Like Toy Soldiers, a gundam wing/ac fanfic

Copyright to Eminem for partial use of lyrics from "Like Toy Soldiers"

Copyright to Bandai for use of Gundam Wing, I don't own it dammit! (Soon my precious, oh but how soon…maniacal laugh)

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit torn apart We never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers

Heero Yuy stared at his laptop and the stark, harsh typed words stared right back. God help him and his condemned soul. He pondered the thought of whether or not to continue his attempt at letting out his feelings. He was expected to be perfect and never show emotion, so over time he had learned that if he didn't want to self-combust with pent up feelings, then he had to let them out somehow. He figured why not let it out to the one thing he trusted in this hell-bent world, his computer. He brushed his unruly brown bangs out of his vision and continued typing with fast precision due to numerous hours, which did not seem to impair his vision or his posture, in front of the computer.

I'm suppose to be the soldier who never blows his composure
Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders
I ain't never suppose to show it, my crew ain't suppose to know it

Placing his head in his hands he smirked idly at himself. He wondered what Duo would think if he knew that Heero was struggling to make simple words rhyme. Well, no one ever needed to read the sort of things that he had written anyway. Nobody ever should touch his computer, no matter what the circumstances being. Eyes narrowed, Heero slaved away again, taking his frustrations out on his keyboard. He was punching down the keys with as much venomous power his fingers would allow before he broke the thing…again.

I never drag 'em in battles that I can handle less I absolutely have to
I'm suppose to set an example, I need to be the leader
My crew looks for me to guide 'em
If some shit ever just pop off I'm suppose to be beside 'em

Well, he almost always mentioned the team in his writings. Did they really care about him? He thought they did at least, but he had been fooled before. It would inwardly scar him if any of group turned on him. Especially him. But of course, he will never know, because Heero would never wittingly tell anyone. Heero first admitted to himself that one of the other gundam pilots captured his barred heart about three months ago, and ever since then he has been brooding. His ominous mood had captured the curiosity of the fellow pilots relentlessly. Let them wonder, because this perfect soldier wasn't about to let down his barriers to them, he didn't want to end up hurting them in the end.