For all the appreciation I have gotten, I would like to thank the following nice reciewers; Everyone of you! lol. but no seriously, you guys are letting me express myself. I appreciate the time you take to read and review my story. Thanks again. And now, on with the story. a little note, this is what Hermione sees in her sub concious state told from her point of view.

Shall I live or Shall I die?

As I slip past I finally realize my mistake. How could I have been so stupid? I did not know that this would have happened.

" Hermione... they all left you. You are not welcomed or wanted by them... Draco abandoned you after you confessed your heart... Harry and Ron left your side when you needed them... Everyone is gone..." a voice called out.

The briliant white room that I was in now faded to a black. An inky, dreadful black... "No I know that they care! I know that someone down there cares!" I scream at the unseen voice.

"You are dead and out of their lives. They do not have you holding them back anymore... They are free."

" They would never betray me like that!" I call back. Wait, Ron did. Harry did. My mom left me. Jake abused me. Everyone is hurting me... "I don't-I don't know." I say hoarsley.

"You are not even sure yourself... they have done nothing but use and hurt you. They messed with your feelings... You are worthless to them... They don't and never had needed you. NEVER!"

" They would never have gotten this far without me!"

"You are right my dear. They would have made it further...!"

" I don't- I DON'T BELIEVE YOU!" I screamed as loud as I could.

"You are a foul, untrustworthy evil depressed girl. They wanted you dead for so long now... Couldn't you see you were holding them back? You betrayed their trust. You lied and you hurt them. Your abuse was their acts of revenge on you. They made you hurt just like you made them!"

"No! Harry and Ron I know that they want me back! Even Draco! I was his life line!"

"He didn't even cry... After you told him you love him... He didn't show emotion. You were just a toy for him to fuck up again!"

"No!" a clip of Draco sitting in the common room with a blonde haired girl flashes through my mind.

'And to think that she actually is gone!' Draco says to the girl.

' oooo Drakie, now it is just me and you alone together.'

' To the death of Hermione Granger!' Draco says and they tap glasses. He leans over and kisses the girl on the lips.

"NOOOOOO!" I scream.

" Everyone hates you. Nobody loves you. They all left you to fall... No body tried to save you... They all left you..." At that point, I knew that they were right. They were gone. I dropped to my knees with my chest heaving hard. "you know it is true... Why don't you just end it? You have no need, no desire to live anymore. Just go and never return. They won't miss you. They want. You. Gone." he said flatly. His voice entranced me. They all hate me. Everyone of them. No one wanted me there. I was a waste of space and I was holding them back. Harry had even told me that before...

"Hermione, stay back. You will just stop us from doing what we need to."

"But Harry!"

"No! You just stay here you are to weak and to much of a hassle for this mission. See you in a bit Mione." he said and ran off.

Everyone is leaving me. They all wanted me to go. Everyone of them hates me. I'm a freak. An emotionally unstable freak. "Please just stop!" I scream and a single tear glides down my face.

"You see it now don't you? You see the hate in their eyes. The joy in them now that you are gone. Not even your dad cares about you..." he's right. He shouldn't care... I've lied to him since mother left.

"My angel..." a voice calls. A womans voice.

"M-Mom?"

"Yes. They do love you. They all do. He put lies in your head. Draco is crying for you. Your dad is hurting. The whole school wants you to wake up..."

"But they hate me."

" No they don't. You must come back. The earth needs your power to stop Voldemort. They need Element!"

"What can I do?"

"Vanquish the darkness fom the world. Let the power of the light shine again."

"Take me back with you..."

MEANWHILE... (told in 3rd person)

The nurses room was empty except for Hermione's limp dying form. Everyone was in the Great Hall to hear news about their classmates condition. Dumbledore stood and the whole hall hushed...

"We are sad to say that a fellow student of yours has recently been put in the intensive care unit in our Hospital Wing. She had apparently lost all hope in life due to the torment that her peers had bestowed upon her." his tone was somber with a hint of anger. "She is not, I am afraid, doing to well and the probability of her surviving is slim to none." the hall was silent except for the tears that were falling from peoples eyes. Draco was silent. "She was our head girl and the bightest witch our school has had the pleasure of hosting in over- well I forget how long. We are going to greatly mourn her loss."

While this was going on, a figure moved in the darkness of the Hospital Wing. A figure walked, practically glided out of the room and started to descend the stairwell.

"I would now like to take a moment of silence to honor her memory." the hall went silent. No tears fell. Just as Dumbledore was about to break the silence, the doors to the Great Hall flew open in a single gust of wind. Everyone directed their attention to the door. Standing there was a very strong looking Hermione considering the circumstances. A faint silver light was shining around her. Everyone looked between Harry, Ron, Ginny, Draco, and Hemione. Draco was the first to react. He stood up drawing a lot of attentione to himself. He walked to her and they looked into each other's eyes.

"Did you miss me?" she choked out. He hugged her tightly. She ran her fingers through his hair as he finally cried on her shoulder. Everyone watched oin awe as the toughest guy in school cried on Hermione's shoulder.

"I missed you more than you would belive." he said.

"I'm sorry. I am so so sorry."

"Don't apologize. You didn't do anything wrong..."

"I did. I screwed everything up and I almost ended it..."

"You never 'screwed' anything up. Look at me." her eyes were full of tears as she did, "You were the best thing that ever happened to me." a loud crashing sound was heard against the door to the school. Over and over again.

They made eye contact and said at the same time. "The final battle is about to begin..."

a/n:
I updated. Sorry to leave you hanging but the next chapter should be really long!