Yay! Yesterday was me b-day! (dec 3) go me!
Dissappear: thanks for reviewing. And the notebook stories do have a meaning. I hate being like everyone else so yes I'll try to get some edge into it. Good luck on your story
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MutantChick17: lol. Go blondes! This is my first time actually replying. Lol.
Rini Suichi: lol. Im wearin that shirt right now. It's a great shirt. I love writing poems but I never have ideas about what to write about, except for what if today, that one was just a random thought. Could you give me some ideas? Thanks. If your ideas you want to use ill make it D
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Mew-xena- lol. Why are you always the first to review? Lol. I wanted to do more with jealousy but I was tired and lazy and didn't. lol
Raven was writing again. She loved writing. Her notebook was full now. She had gotten a new one at the drugstore. Raven wrote about everything. Sometimes even nothing. She wrote about rain, racism, bits of her life, and just stuff. Raven's current poem was about nothing.
When I was young
I fell in love
with nothing.
Nothing had
my heart.
I was a moody
unpleasant youth;
even my mother
disliked me.
What are you
brooding about?
she'd ask.
Nothing
I'd answer.
For once, she
approved.
You're good
for nothing,
she said, and
nothing is good
enough for you.
When I was a child
nothing was everywhere.
It lay thick on leaves
and gathered in pools
under cedar trees.
Nothing filled
our barns
and grazed our pastures.
Nothing was so abundant
we never thought
to praise or prize it.
Those days are gone
forever. Now nothing
is scarce
and we lack for nothing.
Writing was the only thing keeping Raven alive. She had no friends. Starfire and Beast Boy were always around Terra and if Starfire wasn't with terra she was with Robin and Cyborg. Raven was always alone. Alone with her thoughts and her notebook.
Raven had been burning herself with cigarettes. The pain helped. Helped with Terra, Starfire, Robin, Cyborg and Beast Boy. Helped ease the pain. She thought about cutting herself but that just seemed nasty.
Ha, Raven thought I can burn myself with cigarette butts, but I cant cut myself.
Raven wanted to tell someone, anyone, how she felt. But she couldn't, so she wrote.
What do you think it feels like?
Never being able to laugh?
Never being able to cry?
how do you think I feel,
When I say good-bye?
I cant feel anything,
Its just not right,
To keep my emotions,
Locked up so tight
I cant yell,
I cant scream,
I cant love,
I cant beam
I cant feel anything,
Its just not right,
To keep my emotions,
Locked up so tight
So im gonna yell,
Im gonna scream,
Im gonna cry,
Im gonna beam,
And im gonna love
I cant feel anything,
Its just not right,
To keep my emotions,
Locked up so tight
Beast Boy was the only one who knew about Raven's notebook. He read it daily. He knew he shouldn't but he felt like he was getting to know her more. He didn't know if her writings were songs or just poems or fictional stories or things that had happened to Raven or someone she knew.
Beast Boy wanted to ask Raven so many questions. But he knew that if he did, Raven would kill him. He wanted to ask Raven why she was always wearing long black turtle necks and long black pants all the time. He knew she was a Goth, so it wasn't the black that made him worry, sometimes she would wear fun tee-shirts that said fun things like 'life's a four letter word' or 'emily's cat can kick your cats butt' or 'this is the moment when even the white man starts dancing' (I have both those shirts!) now, all she wore were long things that completely covered her body. He didn't know why this scared him, but he kind of missed reading the quotes on Ravens shirts.
He wanted to ask her why she shut herself out from everyone know, well more then normal anyway, and he wanted to ask her why the only thing she did was write in her notebook and why she never talked to anyone anymore. Beast Boy wanted to ask Raven so many things…
Well, that's it. Sorry it was so short. Well it was short if you don't count the poems and writing. And I hope you know that ravens first story im not gonna finish so if you want to know the ending you have to read it, its called 'The Auction' its another one of my stories. But that stories gonna have some meaning so make sure you read it if you plan on continuing reading my story! Thanks everyone and please review! and angst will be in the next chapter! i love angst... lol