Chapter 4

"WAIT",cried out a small voice,breaking the silence.

Kagome turned just as the small bundle of fluff that was Shippo catapulted into her arms.

"Hm?",she asked,"what is it?".

"You're not gonna leave are you?",he asked giving her a pleading stare.he loved her,she was his mommy,mommies didn't just leave their children.They couldn't leave their children!

"I have to",she said solemnly,"I don't want to,but I have to".

"Why!",he screamed,"WHY DO YOU HAVE TO LEAVE!".

"Because Shippo look at me! i don't wanna hurt you! If I did something to hurt you I could never forgive myself and truthfully you have no idea how many time I've had the urge..." she trailed off.

' the urge to drink you', she finished in her mind.

Shippo took a minuet,but then looked up at her horrified with understanding.Everyone knew.

"b-besides,it would make shard hunting a lot harder.You forget I am vulnerable too sunlight.So I have to leave you.I'm a vampire now and so,I can no longer stay with my old life here or at home".

Silent blood tears trickled down her pale face.

"Make me".

"What?",she asked baffled.looking down at the child in her arms.

"Make me one too!",he demanded,"let me be a vampire too!".

"NO!",she yelled at him for the first time in her life,"I WON'T! I WON'T LET YOU SUFFER THIS WAY! I WON;'T LEAVE YOU WITH THE REGRET OF YOUR DECISION! I WON'T FORCE THE GUILT TO FEASTING ON OTHERS LIVES UPON YOU!...

( A/N: I still hate the word upon )

I CAN NEVER DO THAT TO YOU SHIPPO NEVER!".

She stared down at him,tears falling freely from her eyes onto the ground in crimson pools.she dropped to her knees,wrapping her arms protectively around her body.her form shook with every sob she uttered.

'the pain,the hurt it's all true! It's all true I'm alone with my guilt and sorrows and regrets.I need somebody,but nobody is there.Mom's dead,Sota took her life,grandpa's too, I'm left being a filthy creature of the darkness,i hate myself,i hate my life! Damn it all to hell!'

"Kagome",Sango said,placing her hand on her friends shoulder,"Kagome I understand,but that doesn't mean we won't miss you".

She just sniffled.

"Yes Lady Kagome",Miroku agreed.

"uh'corse",Inuyasha said too,sitting down besides her.

'Inuyasha', she thought,' all of you how can you stand me?'.

"How can you stand me?".she voiced her thoughts.

"You're our friend",Sango said hugging her closer,Inuyasha doing the same from he back,Miroku taking over her left side,and Shippo claiming her lap. Kagome let out a breath and smiled a shaky,shallow,but heartfelt smile.

"Okay",she sighed,"but I do have to go.The sun's coming up".

Shippo whimpered and she patted his head," Will we ever see you again?"

" Maybe, I promise, I will see you again. But there is somewhere I have to go and you might not see me for a while alright. But I promise you will see me again"

With that she kissed his head,hugged her friends, and left off in the opposite direction of the sunrise. Into the shadows.Into the dark,where the blood sucking creature she was belonged.She had to face it. She was impure. But maybe... she could do something about that...
Alright people. There is more to come in the chronicals of our vampires life, and a lot happens with a lot of sad parts. But unless I get at least 15 reviews in all,that will never happen. C'mon,just 7 more reviews to add to my 8 and i'l post the next chappie!