...? Remus, I need to talk to you." she said with finality.
He looked up at her as soon as she said this.
"What is it Hermione? Is something wrong?" he asked curiously.
"Well nothing big. It's just that I really need your advice right now, and you're the only person that I could think of that could help me out in a situation like this." she said.
"Yes, go on." he said, pushing his papers aside and leaning forward.
"Well, to get to the point, it's about Ron. I've liked him for a really long time and just a couple weeks ago we talked about our feelings towards each other. It was great, a path was finally found, and then like a bad curse he told me that he wasn't quite ready for a relationship, and stupidly I told him that it was okay, but it wasn't. I didn't want to loose him when I only just got a hold of him, but I told him that it was alright and that I would rather wait than to force him into a decision or have a rushed relationship. And I knew that as soon as those words came out of my mouth, that I was doing the wrong thing, but still I didn't do nor say anything." she said.
"Hermione, when decisions are made, at times we cannot control what we are saying. Sometimes we say what our brain wants us to say, not what our heart wants us to say, it's quite uncontrollable. Now, you shouldn't scold yourself just for what you said, I have a feeling that the reason why Ron told you that he wasn't ready for a relationship was because he was flat out scared." Remus said.
"But, why? Why not just tell me, I mean I would understand completely, I wouldn't be upset or anything, he should know that." she said, getting even more confused.
"Look at it this way Hermione, out of nowhere you guys both are telling one another how much you like each other. So he was hit with big dose of reality and fast, so his first reaction was to close up and not let anyone in. It was all so new to him and he didn't know what to do, he was nervous and scared so he wanted to wait it out and see if time would help at all." he said.
"But the thing is that I think that he waited too long." she said.
"What do you mean by that?" he asked.
"I mean that last week Victor came to visit and I know for a fact that he likes me a lot. And now I really confused because I feel like I'm starting to like Victor but I know in my heart that I really love Ron. But I have a feeling that Ron is either getting mad at me or he doesn't like me anymore. I know that I would much rather be with Ron than with Victor." she said.
"But earlier, while Ron and I were sitting in the Great Hall he got a letter from someone and when he was done reading it he ripped it up and threw it into the fire and when I went up to comfort him he snapped at me and then he ran off, but I don't know where he went. I told Harry about it and he told me to try to calm down and he would try to find Ron, so I went ahead and came to you, for your help because I know that you know how a guy's mind works better that I do." she admitted.
"Well I'm not too sure about the letter part but I just think that he is upset about Victor coming and ruining everything for him. He just probably needed to go and cool off, I don't think that he ran away, he just didn't want to be around anyone right now. Although it is a good idea to find him as soon as possible and especially before dark because it's not safe at all for him to be out and alone. Listen Hermione, my advice to you is that if you really like him the way you say that you do than you need to go and find him and tell him how you feel. It doesn't matter whether you think if he is mad at you or that he doesn't like you anymore, you just need to set him down and tell him everything, and more than likely he'll feel the same way." he said.
"Really? You think so?" she asked.
"Yes really. Just do what your heart tells you to do." he said sweetly.
"Thank you so much Remus…I mean Professor!" she said, scrambling out of her chair hurriedly and sprinting towards the door.
"Don't mention it." he said smiling, and shaking his head slightly as he pulled his paperwork back towards him.
She ran back down to the Great Hall searching for him, not there; the library, not there; the Quidditch pitch, not there; Hagrid's, not there.
Where in the hell did he go? she thought frantically. The common room! Duh!
She streaked up the marble staircase and tore through the corridors. When she arrived at the fat lady, she couldn't breathe at all.
"Caput Draconis!" she panted.
"Catch your breath my young dear." she said tenderly.
"JUST OPEN THE DAMN DOOR!" she screamed, not caring what the fat lady thought.
"I don't know what is happening to today's youth…" she mumbled as she swung forward to let Hermione in.
When she first entered the common room she searched frantically for any sign of Ron or Harry. No one.
The dormitories!
She ran all the way up the staircase and began pounding on the door.
"HARRY, RON? WILL SOMEONE ANSWER THIS FUCKING DOOR-" she screeched.
The door opened and Harry was standing right in the doorway.
"Harry, thank god. Is Ron in there?" she asked trying to peer inside over his shoulder, "I really need to talk to him, like right now."
"No Hermione he's not in here. In fact, I don't have any idea where he is." he said slowly.
"What? I thought that you said that you were going to go and look for him and find him." she said, her breathing becoming very shallow.
"I know and I did but I couldn't find him anywhere. I just came up here to ask the others if they've seen him at all." he said.
"And…?" she asked breathlessly.
"And no one has seen him at all." he said, staring at the ground.
"Well we can't just sit here and do nothing about this. We have to go and try to look for him again, look harder. He has to be somewhere." she said quickly.
"Hermione, just calm down…" Harry began.
"No, I am not just going to sit here and do absolutely nothing." she said shaking from head to foot, "We need to do something. Come on!"
She grabbed Harry by the wrist and they were out the door. They ran through the common room pushing people out of the way, ignoring the rude comments they were making.
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