Chapter 6

Sam had wanted this so much that she didn't pull away from him, at least not immediatly. The kiss was very passionate yet he was gentle. She didn't want her lips to leave his but by giving into the kiss was bad enough, in the sence she didn't want to get involved with him. If he had a differnet job that didn't involve him killing people she would definitly not even consider breaking thier kiss.

When she pulled away from him all she could do was stare into his mesmerizing blue eyes, not for the life of her could she think of anything to say to him.

He knew that she wasn't going to say anything to him, and if she did it wasn't going to be anything nice.

" I'm sorry, I know I shouldn't have did that. When I was going by you'r place I guess I just couldn't help myself, I needed to kiss you ."

"Don't be sorry, I wanted to kiss you too. I have since I first layed eyes on you, but this can't happen again Jason. I don't want to involved in your you at all. " When she finished she had tears in her eyes.

"I know."

"Bye Jason" was all she said before closing the door.

Two months had passed since thier kiss. They haden't seen each other since except for bumping into each other either at Kelly's or at GH. They wouls say Hi to each other and go thier seperate ways, pretending like nothing even happened. If anyone had been paying enough attention they would have seen the pain and saddness in thier eyes. For Sam being appart seemed to be hared then being with him.

Every night since thier kiss Sam had though about it. She had second guessed herself on weather telling Jason that she didn't want to be with him was the right thing to do. Maybe she should give his work a chance, maybe it really isn't as bad as she was making it out to be, but then again maybe it really was.

She let out a scream, "God I've got to stop this". She went and got her jacket , she needed a drink. She though about going to Jakes but then decided on The Cellar.

Sam haden't been to The Cellar in awhile, lately she had been working alot of double shifts, when she wasn;t at the hospital she was at home sleeping or thinking about Jason.

she walked in and the place looked the same as it had on her visit, she looked towards a table in the corner and there she saw Jason, but who was that woman he was with.

She relized that she had been staring when she noticed that Jason was know looking ar her. She just continued walking towards the bar. She ordered a glass of wine , then she noticed Jason sit down next to her.

"Hey"

"Hi, Out on a date?"

"Uh I wouldn't really call it a date , we're just um friends"

"Whats her name" she didn't mean to act like she cared but she couldn't help it she wanted to know who he was there with.

"Melissa." as soon as he said that he could see the pain in her eyes.

"Well I hope you guys have a goos time" She stood up to leave before he would notice the tears in her eyes.

"Sam, Its not what you think." he said while grabbing her arm

" Well I think that you are here on a date.She looks as though she wouldnt mind your lifestyle is use to youe lifestyle therefore she wouldnt have anything stopping her from being with you, what more could you want Jason."

"You're what I want Sam, not Melissa. I only agreed to come on this date so I could get out of the house and maybe stop thinking about you, but all I did since we got here was think about how much I would rather be here with you."

Sam didn't care who saw her crying she couldn't help it. Before he was able to get another word out she left.

Jason walked back over to Melissa .

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have agreed to come here with you. " He grabbed his jacket and headed home.

Sam had been home now for fours hours since she had ran into Jason. She haden't stopped thinking about what he said. She couldn't deny her feelings for him and it was obvious to her what his feelings toward her were. She couldn;t take this anymore, she knew what she had to do.

Jason was home laying in bed, he had been now for the past three hours. He couldn'y get his mind of off Sam, and how gorgeous she had looked tongiht. He wished she would just give into her feelings for him. He knew she didn't want to be part of his lifestyle, but he couldn't help but think that maybe she was using it as a cover too. He was deep in thought when he heard a knock at his door. Who would be here at this hour.

Before he answered the door he got his gun out of the closet and put it in the waistband of his sweatpants.

When he opened the door he got a chock to see Sam standing there. He had no idea why she was there or what she wanted but he didn't care.

She walked up to him, and closed any space that was left between them. She lifted her head up, and by the look in her eyes he knew what she wanted, he leaned his head down and kissed her.