Title: Love & Tribulations
Rating: NC-17
Content: Love, Tribulations LoL. Sex.
Distribution: Please Ask First
Characters: (Non Wrestling) Cj, Nikki, Faith & Dogma (Wrestlers) Sean O'Haire, Mark
Jindrak, Randy Orton, Dave Batista, John Cena, Rico & Jeff Hardy (sorry if you don't think Jeff classes as a wrestler but I do). Also some minor parts from others.
Disclaimer: I only own Cj, Nikki and Faith. Everyone else owns themselves. Although there's a few of them I wouldn't mind owning LoL
WARNINGS i.e.: There may be some mild language, sexual reference and sex
Summary by Chapter: Nikki wakes up to her demons. Whilst making new enemies

Love & Tribulations – Chapter 18

NEXT DAY

The sun shone fiercely through the window disturbing a carefree Nikki, she rubbed her closed eyes and opened them to view her surroundings quickly closing them waiting for her eyes to adjust to the light. Nikki sat up on the edge of her bed rubbing her aching head, the feeling of nausea bubbling inside her swollen stomach and a piercing throbbing in her head making the room spin. Nikki winced in pain wanting nothing more than to crawl back into bed and pull the covers over her head but she knew she had to get up and face the day against her desire to hibernate till the brightness of day had gone. Nikki using her nightstand as an aid stood up and stumbled over to her bathroom she turned on the shower and stepped in every bead of water stinging sharply on her tender skin. She had just begun to relax when the bathroom door opened Nikki stood motionless not knowing who it was she slowly pulled back the shower curtain and almost jumped out her skin as she saw Sean stood in her doorway.

"Oh my God Sean what are you doing here? Don't look at me!" she said hiding her naked body with a transparent shower curtain

Sean smiled at Nikki "Why you haven't got anything I haven't kissed or licked"

"What?" asked a confused Nikki

"Don't tell me you don't remember?"

"Remember?" asked Nikki "No! No we didn't?"

"Yes we did, over and over and over and --"

"Stop it! No, no, no, no, no. I – we – no you're lying? Please tell me you're lying?"

"Don't tell me you don't feel it? I'm still throbbing down there"

Suddenly a flashback hit Nikki like a bolt of lighting

Sean pulled Nikki's chest to his hungry lips kissing and sucking her stunning breasts as Nikki gyrated on Sean's stiff member. Nikki feeling Sean sliding deep inside her filling her to the brim she began screaming in ecstasy as she gripped tight on his bulging biceps. Nikki frantically bouncing up and down on his cock the friction between them sending astounding sensations through her hot writhing body Nikki drawing blood on Sean's arms as she scratched with the intensity of the mind blowing orgasm sweeping across her a sigh of relief and satisfaction echoed through the room as Nikki collapsed against an equally happy Sean not leaving a minute for rest as Nikki attacked Sean's lips biting at his bottom lip before parting

Nikki jumped out of her flashback "Oh my God we did" Nikki gripped hold of the curtain "How drunk was I?"

"As drunk as I was"

"Why did I reciprocate?"

"Reciprocate? You initiated it; you dragged me out the bar and kissed me"

"How do you remember this so clearly?" Nikki screamed causing her head to ache more

"I can handle my drink" said Sean handing Nikki a towel

"But John"

"Get dried and dressed I'll fix you a hangover cure" Sean left the bathroom and Nikki sighed to herself. She stepped out of the shower and wrapped the towel around herself and wiped away the steam on the mirror and looked at her watery reflection. She saw nothing but shame looking back at her, how could she do this to Cena? How could she sleep with Sean? How come she couldn't remember it? And how drunk was she? Nikki's head spun with questions driving her into a frenzy until she took her rage out on the utility shelf knocking all her hair products and make up off onto the floor.

"You ok in there?" called Sean from the kitchen

"I'm fine!" screamed Nikki "Just fine" she said to her reflection

Nikki got herself dried and dressed and walked into the kitchen where Sean presented her with a glass full of what looked like urine.

"What is that?" she asked turning her nose up in disgust

"It's warm honey and lemon water. It'll cure that hangover right up"

"If I had a spear through my head I wouldn't drink that"

"Try!" insisted Sean pushing the glass under her nose

"Do you want me to puke?"

"Fine, suffer. Was just trying to help" he smiled taking the glass and pouring the water down the sink

"I appreciate it but that was gross"

"Hey about us don't worry about it. I'm not guna tell anyone. We were drunk and I know you love Cena and I'm not guna jeopardise that for you. You two belong together"

"I hope John feels that way too because its guna take a lot of forgiveness to get us over this"

"What? You're not going to tell him are you?"

"I have to I can't sit on this, lying to him every time we talk. I can't do it"

"Nikki you can't tell him. If you tell him he'll never forgive you. Not after Dave"

"I can't lie to him"

"You can't risk telling him either"

Suddenly the phone rang and Nikki jumped for the phone to stop the annoying ring that pierced through her eardrums.

"Hello"

"Hey kid"

"John?" she said looking over at Sean who was shaking his head not wanting her to tell Cena

"How are you?" he asked

"I'm ok"

"Good I'm glad then you won't mind accompanying me to dinner tonight then?"

"You've finished helping Mark then?"

"Yep and tonight's my last night babe lets not waste it hah?"

"Ok"

"So it's a date?" Nikki nodded her head "Nikki?"

"Yeah it's a date"

"Great well I'll come round in an hour or so to see you"

"No!"

"No?"

"Err—Cj had some problems with Randy and I'm guna go check on her"

"Oh yeah he told me about that. He thought he was doing something right and now he feels like he's let her down. And there's no worse feeling than the feeling you get when you know you've made someone feel so much pain"

Nikki closed her eyes feeling them begin to well up with the feeling of guilt running through her veins knowing that if she told Cena he would be hurting and she didn't want to hurt him like that.

"Yeah, I better get going"

"Ok babe well call me when you get home"

"Ok bye" Nikki hung up the phone and hit herself in the head with the handset causing herself even more pain than she was already in. Sean took the handset out of her hand.

"You did the right thing"

"Yeah?"

"Yeah"

"Then why does it feel so bad?"

"Listen I'm guna get going the last thing you need right now is me sticking around. I'm sorry this has made you feel so bad. But I'm not going to apologise about last night I enjoyed every minute of it"

"Not helping Sean!" said Nikki stepping off her stool and pushing Sean out the door as Nikki went to slam the door Sean pushed it open and looked down at Nikki

"Don't tell him"

"Go" Sean left and Nikki closed the door and rested against it sighing at herself.

LATER – AT CJ'S APARTMENT

Cj opened the door and Nikki pushed past her sister and walked straight into the kitchen and retrieved a bottle of wine from the wine rack. She took a large glass out of the cupboard and filled it to the brim and downed the contents banging the glass on the kitchen counter and filling it half way up.

"You ok?"

Nikki drank the half glass of wine and put the glass down and looked at her sister

"Come on come tell me what's wrong" said Cj walking over to the sofa and sitting down soon followed by Nikki who brought the bottle with her.

"I have a serious problem"

"What is it?"

"I don't know. I have a problem like a permanent wrong chip or something. Whenever I have a good thing I ruin it. Why do I do that?"

"I'm guessing this is about John but I need details to sympathise"

"I love him, I do"

"I know"

"I came to see you yesterday and Sean was coming out the building and he told me you were sleeping so he took me for a drink to explain why you were just going to bed at 3pm and why he was in your apartment. Seventeen hours later I had Sean in my bathroom telling me we'd slept together"

"You slept with Sean?"

"I don't know"

"How can you not know?"

"I was drunk I don't remember anything"

"And you couldn't feel it this morning? Nikki if you'd slept with Sean trust me you would be wearing the battle scars this morning"

Nikki unwrapped the shawl she had around her shoulders to reveal scratches on her back; she turned and pulled down her shirt to reveal a love bite on her breast.

"That's Sean's handy work" said a knowledgeable Cj

"I had like, this flashback like, I'm slowly piecing the night together. Cj it was hot, he was so masterful and he knew what he was doing and I'd never felt that way before. Just remembering I could feel the excitement inside myself"

"Nikki don't torture yourself"

"What about John?"

"What he doesn't know Nik"

"I can't lie to him"

"When it's this big Nik it's a choice between lying to him and losing him"

"But if he loves me he'll forgive me"

"He's human Nik, he'll only take so much and I think Dave pushed him to the edge don't you?"

Nikki took a drink of the wine and slouched back in Cj's chair contemplating her next move. Should she tell Cena and hope for the best? Or should she keep it from him and live with not only the guilt of her actions with Sean but with the guilt of her not telling Cena the truth?

Cj watched her sister as she took another drink of the wine and sat back feeling sorry for herself. Cj let out a pissed off grunt and stood up and walked into her room. Moments later Nikki walked in to see Cj picking up the debris of her anger from the day before.

"What was that snide sound about?"

"Oh you noticed then? You're not the only person in the world?"

"What's this about?"

"You slept with Sean and cheated on Cena big mistake big problem I sympathise I really do. But the only reason you met Sean yesterday was because he was here looking after me and trying to keep you away so I could sleep. And you haven't even asked me how I'm feeling or told me I can vent to my only sister. You just came in laid your problems out to seek guidance and sympathy while I sat there with a head and heart full of problems myself. But do you give a damn?"

"Of course I give a damn"

"Yeah you looked real bothered about me and my problems while you were out there looking sorry for yourself"

"I'm sorry Cj I've had a bad morning and I have the 'worst' hangover ever. I'm sorry I should be more considerate"

"Yeah you should. Quit being so damn selfish all the time. It's always about Nikki"

"Woah Cj I said I was sorry you can quit being such a bitch now. I know you've got problems and you're hurting but I'm not guna be your target"

"No just the thorn in my side"

"What?"

"Nikki, do you realise that when you cheat on your guys you're hurting everyone around you? Everyone has to lie for you, I'm lying to your guys most of who I don't give a damn about but now I have to lie to Cena a guy I think is absolutely amazing and way too good for you and all because you did a Nikki"

"A Nikki?"

"Yeah a Nikki, you're right you do have a problem but it's not a permanent wrong chip it's because you're scared of letting people in because that jerk hurt you so bad. Guys are no walk in the park but not every guy is like that, especially not Cena and you know that. So why are you doing this to him?"

"I didn't mean to"

"What you just accidentally ended up in bed with Sean, and you accidentally had the hot masterful sex where you'd never felt it that good before? Nikki don't try and kid me that you don't remember it"

"I don't!"

"And Dave? Don't you remember that either?"

"Dave and I were together before John came into the picture"

"You were playing them off against each other. You fell out with Cena and walked into a shower with Dave just stop trying to talk your way out of this because you're just choking yourself in your web of lies"

"Lies? You wanna talk about lies? Ok pass me the phone and let's call Mark and see how he feels about you sleeping with Sean?"

"Oh grow up Nikki just because you're not getting your own way you're going to tell on me?"

"No Cj I'm just trying to let you know you're not as perfect as you think you are"

"No I'm not but I'm not selfish either I don't dismiss others problems to parade mine in the spotlight"

"Oh I don't have to listen to this I'm going" Nikki walked out of Cj's bedroom and headed for the door as Cj walked behind her

"Yeah that's it run away you don't want to be where the fire is because you might get burned. Get over yourself Nikki and for God sake put Cena out of his misery before I do"

Nikki turned around and pushed her sister against the wall holding her shirt collar "You say one word to Cena about me and Sean and not only will I tell Mark about you and Sean I'll also make sure you can't utter another word ever again"

"I'm shaking in my boots really I am. Even if you do tell Mark what's he going to do? Make a real threat if you're going to make one" Cj pushed Nikki away and out of the apartment and just barely missing Nikki swung the door closed behind her.

LATER – AT MARK AND FAITHS

Mark and Faith were laid on the sofa Mark hovering over Faith their lips locked in a lustful embrace, Faiths hand inside Mark's jeans rubbing his limp cock playfully.

Knock Knock!

Faith turned her head to look at the closed door and Mark pulled her back into the embrace through the kiss Faith uttered

"The door Mark"

"Ignore it they'll come back"

"Ok" said Faith with a smile as she continued to tease his tenderness

"Come on guys I know you're in there"

Mark and Faith both looked at the door recognising the voice. Faith pulled her hand out of Mark's jeans as Mark shook his head begging her not to and pushed him up and made her way to the door. She opened the door and invited Cj in.

"Hey Cj what's up?"

"I just came over to ask you something real quick"

"Thank God" said Mark. Cj looked at him with a raised eyebrow

"What's up with him?" she asked Faith

"You caught us in the middle of something"

"Hey! Do you mind not telling my sister about our sex life?"

"Like I care Mark I have enough problems without picturing my brother doing...eugh!"

Faith linked arms with Cj "So what did you want to ask?"

"I was just wondering if I could come back out on the road with you guys when you leave tomorrow."

"Of course you can but why would you want to?"

"Just to get away from New York"

"You only just got back"

"Yeah well a short time in New York seems like an eternity. I won't be on the road long I promise just a little while"

"It's fine with me"

"Ok well I'll be over tomorrow then"

"Ok see ya then"

Cj left the apartment and as soon as the door closed Mark was caressing Faith's neck

"You know what she's up to, don't you?"

"No" said an uninterested Mark

"She's going to hunt another guy and rub it in Randy's face"

"You think?"

"It's what your sisters do"

"Nikki maybe but not Cj"

"Mark you don't know your sister as well as you think, trust me"

LATER – ON NIKKI & CENA'S DATE

Nikki and Cena had enjoyed a night at an Italian restaurant and were walking back to Nikki's arm in arm. Nikki still feeling guilty about what happened with Sean the night before and feeling horrible about her argument with Cj. Nikki was freakishly quiet and uncharacteristic. Cena picked up on this and after a night of one-sided conversations he decided to confront Nikki.

"Hey baby, are you ok? You've been really quiet all night"

Nikki snapped out of her trance and looked at Cena all she wanted to do was tell him the truth and ease the guilt she was feeling. She knew Cena would hate her for it but right now no one cold hate Nikki more than she hates herself. Nikki smiled at Cena and hooked his arm resting her head against his shoulder.

"I'm fine I'm just suffering from last night"

"Good night hah?"

"I don't remember it"

"Well come here and let me kiss you better" he said swinging Nikki round in front of him and holding her in his strong arms kissing her gently on the head before drawing her into a passionate kiss.

They finally parted the kiss making Nikki feel even worse than she did before a hangover would feel better than the guilt she was feeling inside. They walked the next two blocks to Nikki's apartment. They walked inside her apartment and before the door had closed Cena had Nikki pressed against the wall he began an attack on her neck and collarbone. Nikki fell into Cena's touch and melted as Cena's hands moved up her body slowing edging her skirt up revealing her mint panties. Cena placed his thumbs in the sides of her panties and started to gently pull them down as Nikki felt the panties brushing down her thighs she suddenly had a flashback of her amazing night with Sean

Nikki was sat on the edge of a chest of drawers gripping tight onto the back of the drawers for extra support as Sean stood between her legs pounding hard into her rocking the chest of drawers with his every stroke. His hands gripping her thighs his nails puncturing her skin Nikki let out a loud moan as she felt his thick member sliding in and out of her his every inward stroke teasing her as she felt an explosion inside, goose bumps appearing on her skin as she felt herself tighten around Sean's massive length making Sean's penis seem bigger she felt the throbbing of his cock and pushed herself against him as he pushed deep inside her. Wanting every stroke her body missing his shaft for the few seconds he pulled out. Nikki felt herself flood over his throbbing probe as she moved her grip to his broad masculine shoulders squeezing tight as she felt her release, Sean stopped thrusting and laid his hands flat on the chest of drawers as he came inside Nikki soaking her cervix and leaving them both in a pool of absolute pleasure

Nikki jumped out of her flashback like out of a bad dream she pushed Cena away covered her mouth almost scared that she might tell Cena about her passionate night of sex with Sean. Nikki chewed her bottom lip and closed her eyes not wanting to see the expression on Cena's face. She took a deep breath and opened her eyes and looked at Cena she pulled her panties back up and pulled her skirt down.

"What happened?" asked Cena

"I just can't"

"This is what you wanted the other night. What's changed?"

"Nothing I do want this just not now, not tonight" Nikki looked at Cena's angry and confused expression and she searched her mind for an excuse "I just don't feel too good"

"I'm back on the road tomorrow"

"I know"

"So we're going to leave this open then?"

"I think we should. You were right the other night us sleeping together would just mean we're picking up where we left off and I don't want to. I want to put everything behind us and start a fresh. But that doesn't mean that I don't want to, because I do. I just think we should leave it for now ok?"

"Yeah whatever" said a frustrated Cena walking out the apartment and slamming the door behind him.

Nikki ran to her sofa and knelt on it looking out the window and down into the street. Cena hit the bottom of the stoop and looked up at Nikki's window. Nikki smiled but Cena just ignored her and walked away. Nikki turned around threw a cushion across the room. She walked into the bathroom and turned on the shower and got undressed and climbed into the shower drawing the shower curtain and standing directly under the shower head soaking herself with the hot water her mascara running down her cheeks and her eyes becoming black circles of smoke as her make up washed into one big mess. Nikki reached for the bar of soap and started to lather her skin and scrub vigorously as if trying to wash away her sins and rub off a layer of deceit. She felt dirty; she couldn't believe she'd sat across from the man she loves all night with this secret burning a hole inside her. And even though Cena didn't know she could feel his disappointment in her like knives in her back. Nikki hung her head and stood motionless letting the water wash over her.

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