This is the chapter I said you might hate me for. If you do, just know that it was needed.

Falling...

I reach our dorm and I hadn't heard anyone falling me. I go into my nightstand and grab a tablet, a pen, and two bottles. I run to the bathroom. I lock the door and collapse on to the cold tile. And then, I start to write the letter I'll be remembered by.

Dear everyone,

As I sit here and write I think of everything I've been through. I lost my own true life. I do not know anything about myself. I do not understand why I was chosen to follow my mother. If I could go back in time, I would have had the cord cut before I left my sanctuary. No I am giving into my emotions. I can't take it. I hate myself. I hate everybody. And most likely, I would've been killed by Voldemort anyhow. There is no way in hell I will give my life for the Boy-Who-Wouldn't-Die or to Voldie for that matter. As many of you amy know, I a pureblood. As many of you don't know, I am also Lupin's daughter. No I didn't get good grades cuz of that. No one was there to catch me when I fell. No one listened. No one heard my cries during the night. No one saw the blood. No one except one. And now after I confess my soul, I'll never see him again. So I sit and cry wishin' I'd die. Oh wait! I'm about to flip the switch myself. How lovely. Well, I have a few words to tell the people who have helped me or pushed me. Harry, bastard. Ron, prick. Ginny, sry. Dad, sry. Jake, burn in hell. Draco, always and forever. Dumbledore, you helped me to get to this point in my powers. Mcgonagal, I really never liked you... Snape, torture those damn Gryffindors 4 me. Anyone else I missed, if I didn't like you, oh well. If I did, sry. If you didn't like me, drink that I go to hell. If you did, cry weep, whatever. I probably never liked you anyways.

Jake, the fag who raised me, helped me along to make my depression and thoughts into reality. Rape, rage, and alcoholism were major factors... and those were just his aspects! I got the alcoholism from him though. Oh well. Now as I was saying, I think, I need to say a few more things. Harry and Ron, replace me with Ginny if you already haven't. I know that Harry was fucking her behind my back but, just so you two can be closer, take a few galleons and buy a pack of condoms. Draco... I spilled my heart to you. Never again. Ever. I hate you now. I hate everything about you, your egotistical mind, and your prick of a father for making you this way. If you ever get the balls, bitch slap his Death Eater ass for me. That is, if you ever stand up to your demon. I couldn't. And I know this won't be Draceo and Hermiette because you hate me and my bitchy ass. I understand, I do- did too.

From, Love, Hate,

Your Angel, Your Friend, Your encyclopedia, Your toy,

Hermione Jane Lupin 11:03 pm

I open the two bottles and down the liquid first. Vodka. Then I down the other bottle of potion. A special potion that I had researched for this momentous ocasion. A potion that, when mixed with vodka, can kill. Everything starts to get fuzzy... What am I doing! I can't die. I-I can't...

( TOLD FROM HERE- UNTIL OTHERWISE STATED- IN THIRD PERSON!)

She collapsed to the floor just as the door opened to their common room.

" Hermione! Where are you? Come on I just wanna talk to you!" Drao called. He went into the room and she wasn't there. He stepped out onto the balcony, not there either. He looked in the spa room and she wasn't there either. He then looked in the only room he hadn't... the bathroom. " Hermione you in here?" he asked and tapped the door. No answer. He knocked again and finally tried to open the door but it was locked. " Alohamora!" he said and the door unlocked. He walked in and screamed at the top of his lungs. " Hermione!" he saw the two bottles by her hand and the note in her other. Her grabbed the note and read it quickly. " Oh my god!" he screamed and tried to wake her. " Hermione, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. Please wake up!" he couldn't wake her so he checked for a pulse. He couldn't feel it. " NOOOOOO!" he scraemed and picked her up. He ran her all the way to the Hospital wing. " HELP! HELP!" Draco called as he reached the room.

" My dear what happened?"

" Hermione- kill herself- no pulse- please help her!" He screamed through his tears.

" Lay her on one of the beds." he did. " Now, get Mr. Potter, Mr. Weasley, Miss Weasley, and any of her other close friends."

" She doesn't like them too much..."

" Just get them and anyone else that she is super close to."

" Ok." He ran out the door. First he ran into the new Golden Trio. "Hermione's in the hospital wing!"

" So?"

" She tried to kill herself."

" WHAT!" they ran to the hospital wing. He then got some of the Slytherin's that she had grown close to over the last few weeks. When he was done, 9 people, including Draco, were piled into the waiting room.

" How could you let her do that to herself!" Ron said. Draco didn't answer. He couldn't answer. Why couldn't he protect her? He should have let her kill that son of a bitch. Then it hit him.

" LUPIN!" he screamed, "Harry, acio your Marauder's Map."

" Why?"

" So I can find her father!" he did and Draco ran to the area where it said he was. " Lupin, Hermione tried to kill herself! She's in the Hospital wing! You should go to her!" they ran out and all the way there.

" Poppy where is she!"

" In here!" she called back. Lupin then ran to the room and closed the door.

After a minute of silence Draco spoke up, " She left a note..."

" Well read it for us!" Harry said.

" Ok. You might not like it though..." he read it and some cried. Harry, Ron, and Ginny were still. They looked at him with wide eyes. "Told-"

" SHE LOVED YOU! SHE FUCKING LOVED YOU! HOW DARE YOU! HOWFUCKINGDARE YOU! YOU MESSED WITH HER MIND AND HER HEART AND YOU MADE HER DO THIS!" harry screamed and tackled Draco to the gound.

" HARY STOP!" Ginny cried.

" PUNCH HIM ONE TIME FOR ME!" Ron screamed. Draco flipped over so Harry was pinned under his weight.

" Stop. Potter. This was not my fault. My dad was there and I could not tell her the tru-" He stopped, " My dad! Voldemort! Fuck!" he ran to the room and ran into Lupin.

" What happened out here?"

" Nothing. How is she?"

" Borderline. It is up to her if she wants to live now or not."

" Ok. Voldemort might be after her. We ran into my father on the grounds."

" I know. I saw. You were lucky Hermione saved you. I also heard what she said to you. I know you don't like her that way, but just, if she pulls through, be there for her. Please?"

" Yes. Of course."

" You can go in now."

" Thanks..." Draco said and stepped in. Potion bottles were lying everywhere and Hermione just layed there looking like she was in a deep sleep. " Hermione..." he let a tear slip past his eyelashes. "Please come back now. You can't leave me now..." he grabbed her hand and slowly drifted off into a restless sleep.